Happiness

You smile as the sun warms your face, shining a bright light over you. It's feels like you've been out for days. You've never felt more rested in your life. You take your time getting a warm shower, getting dressed and doing your makeup.

You walk out into the living room, everyone is gathered around kitchen table. You smile knowing there isn't a place you'd rather be than here.

"Goodmorning guys" you smile, opening up the fridge. You hum quietly as you search for something to eat. Then you sits by the table. Noticing everyone starring at you."What?" You chuckle.

"You're okay?" Natasha questions.

"Why shouldn't I be okay?"

Natasha turn to look at the others, not knowing what to say.

"You're happy?" Tony questions.

"Yes I'm happy Tony, I don't have any reason not to be" you smile.

"You're not feeling weird or anything?" Steve questions.

"What's with the interrogation?" You scoff, taking a bite of your apple. "Alright I'm heading down to get some training done" you say happily, humming all the way out of the kitchen.

The group looks at each other, quickly turning their gaze towards Natasha.

"I'm not talking to her.. she's all happy and stuff" Natasha scoffs. She turns her eyes to Steve. "You'll do it.. you're the cheerful one"

"Me?" Steve asks surprised.

"Go find out how much she knows" Tony pushes him.

"How am I supposed to that?"

"Kiss her?" Natasha proposes.

"Maybe you shouldn't talk to her" Tony interferes, shaking his head.

"Yes go kiss her, see if she you know remembers that" Clint says.

"Maybe I should go" Tony proposes.

"I'll be fine Stark thank you.. I'm not going to kiss her" Steve assures him.

He takes a deep breath, following you downstairs. The remaining group sneaks right behind him, standing outside the training area, eavesdropping.

"Mind if I join you?" Steve asks you softly.

"No not all, give me your worst" you smile.

Natasha looks back and forth between you and the avengers.

"She even listens to happy music.. that's it I'm kicking his Asgardian ass" Natasha whispers angrily.

Tony stops her, looking in at you with a sad glance on his face.

Sweat dripping down from your forehead, as you concentrate on avoiding his kicks. Steve can't stop looking at you with a sad expression on his face.

"Come on Steve.. give me all you got"

You let out a grunt, as you swipe him off his feet in one swift motion.

"You're not even trying Steve.." you say sadly, helping him up from the ground. "Let's go again"

"Are you sure you're alright y/n..?"

"What is everyones problem today.. I'm fine" you assure him, you take his hand into yours. "Actually I've never been better.. I woke up this morning and i felt so alive" you smile.

"So you do remember us?"

You furrow you brow. "Why shouldn't I remember us.. I just slept Steve nothing has changed since yesterday" you chuckle.

You walk over taking a sip of your water, sitting down on the bench.

"I know I was a little drunk when we kissed.. but You guys are acting like I'm mental"

"No it's not like that at all" he assures you, running to your side. "We just want you to be happy"

"I am"

"That's great.." Steve sighs sadly.

"Now if you don't mind, I'll just do some training on my own."

Steve nods understandingly, walking out the door. Natasha pulls him to the side, as the continue to spy on you. Waiting for you to break down crying, throw a tantrum anything really.

But you just practice your combat skills. Nothing else.

"This is freaking me out" Natasha scowls. "He broke her" she says looking in at you..

"Maybe he fixed her.." Tony sighs. "She was so troubled by her past.. maybe this is what normal looks like"

They all turn their head, starring at you with furrowed brows. As you dance around to one direction.

"I don't like Normal" Clint says in disgust.

"Me neither" they all agree.

As you finish up training you notice the group standing outside the door, you grab your towel, waving at them. They quickly walk away.

Weird

You go up to take a long cold shower, taking the time off to read a book. Sitting silently in your room, just enjoying your own company. Suddenly there's a shift in you, there was absolutely quiet.. no loud or intrusive thoughts. Just silence... guess sometimes it does get better over night.

The weeks pass by quickly, you spend most your time training to become and even better Agent than before. Going for daily runs through the park with Steve. Helping Tony out in the lab. Enjoying as everyone gets along. Surely you had noticed their weird behavior around you, but that wasn't your problem.. and honestly you didn't think to much about it.

So instead of confronting them, making a big fuss about it... you get an excellent idea, to stop the team from acting so weird. You should host a movie night. Everyone could bring their favorite snack, you could even invite Thor. He's never around here.

You walk into the living room, as soon as you do the room gets quiet, everyone looking up at you again.

"We weren't talking about you" Bruce exclaims in panic.

"I didn't think that." You smile, jumping up onto the counter.

Natasha gives Tony a death stare.

"Alright y/n we need to talk with y-"

"Before you do that I have an idea" you say excitedly. "I was thinking we could do... A MOVIE MARATHON"

"I don't-" Natasha starts.

"That's a great idea" Steve smiles, interrupting her.

"Right!" You smile happily.

"She's freaking me out" Clint whispers to Natasha.

