Juuni 十二

"Thanks for the food!" The 13 boys shouted in unison.

"That was delicious. Its been long since I had tteokbokki and Korean fried chicken." I piled up all the dirty dishes and cleared the table. Since the boys bought food, I decided to repay them but helping to clean up the leftovers. Besides, everybody knows that i'm a clean freak.

I carried the pile of dirty dishes and brought it to the sink. I took the rubber band that was hugging my left wrist and tied my fringe upwards. This reminds me, I need a haircut soon. After securing my fringe with the hairband, I grabbed the bright pink rubber gloves that was resting by the edge of the sink. I slid my hand into them and turned on the tap. As I picked the first dish to wash, I unconsciously hummed to "Angel", a song that I wrote a while ago for 127's album.

"Nice melody you got there." I flinched at the sudden surprise. I looked over my shoulder and saw the familiar foreign angel.

"Surprising people must run in your blood." I chuckled at the similarity of Joshua and S.Coups. Even though I know that neither of them are blood related, the way they act are so similar people might think that they are actually family.

"So. You didn't get to finish what you wanted to say earlier." The angel smirked and rested his back on the kitchen counter.

"..Well..Okay.. I committed suicide because i wasn't satisfied with living my life."

"I don't think that's all. Everyone is unsatisfied with their life. If everyone were to have the same mindset as you then there will be a mass suicide."

"Then i'm just a weakling. A crawny little kid who everyone despises and bullies. Apparently i'm such an easy victim to play with. I did not asked to be raped or to be spitted on! Everyday i force myself to wake up knowing that no one wants me alive. Every single second i'm awake, i'm afraid of being touched disgustingly by that monster again. Why suffer when i can just end my life right away?" I removed the gloves and threw them by the sink. Tears fighting to escape, i tilted my head back so they won't. I can't show my vulnerability to an angel who i just met.

"Hey...there there, i'm sorry. I shouldn't have asked you that question knowing that its a touchy subject." A warm hand found its way on my back and begin to draw circles. Joshua grabbed my shoulders and brought his body closer to mine. Discovering his shoulders, i leaned my forehead into them. This was all i need, a hug, a tight embrace, comforting me of my miseries.

After staying like that for about a minute or two, i quickly removed myself from his embrace. I nodded a small thank you and continue to complete my duty. When i turned my body away, i felt his presence disappearing to the living room. Feeling like a burden has been lifted off my chest, i feel much more content moving around now.

*BLARING SIRENS*

"What in the world??" Quickly finishing up the dishes, I left the last dish in the dishwasher and left the rubber gloves on the counter. I briskly walked to living room to figure what's going on.

"What was that?" I asked Joshua who was unexpectedly calm. It wasn't only him, everybody except for me was calm and minding their own business.

"Oh that must have shocked you huh. Its pop's working pager. Every time when he has a job, the siren will blast like that. Although, i do notice that it sounds a little bit different than the usual ones. It kinda sounds like when he had to retrieve you." Joshua calmly said as he looked at his father who currently is grabbing his stuff.

"Retrieve me?"

"Yeah. Oh maybe that happens for all humans who are not fated to die now. Let me ask him." Joshua stood up from his seat and approached his father who has his eyes glued to the phone in his hands. Curious, i followed Joshua and perked my ears to listen to what he has to say.

"Pops, who did you get this time?" Upon hearing his son's voice, the older snapped his head to the younger.

"Oh Josh. Unfortunately the boy's the same case as Taeyong here. Its not his time to go but because of circumstances he is trying to kill himself. Either one out of 7 of you will get him, probably."

"What is his name?" I asked.

"Umm...let me see. Oh, that's sad, idols have it rough huh? You're an idol too aren't you?"

"W-well, i was. He's an idol?"

"Yeah. Lee Donghyuck, 20 years old."

"W-wait. L-lee D-donghyuck??" No way. It can't be him right? There's so many Lee Donghyuck in this world it can't possibly be him.

"Yeah. What's wrong, is he someone you know?" Joshua and S.Coups now looks worried.

"H-his birthday. When is it?" At this moment, i was desperate. I had to find out if it was really the Donghyuck i know.

"It says here that its June 6, year 2000." S.Coups carefully read from his phone.

"O-oh my g-god. H-haechan ah." Out of sudden, i felt my knees give way. The cold hard ground met my body and i sat there in silence, dumbfounded by the reality. D-did something happen to Haechan? He was such a bubbly kid, our sunshine. I felt my cheeks getting wet from the tears.

"Come here. Everything is gonna be alright." Jeonghan kneeled beside me and embraced my frail body. I melt at his embrace and cried my lungs out. Through the hard sobs, my voice breaks every time i try to talk.

"I n-need to be there with h-him." I painfully spoke up. I looked at Jeonghan and he nodded as a sign of approval. What made him do this to himself? I have to be there.

// NOOOO MY HAECHANNNNNN