Home is where the heart is

You're waken up by a loud crash from the balcony, making you jump out of the bed. It sounds like something just crashed down against the tower. But it seems like you're the only one panicking. You quickly get dressed walking into the living room, Tony, Natasha, Bruce and Clint are eating breakfast completely unbothered. You look at them confused.

You take a second to check if everything is as it should be, when Clint notices you.

"Come and join us we're eating waffles" he smiles.

You stand in complete shock, nor knowing how to react. We're you truly the only one that heard that. There's absolutely no way.

"Goodmorning everybody" Steve says cheerful as he walks into the kitchen with a bag full of groceries.

You look back and forth at Steve and the remaining group. Since when does Steve come over for breakfast, and why is no one freaking out.

"Did you guys not hear the giant bang before?" You ask, still utterly confused.

"It's just Thor" Tony scoffs, continuing to eat his waffles. "That man has no respect for private properties"

"If that was Thor then wher-"

"Greeting my friends" Thor says happily as he walks down the stairs.

"Thor come join us we're having breakfast" Tony says cheerful.

Whatever is going on here you're not in on it. Why is everyone so happy.

"What's going on here?" You asks nervously looking around at everyone.

"Thors here to pick up reindeer games we're celebrating" Tony smiles.

"What?"

In that moment you feel your entire world crashing down around you as the words sink in. They're taking him away.

"It's true, we're sending him back home" Bruce explains further.

"Thor?" You look at him disappointed. "What's going on here?"

The whole room goes silent, as Clint and Bruce grabs the stack of waffles sneaking out of the kitchen.

"Thor?" You ask more firmly.

"I thought you told her" Thor says to the group.

They all look at each other, until they realize none of them had actually gotten around to that part yet.

"It's good news y/n. He's off our plate now" Steve assures you.

"You're taking him back?" You ask sadly.

"He's been cleared here on earth, but that doesn't mean he can stay, he kidnapped you, he tried to kill us" Tony scoffs

"He's changed.. I talked to him okay" you say frustrated.

"My lady it's out of my hands now, my brother will answer to Asgardian justice now. My father has requested his presence" Thor explains, you can sense the pain in his voice.

"When are you?" You ask, barely able to finish the question.

"Today"

"I want to come" you say firmly. Crossing your arms.

"My lady I don't think-"

"Let me rephrase that.. I am coming." You say more determined.

There's no way you're just letting him go back to Asgard, heaven knows what Odín will do to him. You're not about to let all his progress go to waste.

"Y/n perhaps you shouldn't." Steve tries to join in on the discussion.

"They're right y/n you can't just leave" Natasha adds.

"Don't waste your time... this is what she does." Tony  mumbles, his mouth still full of waffles.

"What do you mean?" You turn to look at him, tilting your head.

"Every time you get attached to someone or something you leave before it gets too good.." Tony states.

"Tony just shut up" Natasha hisses.

"It's true" he chuckles.

"You're coming back right?" Steve says softly, slightly nervous you're not.

"Of course she's not.. look at her." Tony groans.

Everyone turns their eyes to you, waiting for you to assure them you'll come back.

"Tony that's not fair.."

"What is fair then miss jones?" Tony mocks. "Leaving us behind.. What happens once you get attached there.. you'll leave again?" Tony stands up, raising an eyebrow.

"I lost Loki once.. I'm not loosing him again. He changed. He proofed to me he wants to change. I'm gonna help Odín see the same." You claim. Offended by their lack of empathy.

"How exactly did he proof that to you" Tony questions.

"By letting me in"

Steve reaches out holding your hand.

"Please don't go" Steve pleads.

"I'm coming back.. I just need to do this." You assure him.

"What is it you need to do there you can't do here" Natasha questions.

"I need to find out what happened to me, maybe I'll find the answers I've been searching for"

"Whatever." Tony scoffs disappointed.

"Please don't do this again Tony.. I'm coming back." You say again.

No matter how many times you tell him, he just can't seem to get that into his head.

"How do you expect me to trust that exactly?"

"Because I'm not the girl you all knew. I make my own choices, I know I made mistakes, and I've owned up to each one of them, I've taken accountability for my actions. I am y/n daughter of Idunn, and I derserve a chance to find out exactly who I am, and what happened to me. I will not be shamed for wanting clarity about my life. " you raise your voice.

you've never felt more confident about a decision. You need to go. There's no other choice than this. This was your chance.

"If you had a chance to talk to your mother again Tony I'm sure you would do it in a heartbeat."

"You should go... But Thor keep an eye on her okay.. I want her back in one piece" Natasha smiles at you. Nodding her head assuring you she understands you.

"Of course Lady Natasha"

"If it can help you, I think you should do it" Steve says.

"Thank you.." you mouth to him. "Tony?" You question looking at him, hoping he'll just understand this once. Instead of starting another fight.

"You left once, I can't seem to change your mind" Tony growls.

"Give us a second" you say to the group.

They walk into the living area, leaving you alone in the kitchen, you grab Tony's arm pulling him closer to you.

"What's your deal?"

