Chapter 34

******Lauren's POV******

Normani still had me up against the wall, trailing kisses up and down my neck. I was trying so hard to think with my head and not my body, but it was so difficult. This was wrong, but it felt right. "Okay Lauren" I said in my head, "Pros and Cons. Pro: I get laid. Con: I take advantage of Mani. Pro: I get more experience. Con: I hurt both Arin and Mani. Con: Dinah could leave me again". I knew what I had to do. 

I pulled my arms away from Mani and then pushed her onto the bed, and she smirked at me. "I'm guessing you wanna take control?" she said, and I nodded no. "No Mani, I'm not having sex with you. I love Dinah too much and I know that you still love Ain" I said, and then she got angry. "No! I don't love him. I hate him! He hurt me!" she yelled, and it scared me. I've never seen Normani ever get so loud. "I know you still love him Normani, and that's why you're doing this. Because you're sad and you miss him" I said calmly, trying to get through to her. "NO! I HATE HIM! HE MEANS NOTHING TO ME!" she yelled, but I could tell her anger was fake. Single tears started to stream down her face.

"C'mon Normani, face it. No matter how much you say it, you still love him. He's the love of your life and you want him back" I said. "NO! I HATE HIM! I NEVER LOVED HIM!" she yelled again, but the tears told another story. I moved forward and pulled her into my arms. "NO, GET OFF OF ME! I DON'T LOVE HIM, OR DINAH, OR YOU" she said, but then she started to give into my hold, breaking down completely.

"Ssh, it's okay. Let it out sweetheart, I know it hurts" I said, holding her head to my shoulder. I don't know how long she cried for, but I know it had to be at least 1 when it started to slow down. She was going through so much pain, it was crazy how bad she felt. I've never even seen Normani cry, so this was all types of new. I barely knew what to say to her in this situation, but I had to try.

"Mani, how you feelin kid?" I said, sitting and holding her on the bed. "I hate how much I love him"she slurred, and I could tell something wasn't right. "Mani, are u still drunk? Or high?" U asked, and she replied with "A little bit of both". "Normani" I said, looking into her eyes and grabbing both of her hands, "What did you take last night?" She thought for a moment, "Rum, vodka, gin, ecstacy, hookah, a little cocaine, and weed". How the hell was she still as stable as she is.  "Mani, we need to get you to a hospital" I said, pulling her up and putting her jacket on. "But I'm fin-" she was cut off by vomiting on the ground, and I swear there were tons or pills in it. She stumbled over and I thought she was about to fall, so I grabbed her before she could. "Woah there, Mani. I got ya" I said, trying to walk her to sit on the bed. She kept swaying from side to side, and I swore she was all types of fucked up. "Normani, I need to get you to the hospital. Please work with me" I said while I started putting on her jacket. "NO! I'm fine Lauren, let me be!" she yelled, fighting me as I tried to put her jacket on. I was wrestling her to get her damn coat on, and she wasn't cooperating. "Normani Kordei, let me help you" I said, still trying to help her.

I could tell she was getting a bit worked up, but I could not predict what happened next. "Let me go Lauren! Get off of me!" she said, pushing me back. She started breathing heavy and sweating, and I knew something was wrong. "Normani?" I said, trying to come with her. She just moved me away, "Get away Lauren". I did not like how she was looking right now, she didn't look stable at all. Her chest was rapidly rising and falling, and her eyes looked like she was terrified. And then it all just stopped, and Normani hit the ground.

"No.....Normani" I yelled and ranover to her on the ground. I picked her head up and put my head to her chest. I was searching and searching but I couldn't find one. I put my fingers against the side of her neck to search too, but again, there was nothing. I was trying so hard but I couldn't find it.......

She had no pulse.

*****Dinah's POV****

I was sitting at home right now, looking on various websites. I kept designing and redesigning, but nothing that I created seemed good enough. It had to be perfect. Everything I did had to be perfect, and I knew it was going to be. Christmads and New Years were coming up, and I had the best idea ever. We go spend Christmas with Lauren's family, and then we spend New Year's with mine. This way, we could both meet each other's parents. And that would give me a chance to get her father to like me before I ask. But apparently, that was the least of my worries.

My phone started ringing, and I immediately picked up when I saw it was Lauren. "Hey bab-" I stopped midsentence when I heard her sobbing. "Lauren, what's going on?" I asked. "D-dinah. It's normani. She got hurt and I don't know what to do" she sobbed, and I knew this had to be bad. "Where are you now Lauren?" I asked. "I'm at the hospital with Normani. They're trying to save her now". I felt my heart drop to the floor, "What happened Lauren? Please talk to me lolo". 

"Dinah" she started, "They think Normani had a heart attack".