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Please read the A/N at the end, it's important :'D________________________

She stayed all night with the voice in her head. It kept talking the same things: "kill yourself. You don't have anything to live for. You ain't happy here and death is the only other option.'' She was so tired of it. In the middle of the night the girl just put her hands on her ears and started screaming. But the voice somehow was louder than her own shout. I'm going crazy. I'm going shucking mad. That was the only thought exept for the person in her head. She started calling the voice a person because that definitely weren't her thoughts. But she didn't know how it was possible to have another soul in her body. She didn't care though, the only wish the girl had was this voice/soul/person to shut the shuck up. ***

''Hey! Hey, greenie. Are you awake?'' Suddenly she heard a sound from the outside and quickly got up. She stood on tiptoe and looked outside the tiny window that had. And there was him: Thomas. He looked tired but when she showed up his face lightened up.

''How's going in there?'' The boy asked going closer to her.

''Mmmm well it's cold and I can't sleep on that floor. Also I have voices in my head who try to persuade me to kill myself. So I think it's pretty great.'' She answered sarcastically.

''That's what I thought. I stayed here 3 days and I think I saw the hell.'' He looked at the ground. ''I heard a scream. Was...was that you?''

''Uhhuh.'' She nodded a little embarrassed from her stupid action.

''Don't worry. I won't tell anyone....unless they had already heard you.''

''I'm sorry. But...everyhing here,'' she pointed at her mind, ''is a big mess. I...I can't explain but-''

''And you don't need to.'' He cut her off. ''I completely understand.'' He got closer and now she could see his face perfectly. It was tired but showed safety. She smiled at the words. Finally someone who understands my shucking mind. She thought. And then realized the voice was silent.

''Thomas! Is that you?'' Suddenly a voice broke their perfect silence. It was Alby.

''I gotta go. We'll see soon.'' And after those words Thomas was gone. The glader ran to the Deadheads were he and Chuck slept at night. Alby came over the Slammer.

''Greenie. Who were you talking to?'' Alby asked holding a torch.

''No one. Exept myself.'' She lied.

''Okay so shut up. And I guess you screamed earlier. Just keep quiet.'' The leader ordered and she rolled her eyes. Alby was getting awlful. He got to the Homestead and that was the last time she saw him.***

The girl was sitting on the floor looking at the wall which now was getting orange because of the sunrise. She was so bored. The only chair in the Slammer was made from iron and she couldn't break it and make something from the pieces. The prison was dusty and her clothes were all gray. Her mind was empty and the only movements were her fingers. They drew lines on the dusty floor. Soon she started drawing everything that came up to her mind. And since the girl couldn't remember her old life, all of the drawings were from the glade. She drew all of the boys that she knew and wrote their names above their heads. Then her fingers started drawing other gladers which she had remembered slightly. Soon all the floor was covered with sketches. There were parts of the maze, the Deadheads and everything elese that she could think of. Then a sudden noice woke her up from the paintings into the reality. She turned her head to see who was and spotted blonde hair from the bars.

''I convinced Alby to let you out.'' A tired voice came from outside. Then Newt walked in looking at her. She got up fastly and hurried to get fresh air.

The boy didn't follow her immediately. But when he finally got out from the Slammer his expression was changed. And for the first time the girl couldn't read it. That confused her but the curiousity soon showed.

''Why does Alby hate me so much? What have I done? Exept for trying to make this place happy.''

''He doesn't hate you. But the problem is that Alby is very into the rules of this place and you just destroy them.'' Newt shrugged.

''Destroy? Are you sure the right word is not ''change''?'' She raised her eyebrows.

''I just say his words. I don't think them.'' Newt fastly explained.

''I see you agree with him.'' She started walking to Frypan's kitchen. Her stomach gorwled.

''What? No! I heard the comments from last night and they were all positive. Honestly I think that was my best ''birthday'' ever.'' Newt followed her.

''Not that you remember your birthdays.''

''I'm just saying-''

''Ugh, stop! Just stop, Newt! I don't care! I hate this place and everyone in it! My job is to find a shucking way out! I don't wanna be involved in any other thing!'' She was yelling now. Suddenly her stomach stopped growling. The hunger disappeared. The girl started walking to the maze.

''Wait, where are you going?'' Newt caught her hand but she pulled her away.

''To the maze. I have to run today. Minho made a graphic. You can ask him if you want.'' She lied. The girl just wanted to run away for some time and the maze was the only option. And she didn't wait Newt to respond and just sprinted from the north door. ***

The girl ran along corridors until she couldn't breathe anymore and was forced to stop. She made a little break and then continued ignoring the pain in her lungs. Then when she turned for a milionth time to the right in front of her there was...nothing. Only the sky. She shook her head but the view didn't change.

''What the shuck?'' She stopped in front of the space and stared at it. The girl threw a rock. It started falling and falling but never hit ground. She soon lost it as it got too small.

''Strange.'' She murmured and stood there still thinking about it. It is impossible. That defies every law of physics. The girl waited for an explanation to show in her head but it didn't came. Then, suddenly from the space came the mist.

''Ahhh that is where you come from!'' She nodded understanding. But when the mist swallowed her it was different. She felt a faint vaccum. Then it got stronger and stronger until it was pulling her to the edge of the sky. She tried to run away but couldn't. The vaccum was too strong plus she lost orientation from the white mist. Panic raised in her but it couldn't help her stay alive so she suppressed it.

''Calm, calm, calm, calm down. I'm not gonna die. I'm not here. This isn't happening. I'm not here. This isn't happening.'' She kept repeating those words but deep inside her brain the voice was singing a melody. Dead, dead, you're already dead. Dead, dead, you're shucking dead.________________________A/N: Hayyy my lovely glades! I have an announcement......drums please.....uh, okay get ready...........................................I'M STARTING A SEQUEL!!!!!! ASDFGHJKL. IT WILL BE CALLED EITHER ''RIDERS ON THE STORM'' OR ''ALL WE ARE I DUST IN THE WIND''. I just can't deside yet so I'm asking for a little help. Pls. I need you right now and you know you love me, xoxo gossip girl ;) (who whatches Gossip girl? No one? Just me? Uh okay then...) Anyways, I hope you will help me. And btw CHUCK BASS IS BAE <333.Love always,Joanna