✿ Bad news? Or good? ✿

We were now naked, fully naked.

Am I really ready to do it?

Before I could process that question and come up with an answer, Hanbin stopped assaulting my bottom and laid down beside me, his hands trembling.

"What...what's wrong?"  I whispered, fear creeping up on me. What if he didn't want me anymore? Was it because he didn't like my body? After all those things he said, did he still not want me?

He remained silent, and my suspicion grew even stronger.

"Do..do you not want me anymore?"

I stuttered, curling up into a ball beside him and biting on my thumb nervously.

"Nononono." He turned around with wide eyes, reaching out to cover my hands in his.

"No, of course not. It's just.... i don't know if i should let you go through it now. I don't want you to do it unprepared. We've only been dating for 8 months..." He sighed, looking troubled.

He closed his eyes, eyebrows furrowed. I stared at him, resisting the urge to trace my fingers across his eyebrows.

He's right. Am I really ready? I want it, and I know I won't regret it, but I was scared too. There was too much to lose right now. We've only been dating for less than a year, wasn't this too fast? Besides, I was going to debut soon, so I can't risk a scandal.

"I... i guess I'm not ready yet.."

I stuttered, cuddling against him.

He smiled at my touch, then frowned, "You have no idea how hard it was for me to control myself..."

Laughing, I swatted at him playfully, glad that he had controlled himself. Now that the adrenaline had run out, I felt more certain that I really wasn't prepared for it.

For the next few hours, we just laid cuddled together for awhile, talking about everything that had happened recently. I laid there half asleep until he got hungry and we decided to get dressed and head down for dinner.

"What shall we eat?" Hand in hand, we walked out into the streets.

"Hmm... how about-"

Before I could suggest anything, Hanbin's phone rang. He frowned, and picked up.

"Hello? What?? You told me I had the whole day. ..... I... okay. Soon."

He hung up and glanced at me apologetically, and disappointment washed through me again. I tried to shake it off, I had half a day with him already, and that was enough. Be satisfied, Hyemi!!

"I have to go finish recording. I didn't record anything yesterday and they're afraid the release would be delayed. Mianhae ,Hyemi ah."

"Aniya, gwaenchana! Just go and record! I'm really looking forward to your album!!! You've worked so hard for it."

Tiptoeing, I kissed him on the cheek lightly and smiled.

His pleased smile was mixed with surprise, since I seldom initiate a kiss.

"I really have to go. Annyeong, see you soon!!"

Giving me a quick hug, he turned and ran towards the bus stop, stopping now and then to turn back and wave again.

Every single time he turned back, I would flash him a bright smile, waving cheerfully back at him. But when he disappeared out of sight, I finally let my smile disappear.

It didn't feel enough. I wanted more time with him. Every hour away from him felt tortuous. Every second spent away from him only made me miss him more. But he has work to do, and so do I. Sighing, I turned back round towards my manager's car. Back to training!!!

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I entered the practice room and found the other girls jumping around and screaming.

"Ya!!! What's happening??" I shouted over the noise.

"Omo you're back!!!!!! Omo you'll never guess what happened!!!" Koeun said, grabbing my hands and jumping up and down in excitement.

"What??" My eyes widened in curiosity.

"We. Are. Debuting!!!!!!!" The girls screamed together, pausing to look at my reaction.

After a silent pause, the news fully hit me and sunk in.

"We.. WE ARE DEBUTING!!!!!!!!!!"

I screamed, clasping a hand over my mouth in shock. Finally after a whole year of endless training and years of uncertainty, I'M FINALLY DEBUTING!!!

The five of us grabbed onto each other's hands and jumped around wildly in joy, screaming and crying in exhilaration. I was overwhelmed, so many things were happening in just one day.

First, I'd seen Hanbin with another girl, then I'd tried to commit suicide because everything seemed bleak. Then there was the sweet time spent with Hanbin in the hotel. And now, debut??? All the miserable things that had happened now seemed like blessings in disguise.

I guess life really does get better.

Suddenly, the door opened and Lee Soo Man walked in.

"I have bad news and good news. Which do you want to hear first?"

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OHNO WHAT BAD NEWS? AND WHAT GOOD NEWS? YOU'RE FINALLY DEBUTING OMG ISNT THIS SO EXCITING HAHAHAHHA

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