Nana 七

"Yuta! Where is he?" Yuta forced his head up and looked at his right to see 3 of his managers with the members running towards him.

"He's inside, with the doctors." Yuta said quietly.

Their 3 managers were pacing back and forth the hallway, calling all the higher ups, informing them of the situation. The members were all spread out at the hallway, some were on the floor, some were standing while some were on the chairs sipping coffee. Everyone was anxious for their leader's safety but they couldn't do anything other than pray.

Doyoung and Kun were mostly comforting the Dreamies while the older ones were either comforting each other or just staring at the walls. They all had bloodshot eyes and was in a bad state, especially Yuta. Yuta's pyjamas were covered with his friend's blood and his eyes were all puffy and red. Johnny and Win Win were by his side giving him support.

After the higher ups and a few of their close colleagues heard the news, most of them showed up at the hospital and waited for their friend. With no clue how it happened, the media suddenly were informed about this incident and they were told that the building was surrounded by reporters and also fans. Fans were waiting outside the hospital in the cold with self-made banners that said "Get Well Soon" or "Please Don't Leave Us Taeyong."

"Do you see this? Everyone is gathered for you. All of your members, your colleagues , your fans, even those who are not your supporters are giving their prayers online." Jeonghan, my guardian angel, showed to me the intense support i received.

I was speechless by what i am witnessing then. People were actually grieving for me and hoping that i will not leave them after i thought i was alone all along. The scene brought me to tears but it did not move all of my heart for a reason. I was still doubting the sudden support.

I looked at the scene before me. Some of my seniors and friends were there, but no family members. A tall figure dressed smartly came through the doors and i instantly knew who it was. He was the sole reason why i'm in that state, lying lifeless on the hospital bed. Looking at him just brings me anger. My blood boiled so much and i was clenching my fist tightly till my knuckles turned white. Jeonghan seemed to have noticed my change and he started to worry.

"Hey are you okay?" Jeonghan asked and placed his hand on my shoulders with the attempt to calm my nerves down.

"Him. Now that he appears, i have no reason to rethink my decision. I did this because of that monster. If it wasn't for him, i could maybe, just maybe not give in." I was so angry that my mind was trying to process all the words that i'm about to say but i just couldn't put them into proper sentences.

"I-i.."

"Calm down Taeyong." Jeonghan tried to soothe me but his sympathy made my blood boil even more.

"YOU, you claimed yourself to be MY 'guardian angel' but where were you when i laid hopeless on his bedsheets??? Where?! I. DON'T. NEED. TO. RETHINK. ANYTHING. WHY?!! Why did god give me this life? What did i do to deserve this? I had enough...it's too much...." I was a crying mess after i let out all the things i had bottled up in me. My legs gave way and i'm now kneeling on the floor miserably like the person i am.

Jeonghan was speechless, he didn't know what to say or what to do. Yes, he did feel guilty. As a guardian angel, your job is to guide your human into doing the right thing or doing the things they love and also make them happy. But with how Taeyong is right now, he feels like he had fail as a guardian angel. Not only he made his human wants to kill himself, but he also made his human not live the satisfied life he deserved. A disappointment, just like what his parents used to call him. However, he's not going to let an obstacle bring down his motivation, he's going to help Taeyong no matter what and encourage him to live his life longer.

"Taeyong, try to see this as your turning point." Jeonghan kneeled down to be at the same level as Taeyong.

"Once, i used to be like you. I wanted to kill myself, although angels can't die. I was called a disappointment just because of my sexual preference. My parents banished me from their home and i was alone for centuries." Jeonghan storytelled as he reminisced about his past.

"Centuries?" Taeyong was curious about his angel's age.

"Yes. I was your guardian angel for your whole bloodline. I've been living for a long time hehe." Taeyong thankfully calmed down upon hearing Jeonghan's story.

"I couldn't have done it without my husband though. He was the reason that brought my life back together." Jeonghan continued as he fiddled with a ring that i didn't notice hugging his ring finger.

"But i'm not gay." Taeyong said bluntly.

"Haha it doesn't have to be a guy. It just have to be someone who is your encouragement in your everyday life. Someone who cherishes you the most. But you sure you not gay?" Jeonghan teasingly said that made me blush.

"I'm never going to be loved..Is your husband an angel too?" I asked Jeonghan, hoping that he didn't listen to what i said earlier.

"Nope, he's actually a grim reaper. That's also one of the reasons why i was banished by the community. Dating someone of the dark. But as time goes by, the two worlds decide to work with each other and so here we are. Actually, he was the one who informed me about your attempted suicide. He knows that it wasn't your time yet so he pestered me to talk to you. I was busy earlier so i wasn't there to oversee you. His name is S.Coups by the way. It's not his real name, grim reapers have to disclose their real identity as rules. ANYWAYS, we've been married for 400 years now and i could not be happier."

"And honey, you'll have to patient." I looked at Jeonghan, shocked that he picked up what i said earlier. He gave me a wink and proceeded to laugh out loud.

"What happens if i decide to wake up? Do i restart from the point i decide to kill myself or....?"

"Oh?? Having second thoughts already?" Jeonghan smirked.

"I said IF." I emphasised the word.

"Well, you will wake up at that time of the year without restarting. So you'll have to make your choice wisely before anything happens." Jeonghan explained, still looking at the current situation below them.

There's no way i'm going to wake up...right?