"My deal is I don't want.." he stops himself before he can finish the sentence.

"What?"

"I can't loose you again" he admits, looking into your eyes.

"You won't.. I promise you" you say giving his arm a light squeeze.

"I can't use your broken promises anymore Jones" he says with so much pain in his voice, it's breaks your heart to know you ruined his trust so bad.

"Tony I'm sorry I broke your heart.. But your father would have wanted me to do this.. I can't just let all his hard work be for nothing" you explain.

This is what it's been about for as long as you can remember. Howard spent countless of years trying to find a way to help you. Find out what could have caused the incident. If you turned down this opportunity he would raise up from his grave and drag you there himself.

"Okay"

"Really?"

"Just come back okay?" Tony says softly.

"I will, I promise. Let this be a way for me to prove to you that you can trust me Tony" you say desperately.

"Deal.. if you don't come back.. god I'll hate you" he chuckles sadly.

"Thank you" you smile, leaving a small kiss on his cheek.

He looks at you softly, pushing a strand of hair behind your ear. Gently stroking your cheek.

"Now go before I change my mind"

You squeeze his hand. Walking into the living room.

"Alright I'm coming" you say with a big smile on your face.

"Great my lady why don't you wait on the terrace I'll get my brother" Thor says, he sounds so excited that you're going with him.

"No" you say quickly stopping him. "I'll get him"

As you reach Lokis room you realize he's not there. You walk to his bedroom door, placing a gently knock on the door. There's no reply.

You knock again this time a little louder, still nothing.

"Loki, open the door please"

Silence.

"Loki just open it!"

Nothing.

"Loki now is not the time to be a diva" you shout, rubbing your eyes in frustration. "Open the door or I'll have Thor break it down"

Then you heard the sound of quiet, tired footsteps before the door opens slowly.

As you walk inside you're stunned to see the mess inside. Books torn into pieces, paper crumbled up everywhere. His bedsheet ripped off. The bed and bedside table overturned. Everything's a wreck.

Loki stands right before you, eyeing you up and down. He's been crying. His eyes are still red and puffy.

"He's taking me back home isn't he?" He snarls. Clenching his fist.

"Yes" you admit. He clearly already knows. No need to sugarcoat it.

Loki punches a giant hole in the wall, his hand starts bleeding. You freak out grabbing some of the ripped up bedsheet trying to bind his hand, yet he pulls away.

"Don't" he growls.

"Loki stop being a drama queen and let me help you" you say firmly yet kindly.

"I don't need your pity" he retorts.

"I'm not pitying you, I'm helping you" you smile.

"You're sending me home to die." He says coldly.

"If you had just let me speak, before punching the wall like an oath. You would have known I'm coming with you"

"What?" He asks. Brow raised.

"You didn't think I'd just let you go there alone did you" you smirk teasingly. "Now let me help you"

You reach out to grab his hand, this time he lets you take his hand, wrapping the sheet gently around it, to stop the bleeding.

"Now let's go before they change their mind and try to make me stay" you chuckle.

He tries his best to hide it, but you can see he's happy you're going. Though he'd never tell you that.

You walk up to the balcony, they're all standing there waiting for you. Loki groans as he sees the team, looking him up and down like a zoo animal.

"Get her back home to us alright" Natasha says.

You give a hug, then continue on to the rest. When you reach Tony and Steve you see their sad expressions. You embrace Tony tightly holding onto him for a while.

"Please don't let me down" he whispers.

"I won't" you promise him.

He lets go of you, nodding his head. You turn to look at Steve. You look up at him, clenching your jaw. Then he pulls you into a warm embrace.

"You don't have to say anything" you murmurs. "I'm happy for you"

"Thank you captain" you chuckle.

Loki rolls his eyes as you say your goodbyes.

"My lady it's time" Thor says admiring you.

"Okay, don't do anything stupid okay?" You whimper quietly.

In this second the doubt starts to creep in. However complicated things are around here. This is your family now. The first one you've had in a long time. You yell at each other. But you care about each other.

You're gonna miss hanging out with Natasha and Clint, gossiping about everyone. Arguing with Tony over the stupidest things, but always helping him down in his lab. Having long talks with Bruce about everything yet nothing at all. Drinking coffee with Steve. Everything about them.

"Bye reindeer games" Tony mocks.

Loki rolls his eyes and takes your hand, as Thor grabs your other.

"Ready brother?" Thor calls out.

Loki doesn't say a word. He just stands in silence waiting for it to happen.

"Heimdall, to Asgard!" Thor Shouts up to the sky. Seconds later a bright beaming light sucks you up in the air. It's a weird sensation feeling how the ground disappears from beneath your feet. It's more beautiful that you had ever imagined.

It's a weird tingling sensation as you rush through the sky. One second you're standing on the balcony of the tower, the next you're standing on the Bifrost. You look around taking in everything. And just like that you're right back. The sound of waves crashing below you. The golden palace you used to play in as kids.

"Welcome Back daughter of Idunn." Heimdall smiles softly.

"I'm home" you sob quietly, tightening your grip on their hands.