Authers Nots

I'm not changing the font like normal cus it takes to long cus my phone is gay lol 😂

Guy something has been sitting on my mind lately and I want to shair this with you.

I suffer with depression and axsiaty. Tho it is not as bad a it was.

Im 17 years old and from the age of about 12 to 16 my depression was like a heavy brick I held on my back every day getting heavier and heavier. I didn't know what to do and on meany times I tried to commit suicide.

After a short while I took my problems to cutting slicing my skin. Now I had a lot of friends who were depressed and week who did this and I would tell tell off but they didn't even know I was doing this to myself.

They didn't even know I was depressed or I struggled to get out of bed in the morning. I or why I always smiled.

I'm truth I smiled because I was scared the would hurt me if I was sad. I I was beaten up twice and still I never cried I couldn't let them see I was week I used to tell myself. I they picked on me day after day after day. But yet I still smiled eventually I got the name crazy lady because I would always smile.

No one ever know how hurt I was no one knew I tried to commit suicide over and over again hoping it would work.

That was until I was at the end of 15 when I met the man of my life through a stupid website.

At first I told him a fake name and age I told him I was called jupiter and I was 21 years old but when he told me who he was something inside me changed and told me I should tell him the truth and I did

soon enough to we were talking I was happy for real then we started dating this happened in the summer Hollidays where I live they last 6 week. I soon realized I had to go back to school and he told me something I always wanted to hear.

He said "you are beautiful, and I and special, love smart, and I funny, nerdy, and I love you"

I replayed

"but I'm not you haven't even met me how could you say that*

To which he said" I know that cus I love you not for the way you look but for the way you acted sure you may well be all those thing but not on the inside cause you beautiful to me. I I fell in love with your personality not your looks you being hot is just bones points you will always be my princess and Im a humbled knight ready to free you of you life"

You may think this isn't sweet but I did I had never been call a princess before it mean meant something to me.

I went school and I didn't get bothers bye the mean comments or the death threats or anything because he was in my corner.

I still suffer with depression but it's like it hardly there my axsiaty still isn't grate but I'm trying my best to fight it.

What I'm trying to say if any of my readers feel depressed or have axsiaty. And you don't want to tell anyone you know tell me

You can trust me

So text me any time night or day and I'll try and get back to you.

So search me up on Instagram at The_real_plag or you can even talk to me on wattpad messages I'm hear for you guys always

Also if you want to know me and him are still together we celebrated are 1 year anniversary on August 29th 2019. And I couldn't ask for someone better.