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The maid took away the bowl after Joss finishes eating the congee, leaving him alone with his thoughts.

Joss laid back on the sofa and looks up at the ceiling. He raises his hand and moves it slowly as if he's tracing the linings on the ceiling.

"Finally..." Joss closes his eyes letting out a sigh of relief. "Wait..., it isn't the time for this." He springs up from the sofa, standing up straight.

He looks down to himself checking his clothes pulling down his shirt. "I should put on a better one." He walks to the room where he keeps his clothes and accessories.

After half an hour he came out with a set of clothes and walks to the bathroom. There, he keeps the clothes aside and looks into the mirror checking himself out.

'Why is my face so dull?' He touch his face. 'It won't work like this.' He barge out of his room and rush downstairs shouting out for Lee.

'Yes Mr.Joss.' Lee steps in front of him with a bow.

'Lee... buy something for me.'

'What is it sir?'

'Something that will make the dullness on my face disappear.'

'Ok please wait for me.'

'Be quick.'

'I will.'

Joss stood there still and watch Lee as he steps outside and goes inside the car. After watching Lee drives away, Joss goes upstairs.

"While I wait for Lee what can I do?" He stood there rubbing his lips with his fingers. "Right! I can clean up my room a bit. It's too messy here."

There is only a book being displaced in his room at the moment and there's literally not a trace of dust. But still he search for things where he thinks the position are wrong or not matching.

After taking out a book and then putting one back and doing the same thing for every other thing everything ends up the same as before. Well he was the one who organised all the things himself so no matter how much of depressed or excited he is, he couldn't change his way of doing things.

"Ok perfect." He stands there putting his hands on his waist. "Right I should clean the bathroom as well." He rush towards the bathroom.

The bathroom is squeaky clean. The bath tub is literally shining. Even the floor is reflecting. But Joss being Joss, a perfectionist still carries on cleaning the whole bathroom.

Drops of sweat falls down his chin. He wipes it off with the back of his hand and finish rubbing off the last part of the floor.

"Done!" He stands up letting out a long breath. He looks at his watch. "Better wash up." He puts the cleaning things back to their place.

Meanwhile, Lee came back and give him a face pack. Brightening face pack is written on the tube.

'Please put this on the face and keep it on for 15 minutes then wash off.'

He follows exactly what was instructed to him and wash his face clean exactly after 15 minutes. He dries his face with a soft towel.

"Hm... this is good. It's actually working." He took the tube and looks at it. "Better stock this up." He puts it on the bathroom shelf.

He puts on some moisturiser on his face and checks himself out. "Hope u find me handsome." He winks to himself.

He steps into the shower after taking off his clothes. He turns on the shower. The cold water hits against his skin causing a shiver to run down his spine. He doesn't mind the cold anymore. He hums while using the shower gel to rub of his sweat.

After showering, he puts on some lotion before putting on the clothes he picked out, put on some wax and shape his hair neatly. He usually takes care of his skin. Lastly, he sprayed some perfume on his wrist and dab it on the side of his neck also.

"Ok." He stands in front of a long mirror and checks himself out turning back and fort. "I'm ready."

He pulls up the shirt slightly to look at the watch. It's showing 4 already. "2 more hours." He then sits down slightly pulling up his pants to sit comfortably cause he literally puts on a suit.

After sitting with comfort, he starts posing with his hands and legs. "Should I sit like this or like this? Hands here and legs like this...." He sets up his phone with the camera on and checks his posture himself.

"Maybe I should put my hands like this."

While he's busy with his posing, the maid peeks inside taking a glance at him and then closes the door quietly with a wide smile.

She's relief that now his little master is actually coming back to his normal self. She thinks of him as her real son so when he's sad it also makes her sad.

She's scared that the harsh world would hurt her child and broke him.

Evening comes and the time Gawin gets off from work also arrives. Joss becomes over excited. He sets up the utensils in his room.

Gawin arrives at the doorstep of the main door. The maid welcomes him with a wide smile.

'Welcome dear!'

'Thank u aunt.' Gawin smiles a little confuse because of the over excitedness she's showing.

'Come in come in. Let me grab that for u.' She takes the things he bought.

'Thank u aunty.' He hands over the stuff to her.

The maid accompanies him until they reach in front of Joss's room.

'Here, the cutleries are inside dear.'

'Kub.'

'Son, thank u for being so kind to him. U know what? This is the first time I'm actually seeing him so happy since he came back.'

'...'

'Go inside. He's been waiting for u since afternoon.'

'Kub.'

The maid walks downstairs slowly with calmness. Gawin knocks on the door twice.

Inside the room, Joss has been walking around his room. He stops walking when he hears the knock and rush in front of the mirror checking himself for one last time before he face his angel in disguise.

He pulls out a strand of hair and puts it in front of his temple. He straighten his suit and heads for the door with a smile and eyes full of love and affection.

The door opens slowly. Gawin is standing there with a posture clearly showing that he's tired from work and on the other side stand a man full of life and freshness with a straight posture.

The man on one side looks like he's ready to hold the other man in his big arms and fight against the whole world for him while the man on the other side looks lifeless.

A mix of red, yellow, pink and white colours aura engulf the other side while a mix of white, blue and black engulf the other side.

They are like the sun and the moon, fire and water, sky and earth, needs each other to make a complete world but can't become one with each other under any circumstances. But the beauty of these things are incomparable with any other beauty in the universe.

A scent of freshness spreads when Joss opens the door and lightens up Gawin a little bit.

"Hi." Joss greets Gawin taking the stuff from his hands holding the door wide open for him.

"Hi." Gawin steps inside.

"U must be tired." Joss close the door behind him.

"Um."

"Take some rest while I set up the food." Joss walks closer to Gawin who has already taken a seat on the sofa.

"Thank u." Gawin opens the button of his coat.

"U can lay down on the bed if u want." Joss hints his head towards the bed. Gawin looks towards the bed following Joss's head movement. The bed sheet is new. Joss changed the bedsheets. Even the blanket is a new one.

"No, I'll just sit here for a while."

"Ok then let me take the food out." Joss takes out the food. The food is still hot. He puts the food on the plates before him one by one.

Porridge, tofu, rice and some boiled chickens. Everything that a sick person can eat easily.

This gesture of Gawin moves Joss very much. Joss's heart is filled with love for the other person. He smiles from ear to ear while unpacking the foods one by one.

"I'm done. Let's eat." Joss hands a spoon to Gawin.

"Ok, I hope u like the food." Gawin takes the spoon.

"Everything looks really delicious."

"Really? Then eat a lot."

"I will." Joss smiles at Gawin before digging in. Gawin looks at him and shakes at him with a smile before eating his food also.

The two lovers separated for so long is united finally but not as lovers but more of like friends or brothers. But any little bit of advances is good for them. Well at least it can make them feel good and happy even though it's obvious for one and hidden for the other.

Maybe this little steps will make their love blooms once again. Even more beautiful and colorful and bigger then ever before with a strong passion and love for each other.

The love Gawin have for Joss is never lost, it's still there but it's just hidden in a deep corner of his heart.

The love they have for each other can never be erased with anything in this world. This is how much strong their love is.

Even though Gawin dates others, even though he convince himself that he can love others also, inside he knows that deep in his heart there can be no one other than him. He's just not ready to show it openly. He's just scared to get hurt again.

He's just scared he will be left behind again.

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