26

''Today is the day, greenie. You are going in the maze alone! How do you feel?'' Minho sat next to her with a breakfast in his hands.

The boy was so calmed. Ever since the runners understood about the mist they started running just from the north door and there wasn't any need all of them to run. A few were enough. And today, she was going to be one of them.

''I actually feel nothing.''

''Aren't you excited? Not even scared a little bit?'' He asked when she shook her head.

''Anything. Maybe just bored. This life is soo equal. How have you survived 3 years (A/N: Was it 3 years? I don't remember sorry if I'm wrong.)?''

Minho just shrugged.

''Well some of us definitely couldn't survive.''

''What are you talking about?''

''A boy tried to kill himself.'' Minho was with dark look.

''Who was he?''

''You mean who IS he. We managed to save him.''

''Whaat? Is he here now? How did he tried to kill himself? Where? With what? Is he still ''damaged''? Tell me, Minho!''

''Yes, he is still damaged. But you better go now. The doors will open soon. And don't dare you ask all the boys. They won't tell you anyways.'' And before she could ask anything else the boy stood up and went somewhere.***

The doors opened and she ran in the maze still without feeling anything. The curiosity was beating any other feeling that was trying to feel her mind. Who the hell is that boy? I must find him. But why? Why am I so interested in that? He tried to kill himself. And what? She continued running trying to answer her questions. Wind showed and blew right opposite her face. But it didn't stop. Her eyes were full with tears. Come on! Run! Don't stop! Ah, shuck! Something got in my eye. She stopped and started rubbing her eye to get the dust out of it. Remember what Minho said? You mustn't stop! Your life depends on your legs here! Come on slinthead! Move! She was fighting with herself! Haven't you heard of crazy people? Yes, you are a crazy person! Now run!

''Shut up!'' She screamed. That wasn't her voice anymore. There was something wrong.

You are worng. Stupid girl! You know you must find a way out not just run. Look around! Don't look at the shucking floor! The answer is not there!

''Stop it! Who are you?''

I'm you stupid girl! Hey, I have the answers to your last questions: maybe you want to know who was the depressed boy, who tried to kill himself because you wanna die! You wanna end your existense. You wanna end every boy's glance which eats you. You can't get used to this world like Teresa. You must die!

''Are you sure you are me?''

Can't you realize that right now you are running and talking to yourself without anyone answering you. Just your thoughts. You know, crazy people must die because they can end hurting someone innocent.

''What are you talking about? I'm never going to hurt innocent people.'' But the voice wasn't there anymore. Was that really her? Her thoughts?

The girl kept on running with one eye closed because of the dust in it. It was hard but she kept on, repeating Minho's commands. Then the ususal mist showed and made her blind. She turned back to go to the Glade. ***

She enetered the Glade and went to map today's routine. Minho came in the room.

''Well? How was your first time alone? Did you find anything different? And why the shuck are you with one closed eye?''

''Mm, first of all it was nothing spetial. Secondly, I didn't find anything and third, dust came into my eye and I can't get it out.''

''Open your eye.'' And she did it. It made a brutal noise which made her sick. She couldn't see with it. There was a red curtain in front of it. The girl saw how Minho's eyes got big like tennis balls.

''Oh, you must go to the med-jacks. Now!''

''But, I think I'm like living in the med-kack's room.''

''That's because you can't keep yourself and get hurt mostly everyday.'' He answered and started pulling her to the med-jacks' place while she was mumbling something.***

She was already getting sick from the blood lost. They enetered the room where Clint was and he jumped from surprise. With Minho's help, they putted her on a bed and she just closed her eyes ready for the ususal black that swallowed her everytime she was here. But before that the girl heard Minho and Clint talking.

''From what I've just saw.... I think she has to get used to live with one eye.'' But before the girl could take in what she had just heard the darkness got her into the dreams.