Chapter 1

Cheryl's pov

I've been having mixed feelings of being in my thirties. After all the things that have happened in the past, I honestly can't predict what's going to happen next. I mean, I've been in one of the most famous girl groups in Britain, judged on The X Factor three times and won two of three seasons with Alexandra and Joe. I've also climbed Mount Kilomanjaro - which was exhausting! Had Malaria, Married a famous footballer.

Then, divorced him. And now, I have another man in my life. JB. I do not have Ashley anymore. And I feel strange that now he's not in my life anymore. But I'm very happy with JB; even though we got married after only a few months of knowing each other, I really feel a connection with him. I also want to have kids with him too and finally be a mammy.

I've also recorded 3 solo albums, a tour - my very own tour! Performing with Will.i.am, etc. etc.

.......

I thought for quite a while, reflecting on my life and how I became such a celebrity other than the little girl from Newcastle who dreamed of being an entertainer. It feels weird sometimes that my one wish had come true. I wonder what would happen if I was doing something else. What if I wasn't famous?

I don't know...maybe...

"Cheryl?" JB broke my silence. He saw me gazing out of the window, looking at the view.

"Oh, um, yeah, JB?" I stammered, slightly shaky. He looked at my brown eyes wondering out of the clear glass.

"You ok, babe?" He asked. I looked back at him, seeing his concern.

"Yeah, I'm fine, babes" I answered. "Just thinking." Scootering my focus from around the room. We were wearing minimal clothing, half under the covers of our bed.

I looked at the time. It was 9:30 am. I got out of bed and went downstairs in my cream dressing gown to have some breakfast. JB followed.

Buster and Coco came galloping down the hall, probably wanting food too. I smiled at them as they greeted me a good morning. Meanwhile, JB goes to the kitchen to cook up breakfast. I feed the dogs their biscuits and filled their water bowl. And then went to the living room to relax. I turned the TV on and saw a headline from the news.

"Footballer, Ashley Cole told The Sun newspaper yesterday to viewers after being asked about his previous marriage with Cheryl Fernandez Versini, that 'I'd do anything I could to have Cheryl back. I would even die for her.'. But does Cheryl feel the same?" The news reporter announced.

"I'm not sure, Ashley." I muttered to the TV. "I'm not sure.." Did I?

But before... I knew the answer straight away...

*Flashback*

"Cheryl...I've got something to say" Ashley said shyly.

"What? Tell me." I said nervously.

"I think we have a connection. And I think, we will be together for maybe forever. And I've never said this to anyone, babe."

"So, what are you trying to say?"

"Well, I love you, Cheryl Tweedy."

"I love you too, Ashley Cole." I smiled at him, lovingly.

.....

"Cheryl?" JB waved his hand over my face, trying to see if I was awake or daydreaming again. "Are you ok?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Thinking again."

"Are you sure?" He questioned, knowing I wasn't just thinking about nothing. I flinched and looked down at my fingers clasped together. "Cheryl? Something wrong?"

I took a deep breath and sighed, "I don't know. There was a news story saying about Ashley. Saying how much he wants me back. Apparently, he said that he would've died for me. But I'm not sure if I feel the same after the divorce." JB looks at me again. Seeing my brown eyes looking confused.

"Well, you have me now, Cheryl. And I will always do anything for you. You know I love you too much to leave you, don't you, babe?"

"Yes, pet. I love you too. I know I shouldn't be dwelling over Ashley now I have married you." I said to him as he lightly kissed my cheek and served us breakfast; a scrumptious english breakfast.

(Hey everyone! Hope you enjoyed the first chapter. Please comment if you want more! Elise x)