You excitedly explain your idea, as everyone listens in, trying their best to be supportive. Giving you the time and space you need to be happy. But the truth is you're not you.. Taking away pieces of you life turned you into a completely different person. And although you had never been happier, they couldn't help wanting the old you back.. the damaged and twisted you..

Natasha and Bruce helps you set up the mood for the evening. While You sent Tony, Steve and Clint out shopping for all your favorite treats. Tony had tried for the last hour to get in contact with Thor, begging him to come down and see for himself.

You spend hours perfecting the living room, turning it into your very own home cinema. Catching glimpses of Natasha and Bruce eyeing you up and down with a worried look on their face.

"You're running my mood" you call out, hearing them whisper behind you back. "This is supposed to bring the group back together"

"Back together? There was never a together?" Natasha sighs.

"Yes there was, we found each other for a reason. We created something beautiful together, taking down evil" you say quietly. "That's something.."

"Right.. I'm sorry" Natasha apologies, as she covers up the last window with some old bed sheets.

It's as though everything had changed over one night, wishing you could understand what you had did wrong. You finally felt happy, like maybe everything could turn out okay. Then why wasn't it happening..

Tony, Steve and Clint walks in with the grocery bags filled with snacks. You squeal happily, as you help them carry the bags to the living room.

"Wow y/n it looks good" Steve smiles.

"Right?" You scrunch your nose. "It's perfect" you say as you admire the work you've done.

You start unpacking everything, putting all the different snacks in colorful bowls.

"Is Thor coming?"

"We don't know.. he's a little tough to get in touch with" Tony says quietly. "Maybe we should just start without him"

"Yeah.. let just do that" you say trying to keep the spirit lifted. Nothing was going to ruin this night.It was going to be absolutely perfect.

You put on the first Harry Potter movie, resting you head against the back of the couch, eating some popcorns.

Everyone else studies your every move, barely paying any attention to the movie. The rain pours outside setting the exact right mood for a perfect movie night. You swift your position curling up next to Tony. He looks at the other surprised, then wraps his arm around you. Halfway through the second movie your eyes slowly shut, you're exhausted from all the planning. You snuggle closer to him, resting your head against his chest. Natasha turns pauses the movie, wrapping a blanket gently around you.

"She's happy" she whispers softly.

"I guess so" Clint looks down at you as you sleep peacefully in Tony's arms.

"Then why do I feel like we didn't get her back at all.. I should be glad she's happy" Natasha says sadly.

"Because we didn't get her back.." Tony sighs. "She hasn't yelled at me for three weeks.. I even purposely tried to piss her off.. nothing"

A loud thunderstorm closes in around the tower, everyone turns their gaze to the elevator. As Thor walks out, soaking wet from the rain. He hangs Mjolnir on the coat hanger.

"Where is she?" He asks worriedly.

Everyone gets up from the couch, except Tony who still keeps you comfortable.

"She's here" Natasha points to you.

Thor bows down looking at your peaceful smile. Gently cupping your face.

"Can you undo it?" Natasha questions. 

"I'm afraid not.. only my brother can.. he's remained in exile ever since..." Thor explains. "Do not worry my father is searching for him as we speak"

"Why would she do It.. what happened on Asgard Thor?" Steve asks worriedly.

"I'm afraid I do not quite know.. My brother and y/n spent a lot of time together. She did everything she could to get him free of my fathers punishment. So we made an agreement I would help her if she helped me" Thor adds. "Loki got tempted by his old ways, eager to assent to the throne, he faked his own death.. y/n watched him die only to discover it was nothing but my brothers scheme."

"So it's all his fault?" Tony hisses.

"Y/n was troubled.. the amount of pain she had to relive to discover the truth about her mother.. her powers.." Thor trails off, looking up at you. "It would be enough to break even the strongest of men.. She could not live with the truth.. that the man she once loved, no longer exists"

"There must be something you can do" Clint scoffs. "We can't just pretend like everything okay.. it's not okay" Clint shouts.

"I have searched all of the nine realms for my brother.. he does not wish to be found"

"No.." Tony scowls. "I don't accept that.."

"Stark.. the Nine realms are at war, and whatever Loki did here on earth created chaos through the remaining realms. My father and I are trying to fix it.. I will search for Loki. But I fear he does not wish to be found"

"Thor?" You yawn. As you shut open your eyes. "You made it to movie night" you smile.

"I wouldn't have missed it" he smiles softly.

"Why are you all just standing there, get the man his pop tarts" you chuckle, as you make room for him beside you.

"You look well"

"I am..If only these idiots would understand that" you tease. "How are things up in Asgard?"

"They are well.." Thor lies.

"And your brother, how is he doing?" You ask.

"He's facing Asgardian justice..."

"That's good" you yawn once more. "That's really great"

Thor looks up at Natasha, who just shakes her head, as a tears falls from her cheek.

"Tell him I hope he finds the sun" you mumble as you fall alseep.

Thor looks down at you.

"What did you just say?" Thor questions. "What did she say?"

"Something about the sun?"

Thor get up, fetching Mjolnir.

"Thor what's going on?" Natasha asks, walking towards him.

"I'm going to find my brother"