Juushi 十四

| TAEYONG'S POV |

"H-Haechan, here's here?" I stuttered as I looked up at the familiar building.

"It is what is written here." S.Coups said as he confirmed the information on his phone.

S.Coups took the lead and I followed him, together with Jeonghan. Before I proceeded in front, Jeonghan grabbed my hand to ensure that I was okay. I nodded at him as reassurance. But to be honest, I was not okay. I did not expect to be in this building ever since I 'died' and I have good reasons to avoid it. I know that going to the place that made me who I am today will change my decision of wanting to come back to life which is definite. Right? Also, I died because of the monster who runs this company. As much as I want revenge on him, my hatred is overwhelming. Knowing that Haechan is here right now for the worst reason gives me the chills. What if Haechan fell victim to him? No way. If he did, he's dead.

"Hey Taeyong you okay?" S.Coups, with an eyebrow raised asked. He pointed at my fists and I looked down to see what he meant. I looked down and realised that I was clenching my fists so hard to the point that my knuckles turned white. Embarrassed, I relaxed my hands and hid them under my oversized hoodie. I looked up and saw Jeonghan giving me a small smile before heading up to the lift lobby. The couple casually walked hand-in-hand past the strangers who are not any obstruction to them. Even though we can't be seen by people, it feels weird to be walking around Seoul without having cameras shoved in my face. I can't get used to this and I won't.

Picking up my pace to catch up with the couple who are way ahead of me I felt a familiar presence near. Unbothered, I continued walking to join them but something at the corner of my eye caught my attention. Abruptly, I halted. I turned my attention to my left and saw 3 familiar figures standing by the lift. Squinting, I carefully try to figure out who were they. Until, the shorter one grabbed the phone from his giant friend and talked.

"Ten, where's Haechan now?" The shorter male said.

That voice, Y-Yuta? That's Yuta for sure! What is he doing here? I heard that he was asking Ten about Haechan...I think they must have find out about him. Great, at least they're not too late. I looked at the three of them with content and desperately try to blink my tear away. I never realised how much I must have missed them for me too be this emotional. I guess I do have a heart.

"Taeyong ah! The lift is here!" Jeonghan waved frantically as he called for me. I turned my heel and ran towards the couple who was holding the door for me.

"Who did you see?" Jeonghan asked as he leaned against the railing on the lift.

"I...saw...Yuta..." I try to say in between breaths.

"Who's Yuta?" S.Coups asked.

"The one he loves." Jeonghan said with a teasing tone.

"N-no I don't!"

"Then its the other way round?" S.Coups prompted.

"Bingo!" Jeonghan cheered happily.

"He loves Taeyong, alright. I can see by the way he talks to him everyday. Ahhh such young love. Reminds me of us when we were young, don't you think so babe?" Jeonghan nudges his lover.

"Well...you did play hard to get." S.Coups confessed and hugged his partner. The two enjoyed each other's embrace as soon as the lift reached its destination.

The few minutes of the lift ride was torturous. Any time now the CEO may have had placed his fithy hands on my Haechan. Thinking of the things he could do to Haechan makes my stomach twist in disgust. Luckily, the unsettling feeling ended when I heard the door open. Knowing the way, I lead the two companions and hurried my steps. I don't even know why I'm rushing. I'm dead, I can't do anything anyways. Despite the realisation, I fasten up my pace when I saw the huge glass door ahead of me. Multiple voices can be heard from where I stood. I went inside the room with the two by my tail. The room was tense, the CEO in his seat and Haechan standing by the window. He was gripping tightly into something but it was hard for me to figure out what it is.

I went towards Haechan who had his back facing us. Jeonghan and his husband tried to stop me but I slipped away from their grip. I know what I could get into if I come into contact with the younger. They warned me that if I were to happen touch any of the living, I will be stuck in the middle forever. Not dead nor alive. I will just be a lost spirit. I stood right in front of the younger, scanning his appearance, He had deep eye bags under his once cheerful eyes. His hair under the large hoodie was unkempt. The cheeks that I used to love pinching disappeared and his jawline was much more prominent. I put my gazed down to his collarbones and realised that his wearing my promise ring around his neck. (im not sure if I wrote a ring/charm/necklace in the past chaps but u get my point)

Noticing the item that the members treasured the most, I suddenly felt guilty. Guilty for leaving them behind as their leader. When all they did was look up to me, my selfish self decide to do what's best only for me. Unexpected tears ran down on my cheek and I totally had a breakdown. Jeonghan cam running when he saw they state I'm in. He caught me before I had the chance to collapse. The angel embraced me in a tight hug trying his best to comfort me. I cried harder onto his broad shoulders in hope to calm down soon.

"T-taeyong hyung ?" A small voice asked. Immediately, I jolted my head up. I turned to the boy and he was looking straight into my eyes. Confused and shocked, I nudged Jeonghan for an explanation.

"He may not be able to see you but he can feel your presence. Just like when you can feel if someone is staring at you." Jeonghan explained with a calm expression. Giving in to my temptations, I reached out my hand to caress the other but was stopped by an overwhelming voice.

"What nonsense are you spouting boy? Lee Taeyong is dead." The CEO stood up from his seat and walked around his table. Haechan turned his body away from Taeyong and faced the CEO instead.

"He's not." Haechan replied.

"He might as well be. He's not waking up any time soon. Stupid of him to try and kill himself, what is he not satisfied with all the things he received? However, I give it to him that the stunt really attracted both the media and public's attention. He mad out stocks go up. Kudos to your leader." The male raised the cup of alcohol that he poured earlier and looked at the younger boy. Anger boiled inside the younger boy.

"You son of a bitch! He tried to kill himself because of you asshole! Surprise surprise but I know what you did to Taeyong hyung. He was your first victim before me am I right?! " Tears threatened to escape his angry eyes.

"Well aren't you smart now. Do you really want to know what I did to your precious leader???" The CEO rolled up the sleeves of his shirt and leaned against the large marble table in his office.

"I fucked him nice and rough i'm sure he loved it. He was very obedient unlike you. Every session, he would obediently strip off his clothes without me ordering him to. I'm sure he enjoyed the toys I used on him too. Ahhh I especially love it when he tries to protest and kick me off of him. The objection turns me on. And when he gives in, that's the best part. What else do you want to hear boy?" The CEO walked towards Haechan who was trembling with rage. The older laid a finger on his chin and forced them to meet eye to eye. Haechan's pupils wavered at the contact and he tries to squirm away but failed.

"G-get off me!!" Haechan pushed the older away and pointed an object up to his face.

"Don't touch me or else I will kill you!" Haechan pointed the sharp metal that reflected under the sun. I realised that he was holding a pen knife and I panicked. This will turn into a disaster and I can feel it.

"Try me." A sinister smile crept on his face.