Chapter 11: The Happiness Didn't Last

Eli and I were driving in London when I started to feel pain in my stomach. Cramping. I didn't know what was happening, all I knew is that this wasn't something you should feel when pregnant.

I pulled over and grabbed my phone, but I knew Elliot was in a meeting, and I didn't want to bother him.

"Liv, whats wrong?" Eli asked, looking up from his phone.

"Eli, do you have a friend living near by?" I asked slowly, and he nodded.

"Yeah, but why?" he questioned.

"I'm going to drop you off there, so please text them to warn them." I breathed, as I bit my lip hard, trying to restrain from crying from the pain.

"No. What is wrong?!" He cried, and I looked at him painfully.

"Please, Eli."

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He listened to me, and as soon as I had dropped him off, I drove to the hospital.

I waited for what seemed like hours, and the cramping got worse, and I was thinking that I had started to bleed.

"Mrs. Stabler?" A voice spoke, as the nurse looked around. I stood up slowly, and she walked over to me.

"What seems to be the problem?"She asked, and I frowned.

"I think I'm losing my baby." I whimpered, and she frowned.

"Alright, lets get you back into an examination room. Did you call someone?" She asked, and I shook my head.

"No, ma'am." I replied, as we walked, and my steps were slow and painful.

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The nurse called Elliot for me, and by the time he had arrived, the baby was already gone. I was laying on my side, my back facing towards the door. I was on pain medication, and stuff to help with the miscarriage.

"Livvie?" Elliot breathed, and I closed my eyes tightly, as more tears slipped down my cheeks.

"Olivia."He spoke again, and I wiped a tear from my cheek as he walked around to my side.

"I'm sorry, El." I breathed, and he frowned as he pushed my hair out of his face.

"Why didn't you call me sooner? I could have been here for you." He breathed, and I frowned.

"I didn't call you because you were in a meeting, El. I didn't want to bother you." I whispered, and he caressed my cheek, as tears poured down my cheeks, and a few ran down his.

"You are never a bother, Liv. I'm sorry, baby."

I eventually moved in the bed and Elliot climbed in next to me and held me close. This was killing us both, even though I had only been 8 weeks along. We were so happy about the baby, but then he or she was taken from us even both they had a chance.

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Elliot left and went to pick up Eli, but instead of taking him home, he brought him to the hospital. They came up with food, and I opened my eyes as Eli sat down in front of me. I looked at him, and he gave me a gentle smile.

"Hi Liv." He breathed, and I forced a smile.

"Hey Eli. Sorry about earlier."

"I shouldn't have been so stubborn." he replied, and I actually smiled softly.

"Being stubborn is something in your DNA." I replied. Elliot helped me to sit up, and I played with the food he had bought me.

Eli and Elliot inhaled their food, then they just sorta stared at me.

"Eat." They said in unison, and I shook my head.

"I'm not hungry." I whispered, and Elliot shifted forward in his seat and pushed my hair behind my ear.

"Liv, once you are feeling better, I think we are going to take a trip home." He breathed, and I looked at Eli, and he was smiling excitedly, but I was scared.

"Everyone knew about the baby."

"Yeah..." he breathed, and I pulled my legs up and held them.

"You two go. I just don't think I can face them right now."

"Baby-" he started, and I shook my head.

"I'm tired. I think I'm going to get some sleep."

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The next morning I was released, and told to come back in two days to have a check up. Elliot drove me home, and we were both quiet.

We arrived home, and we took the elevator upstairs, and to find our apartment filled with the Stabler kids.

"Elliot." I whimpered, as I grabbed his arm and clung to him.

"I didn't think they were going to be here yet." He breathed, as he rubbed my back gently.

"What are they going to think? I couldn't even..." I trailed off, feeling horrible about everything. 

Being a mother means that you protect your child, and I couldn't even do that when my baby was inside of me. Tears grew in my eyes.

"They are going to understand, Liv."

"I don't want to. Not right now." I whimpered, before taking the back staircase up to the second floor, completely by passing them.

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I stayed upstairs, trying to figure out how to go down and face them. Figuring out how I should be around them. Maybe they were going to hate me. I couldn't do something that I was supposed to do. 

I had cried about how I couldn't do anything to save my baby, and the nurse at the hospital told me that God was taking the baby because it wasn't well. It was a sign. But fuck signs!

I eventually went downstairs and decided to face them.

"Hey Liv!" Lizzie exclaimed, and I wrapped my arms around my body.

"Hi." I replied timidly.

"How are you feeling?" Maureen asked, as she walked over and hugged me.

"Tired." I replied slowly, and she nodded.

"It's completely normal." She replied, sounding like the doctor she is.

"Good to know." I replied, and she nodded. She led me to the couch, and I sat down next to El. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and pulled me close.

"Where is Eli?" I questioned, as I looked around and didn't see him.

"He's staying with a friend."

"Why?"

"He's taking this harder than expected." Elliot replied, and I swallowed hard.

"Excuse me for a moment." I replied.

I walked upstairs and shut the door to our bedroom and called Eli.

"Hey Liv." he breathed.

"Eli, can we talk?" I questioned.

"I guess." he replied.

"I'm sorry that you have to go through this. I know how excited you were, and you were already talking about having a little brother to torture like Dickie tortured you, and I hate what happened." I breathed, and I heard sniffling from the other side.

"Out of all of the amazing people in the world, my sibling had to be taken from the best step mom anyone could ask for." he spoke, a few tears ran down my cheeks.

"Eli, I love you so much."

"I love you too, Liv. I'm sorry." he breathed.

"I am too, buddy." 

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