Chapter 7

I rushed to record it and decided to name the song 'Only Human' and thought that was the perfect name for the song. I grabbed some high quality headphones and pranced excitedly to the recording room by myself. There was an awesome purple microphone and I could see Will through the little window. He smiled his friendly, reassuring grin. I smiled back as I got ready to sing to the song for the first time. I took a deep breath and started to sing a tune without any music.

Verse 1:

I've been holding out

for some silver in the clouds

And it just gets dark

It just gets hard to see

Verse 2:

Well you told me go for broke

You go first I'll hold the rope

And make your way down

To solid ground with me

Chorus:

You are the universe

Do you see it, Do you feel it hurt

Only energy

Stressing over what we're worth

It's only love

It's only dust

Making up the two of us

And we all, all fall down

You're only human

You're only human

Verse 3:

When the words stuck in your throat

Finding love through a telescope

Yeah the below

It gives me vertigo

Verse 4:

So just keep your fingers crossed

Sign your love, don't sing your loss

Until you love so loud, if you listen

You, can hear it shout

Chorus:

You are the universe

Do you see it, do you feel it hurt

Only energy

Stressing over what we're worth

It's only love

It's only dust

Making up the two of us

And we all, all fall down

You're only human

You're only human

Bridge:

I get out of the boxes I'm living in

I get out of the sin that I'm swimming in

Break it down, spit it out

Won't drown, won't drag me down

I get out of the boxes I'm living in

I get out the sin that I'm swimming in

Break it down, spit it out

Don't frown, let the colours burst

Chorus:

You are the universe

Do you see it, do you feel it hurt

Only energy

Stressing over what we're worth

It's only love

It's only dust

Making up the two of us

And we all, all fall down

You're only human

You're only human

You're only human

Ooh

You're only human

You're only human

.....

When I breathed the last particle I had in my lungs, I opened my eyes and saw Will clapping through the window. I felt so amazing when I've impressed him. He was going

"Bravo, Bravo!" Like a posh person would at an opera concert, clapping his hands, gracefully. I laughed at him, forgetting we were set apart by a small clear window in between us. It was like we were only five inches apart. The cheeky guy smirked as I had my dimples on full display again. People used to always say how adorable my dimples were when I was a little girl and it's always been part of my signature look.

This crazy but cool character beckoned me to the other room with him as if he was calling his puppy like Simon does on 'The X Factor'. I obeyed Will and took a seat next to him on a snazzy spinning chair. Oh how fun they are to just twirl around in and go up and down like on a merry-go-round at a funfair. There was high tech gear everywhere; everything a budding recoding artist would want in a studio. Will and I started to come up with a tune for the song with a composer or two from his label. We chose to go for a stunning, urban but powerful feel like a whale song almost. We made as unique and soulful as possible to go with the song and lyrics.

I missed writing and producing with Will. It was always fun to be around him to work on some fresh beats and tunes. I seriously don't get people who are not into music as much as I am because it makes you feel emotions when the songs have good lyrics. Each of my albums have always expressed my feelings and where I am with my life. And wanted to do the same for this album, which is my fourth now. The soldiers are always supportive of whatever I release and do so it's always effortlessly elating to share the songs I put hard work into with them.

After our studio session, the four of us went for a meal in a lavish restaurant as a reward for our hard work and to also catchup on each other's lives. I then got a call from JB and excused myself to the ladies toilets to answer it.

"Hello?"

"Hey, babe."

"Hi, babes."

"What have you been doing while you're away and leaving me all alone?" He said in a fake sad voice. He's so adorable, that little tinker.

"I've been making a song for me album. It's called 'Only Human'!" I announced.

"Wow. It must be good. I wanna listen to it right now!"

"I'm sorry, pet. You're gonna have to wait!"

"Oh. Well, have a nice time, Madame Cheryl and I'll see you later."

"Oh, you too, softie, Monsieur Jean Bernard. Bye!"

I hung up and decided to check my makeup and hair, while I was in the bathroom. I then saw a familiar face. It was Alexandra Burke.

"Oh, Alex, hi!" I waved to her as she smiled at me.

"Chezza! How are you, what are you doing here?" She rambled, bless her.

"I was just eating here with Will, Lily and me little brother. How about you?" I answered politely.

"I'm just here with my boyfriend." She said with a comical wink. I did so back and we giggled just like old times. "And you are so beautiful, Cheryl! Why are you checking yourself when you already look fabulous?" She brightly, questioned.

"Thanks, Alex, you do to! It's not always just us, ya know. And you know how I look without makeup." I playfully nudged her in her glamorous, glittering gown. I was in awe of it. Reminding me when Beyoncé came to perform with her on 'The X Factor' final. "And your dress is beautiful too!" I complimented back, matter of factly.

"I missed you so much!" Alex said as she pulled me in for a hug. "Thank you! You are such a caring and inspiring woman." She said as tears nearly came to my eyes.

"Aw, you too pet. Well, let's stay in touch and go back to our dates!" I lightly shoved her towards the door.

"Ok, Cheryl, see you later! Have a good evening." She waved, enthusiastically.

"Ta, Ta, Alex! You too." I replied before going back to the others.

As I sat back down at the table, everyone stopping talking to me and a silence surrounded us.

"So, where've you been, Chezza?" Garry asked, finally breaking the awkwardness.

"Just went to the toilet, Garry. Nothing to worry about." I answered, still beaming.

"Yeah, right, sis. Why are you smiling then?"

"Oh, ok, ok. I saw one of my X Factor contestants, Alexandra Burke." I confessed, dramatically, like a movie star.

"Ooh, what did you say to her?" Lily said.

"Well, not much, she's here with her boyfriend. And she had such a gorgeous dress on, Lils, you should've seen it for ya self!" I revealed, openly and brightly. It felt like a secret everyone had to know.

"Wow. Well you must've enjoyed talking to her, Cheryl. You spent a good ten minutes in the bathroom and your meal's probably cold." Will laughed with his flashing smirk. I returned mine back, with my statement dimples. I continued to eat my delicious steak with steamed veggies, boiled potatoes and a glass of wine.

Once we all finished our meals, Will pays for the table and we all give the waiter a generous tip before thanking him and heading back home, glad to see JB. I got Will's luxurious limo back home (not that I was drunk or anything!). As I entered the doorway, I kicked off my heels and slumped on the sofa after a very productive day in the studio. JB came hopping down the hallway like a rabbit. I chuckled at him. I then went to silently sneak up on him and grabbed his waist and bellowed,

"BOO! Gotcha!"

"Oh, babe!" He pouted.

"Your face was absolutely priceless, ya know, babe." I sniggered, doing an exaggerated impression of him. I think I must've died of pure laughter and I haven't laughed that much since the last time I went out with the girls. The media keeps saying that we've fallen out, so we split up, especially with Nadine and I, just because sometimes we can't understand what we say - come on, press! I mean, I'm a Geordie and Nadine's from Ireland for god's sake! I just don't get it sometimes, but I always tell myself not to let it go to heart. After all, there have been all kinds of stupid rumours the papers have come up with.

"You cheeky, little madam!" He tutted, kissing me softly. And it felt good. I kissed him back for what seemed like forever but then slowly pulled away. He held my left hand and gazed at my wedding and engagement ring while I was gazing at his gorgeous gold ring on his left ring finger. It reminded me of how much I loved and cared for JB and wishing that this marriage doesn't end up like the last one, surrounded by hungry paps. Some calming music suddenly came on. Ok, not that calming but it was 'Drunk In Love' By Beyoncé. We danced and then cuddled on the sofa while watching 'Geordie Shore' one of my favourite shows.