chapter 9

" get the fuck up. slowly. " i held it as close as possible to her throat. no i'm not about to kill her but i truly want to. something in me wont let it happen. all because of my feelings are blocking it.

" dude stop i'm sorry okay please jus- " i pulled her by her hair, dragging her downstairs. " hey everybody! come down i have an announcement! " i looked down at her naked fragile body shivering for comfort.  i don't care how she felt but this is exactly how she treats us. everybody walked in, seeing us both bare. " tell us what we wanna hear. " she rolled her eyes, continuing to cover herself the best she could.

i kicked her stomach, watching her cough up blood and it dripping down her chest. " o-okay i'm sorry! " i kneeled down, straightening her jaw to face me. " tell them how bad you treat me billie. your so called princess.. " i wanted to hear it come from her, not me.

" i don't know what you want me to say violet! i'm sorry damn! " i grabbed the gun from the table, pointing it to her head. " i will shoot your brains out eilish, i'm not fucking around. " she slowly got up, looking around the room again. everybody looked down, still somehow scared of her when i was the one who had the power now. she put her hands up in defense, walking up to me with her eyes burnt into mine. " did i tell you to get up? "

" we both know you're not gonna shoot me my love. just hand it over. " my hand started to shake, trying to stay in control of my own power. she came closer to me, lifting my chin up just like i did hers. you wanna show out in front of all of them? hm? you wanna act tough? " she pushed the gun out of my hand making it fall to the ground. i looked up at her. she kissed my neck, biting down on my ear. " don't ever pull that shit again princess... " she whispered, turning back around.

we both looked at the gun on the floor, and back at all the girls. " one of you get that and take it up to my room. the rest of you can leave. " i looked around, everybody scattering to different places of the house again. " i'm gonna go put on some clothes, meet me in the movie room. " i hate her.

* billies pov *

ivy walked in, covering her eyes. " i'm dressed now... you can look. " she closed the door, sitting down on the bed with me. i missed her. " i'm so sorry that happened. i didn't know whether to help you or- " i pulled her into a hug. all i wanted to do was cry in her arms. this all started because of me. i cant express my feelings without hurting someone. " what happened? "

" i don't know. we were just find 2 seconds ago but i don't know what happened." what led me to this was me being selfish and i knew that. " were you fine or were you pretending you were but you cant admit that you're toxic? " she finally plays the same game, but plays it better now and you're intimidated. " nobody else has had the courage to stand up to you, not even me bil. "

was it something i wanted to hear? No, but sometimes the truth is what had to be said. " i'm not intimidated. i just don't like being pushed around by someone who had a choice to be here or not. i didn't ask her to come. she chose this life not me. "

" you're right but she also didn't choose to be meantally, physically, and verbally abused either. its not right billie. these girls treat you so well and all you do is hurt them because thats the power you hold. you abuse your power and its an addiction. its hard to let go of that i know, but you cant keep hurting everyone else because you're hurting. "

" you have to let it go. "