Did you ever love me?

"He can what?" I asked Elsa wide eyed.

"He can give our Jimmy his hands, but not the lobster claws he once had. Real hands like you or I."

"He can... make him normal?"

"And get you two out of this hell hole." Elsa added pointing up her index finger.

"How soon, can he be here?"

"Oh Sweetie, I'm already here, figured we couldn't get in without the Mrs. approval."A male voice calmly said.

"Well, I guess I can take you up tomorrow." I said, "Now Elsa can you please take me to the barn?"

"Of course." She smiled, her doctor friend stayed seated as we both exited

"So how did you meet this fellow Elsa?" I asked after she started the car.

"Client." She said back, knocking on her legs. I knew about her past, she told me once after I performed the mid show.

"Think he can get Jimmy back to normal, or atleast close to it?"

"He did with me, so yes I do." She snapped, I remained quiet until we pulled up to the strangely dim barn

"I'll go make sure he isn't dead." Elsa joked as she exited the car, I was right behind her when she pushed the doors opened, to find no Jimmy.

"Damn it, where cold he be?" Elsa hissed

"Well before I went to see ya he was here, so he can't be too far."

"Where on earth would he even go though, he has no one but you and the show."

Then it clicked in my head, "Take me to Ethel."

Under the tree where they found a crashed car and bloody chain laid the body of Ethel Darling, the most wise and kind woman I had seen in all my life. She was looking death in the face though, and died during a successful suicide, so they say.As Elsa rolled up to the tree I could see the marker they left for her, the flowers Dot, Bette and Susie collected to decorate it, and the form of a man sitting infront of it. I told Elsa to stay as I slide from the passenger seat and slowly walked towards the figure. Jimmy didn't see his Ma get buried, didn't say goodbye, all because he was stuck in a cell losing his hands. I sat next to the figure and watched as he just stared, with tears leaving his eyes, I wiped one away causing him to jump.

"Oh, sorry Jim..."

"What are ya doing here Lecia?"

"Figured I'd come see Ma, make sure you were ok." I softly said

"I'm fine, Ma's... fine." He won't look at me, his face was so serious. He showed no signs of dimples, or his sparkling brown eyes or even the smile, which looked so much like his mother's.

"Jimmy..." I started to whisper

"No just don't. I have lost EVERYTHING!"

"What?" I looked at him confused, he hasn't lost everything so what did he mean by everything.

"First Meep, then Ma Petite, then Ma, and my hands, I have no more family, can't protect my friends, I can't work or perform, I have nothing anymore and I don't know how to find love again after Maggie left."

"Jimmy Darling, you are a negative Nancy, and it is really starting to bug me."

"Well sorry buttercup but it's the truth." He looked at the ground now, I stood up and before storming off I muttered, "Did you ever love me?"

"No, you were just a good comforter, but I never loved you." He muttered to my back as I ran back to Elsa's car. I throw the door open and whispered, "Take me home."

She did as asked, she drove me home in silence, dropped me off at my door and drove off as soon as I was inside the dark house. I sank to the floor, tears streaming out of my eyes as I sank to the floor, where did I go wrong, then I heard my phone start to ring.

"Hello." I answered, trying to cover up the sadness in my voice.

"Are you ok?"

"Yea Dess why do ya ask?"

"Well Jimmy is here having Paul and Eve pouring liquor..."

"He is a grown ass man, he can do whatever he wants!" I yelled, slamming the phone into the receiver and storming into bed. I laid there for hours, all that went through my head was the sound of Jimmy saying "I never loved you."