Broken Hearts and Runaway Boyfriends

"I don't know how to say this...but Judd left."

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"What?" I asked. Staring directly into Leah's eyes because I knew that if I looked away I would start to cry. The tears in my eyes were already forming but I didn't know if I would be able to stop them. "What do you mean Judd left?" I stuttered trying to say the words that I never thought I'd have to say.

"I mean he's gone, and he won't be back for a very long time."

My heart dropped in my chest and it suddenly felt like I was sinking. Like I was a sailor and every word that came out of her mouth was another wave ready to throw me overboard and trap me under the black sea.

"Why- why did he leave Leah?" I don't even know if I wanted to hear the answer.

"It's a long story Y/n, look, just get some sleep and we can talk about this in the morning-"

I cut her off before she could say anything else. I obviously wasn't going to sleep tonight.

"No. Tell me why he fucking left, Leah!"

She stared at me with wide-eyes, shocked by my outburst.

"Okay." She agreed and I eased up a bit.

"Four years ago Judd had a girlfriend who he would spend literally every second of every day with." She began.

"Like I'm talking he fell, and he fell hard for this girl-"

"I get it." I hissed. She looked at me once and dropped it.

"Well she cheated on him. With his best friend."

I placed my hand over my mouth in shock.

"Ever since he hasn't been able to maintain a serious relationship, and I think once he realized he had genuine feelings for you, he got scared and ran before you could hurt him."

Now it was my turn to stare at her wide-eyed.

"I would never do anything to hurt him-" I stammered.

"I know that, and I think he knows that too. But something in him won't let people in anymore."

I stared at the edge of her bed for a very long time. Contemplating this entire situation. Trying to figure out what to do next, how to make this okay.

But the only conclusion I could come to was that I needed him back. I needed Judd. Because I loved him, and because he was it for me. He's everything I'll ever want or ever need. So to make this okay the only thing I could think of doing was going to get him.

I can only hope that I'm enough to bring him back.

Author's note: Sorry this chapter is super short! Im also so sorry it's taken me forever to update. I've been so busy with school I haven't really had the motivation to keep up with this story. However I will keep updating, it just might take me longer. Thank you for reading! <33