19

May, 2nd

Yoongichi and I have been dating for atleast 5 months now. He motivates me to wake up in the morning, not only that but every in school thinks were cute together, J hope loves teasing us, as well as V and JK. And Jimin... well, I haven't really seen him at school. However, V opened up to me about his feelings for Jimin, which i thought that they would go great together.

I was sitting in Mr. Lee's class with Yoongi, he had his hand on my knee while his head was down. I was just watching Mr. Lee explaining his lesson. When suddenly, the phone rang, Mr. Lee went to pick it up. Suddenly, I was stunned.

"Mr. Kim Seokjin, to the principles office." He instructed.

Yoongi lifted his head and looked at me with widened eyes. "You want me to come with you?" Yoongi asked. I smiled.

"I'll be fine, thank you though." I got up, Yoongi stared at me until i left. That boy sometimes makes my heart feel warm by just one little thing he does.

-I made it to the principles office. I walked in and the principle turned and smiled at me.

"Ah, Mr. Kim Seokjin, please take a seat, you're not in trouble." He said. I sat down and saw this one man standing on the right with a suit and tie, he wasn't Korean at all, he looked like he was from America because of his blue eyes and blonde hair. I looked around, confused but still a little happy.

"Now, Mr. Kim, you have an amazing GPA. You are very intelligent for your age. So a staff of Harvard University has came all the way to Korea to meet you, he speaks fluently in Korean, so don't be shy."

I looked at the college staff... he's from America?! I couldn't believe it, this college from America wants me!

"Hi Mr. Kim, I come from America, my name is Dr. Kenneth. I came here because of your high GPA in this school. We thought a mind like yours should come to America so you can get a proper education! Mind if I show you our majors and academics?!" I nodded. He pulled out a pamphlet and handed it to me.

He explained every course and what i could major in. He said students with high GPA's like mine can get in easily. He said i can live in the dorms and have a roommate. Looking at the pictures of the college, it was huge and beautiful! I could get a high paying job in America! Wow! This was amazing!

"So, what do you say Mr. Kim?" Dr. Kenneth asked me. I looked up with a smile.

This college had everything i wanted! But... then...

What about my mother and Yoongi?....

I looked down with a frown at the pamphlet.

"What's the matter?" Dr. Kenneth asked.

"Will i be able to see my mother and boyfriend if i go?" I asked.

"Im afraid not, you're going to be in America for a good 4 to 6 years, or live your life there." He said. I looked down. I couldn't leave them... they're special to me.

"Look, I understand you have those special people but you must choose to go on. So are you joining or not?" I looked at him.

"I'll think about it..."

He sighed and got a folder out.

"Here, these are the papers you need to join. Please, turn them in before August 10th. If not, you cannot attend this school and get a free passport to America."

-When i walked out of the office, I noticed everyone was having lunch. I looked at the time on my phone and saw that we were only 10 minutes into lunch. I rushed to the hallway me and Yoongi always meet up at. when I got there, I saw him sitting there with his earbuds and phone.

I walked up to him, hoping he would notice. He did. He got up and wrapped his arms around me.

"I missed you babe!" He cried out. I hugged him back, saying i miss him too. He clutched my face with one hand. Holding my other hand with the other.

"What happened at the principles office? Why were you there for so long?" He was concern. I could tell. I looked down, i didn't want to break him apart or get mad at me for wanting to go to this college. I didn't want to hurt him. But it'll only hurt him more if i kept it a secret.

"Yoongi... we need to talk."

His eyes widened when i said this. He stared at me, his eyes in utter fear about what i was about to say.

"What is it that you want to talk about?" He said, his voice sounded a little low, like he was scared.

I looked down at my feet, anxiety was rising in me but i kept calm. I put my hand over his hand that held my cheek, i looked back up and finally spoke.

"The principle.... recommended me a college..." I said. Yoongi smiled.

"Oh! That's good! Jeez! You scared me! I thought you were going to break up with me!" Yoongi said in a relief. My eyes widened... I haven't told him the bad part of it. He wrapped me in his arms.

"Y-Yoongi, wait, that's not all. This college, it's in America...."

Yoongi immediately lifted his head up from the hug and stared at me with big eyes.

"A-America...." he repeated. I nodded.

He let go of my waist and began wandering around in stress. His hand ran through his hair as he sighed. I stared at him.

"Y-You do know what that means... right?" I asked. He looked at me and bit his bottom lip.

" You're going all the way to America for this college." He said, looking down. He was heart broken to hear this.

"Yoongi, look, I want to go. But i also want you...."

I saw that his eyes were getting watery.... i never seen Yoongi cry before... I didn't want him to cry over me.

"Please don't cry..." i said.

He walked up to me and wrapped his arms around me tightly. I can hear him sniffling on my shoulder. I rubbed his back as he cried. I didn't know what to say. I felt tears emerged a little. I didn't cry, i just let out a tear.

-

Yoongi and I sat there in the hall, we both ate our food. We both talked about what was going to happen if i was to go to this school.

"Yoongichi." He looked up from his lunch, chewing his food.

"Hm?" He always says.

"What's going to happen.... if.... ya know.... i do go to that school..."

Yoongi wiped his lips with a napkin. He looked back at me. His bangs cover some parts of his eyes.

"Nothing. Nothing is going to change. Just your destination." He said. I cocked my head.

"But what about us? We won't be able to go out and eat or sleep together and cuddle. I won't get to kiss you or hug you at all." I said.

Yoongi clutched my my face with one hand. His warmth extended across my face and into my heart.

"Then I'll wait." He said.

I looked down, i felt tears about to emerge. Yoongi pulled me in closer. He clutched my face with both hands. Tears streamed down my face.

"Don't cry. There's no reason to cry, we still have almost 4 months. Besides, im not forcing you to go. Nobody is, it's your decision. But it's a big opportunity for you, so i suggest you go."

I wiped my eyes with my sleeves, seeing Yoongi comforting me made me cry more. I didn't want to go, i didn't want to leave Yoongi. I didn't want everything to change...

"B-But, I-I don't want to go... I want to stay with you." I was breathing harshly due to me spilling my eyes. Out, Yoongi put his forehead on my forehead, making my face have no space. I stared into his agonizing eyes. It hurts to have someone as good as Yoongi.....

"Look at me." He whispered

"I can manage on my own. Even if we can't see eachother, I trust you. Atleast i can still call you mine."

"Remember this, Jin, you don't have to sacrifice your life for me, i want what's good for you in life. I want what's going to make you successful. I know, i want you to stay, but i want you to go and achieve your dreams. Even if your dreams doesn't include me. I still want you to achieve it."

He pulled me into a kiss, i savored it because it may have been my last...