53. My Ninja Way is Toxic

I love how many reads is there for the 'lemon?' chapter. You damn hoes XD

And the comments exceeded 200+ in the previous chapter. So basically, y'all want some action. Some Itachi action.

I get it.

I get what y'all are thinking. Okay then I'll be sure to include more but not too much.

Also, I miss badass Akina. She's been acting too much of a love struck teenager. Time for a few changes in the next few chapters. Just not this one.

Enjoy! <3

Lol, also that's the masked man up there ^

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Akina's POV

I nodded at Pain, my hand accepting the mission given to me. "A solo mission. I expect you back in two weeks." He ordered.

"Solo? I thought I'd be going with Itachi and Kisame."

He gave me an indifferent expression, his eyes expressionless. "No, you can do this alone. Now leave." 

His eyes shifted from my face to someone behind me and I turned around to see the plant. "Oh, Zetsu how are you?"

It half smiled. "I'm fine! Thanks for asking me!"

"Shut up, you're annoying." The other half grumbled.

I left the room, activating my rinnegan to see the chakra signatures inside, sighing since I couldn't see any. Probably a seal.

"Its not nice to eavesdrop you know." A voice said and without batting an eye, I moved quickly to stand behind him, the tip of my kunai at the back of his neck.

I narrowed my eyes, speaking. "One sudden move and you're dead. Why are you here, Rou?"

He turned to me, his black hair falling messily over his blue eyes shooting me a quirky grin. If he wasn't a suspect, I'd be falling for him, cracking perverted jokes and screaming 'Notice me senpai'. 

I was a sucker for black haired guys with messy hair.

"Hm you know I am expecting a thank you for saving your butt from Pain. If he found out.. it wouldn't be good you know."

I pushed the kunai in further, a dangerous glint in my eyes as I spoke quietly. "Are you threatening me? I could kill you right now and no one would ever know."

He was seemingly lost in thought as he spoke up, his blue eyes gazing into my charcoal ones. "Oh they would notice. You aren't that special, you know. Just because Pain likes you doesn't mean there are others who do." 

"Hn. With the exception of Itachi, Kisame and shishou, I'm pretty sure I could eradicate all Akatsuki members. Don't get on my bad side, Rou." I flared my chakra, letting KI seep through.

He barely seemed fazed as turned around and pushed the kunai away from me. I lowered my hands slightly, tilting my head up to get a better look at him. We were mere centimeters apart as tension flared high between us, the lightning crackling between our eyes.

The both of us growled slightly at each other before a sudden smile crossed his face, fading mere seconds later. "As feisty as always. Stay the same, Akina."

"What do you mean?" I narrowed my eyes. 

He flicked my forehead, making me hold my bruise as I stumbled back, scowling at his chuckling figure. "What the fuck is your problem dude?! Fuck off!"

"Go suck a dick." He copped back, his blue eyes crinkling with humor.

I sputtered. "What?! Why don't you go and suck it!"

He shrugged carelessly. "Cause I don't want to."

"Then why are you telling me? I don't want to suck a dick!"

His eyes widened for a moment before he nodded once, a bubble appearing above his head as he imagined something else. "So you're a lesbian? I could've sworn you were dating Itachi's otouto.. Sasuke Uchiha was it?"

I deadpanned at him. "First off, don't mention his name. Secondly, I never said I'm a lesbian."

"But since you refused to suck a dick I could only assume you like some puss-"

"OKAY THAT'S ENOUGH SELF AWARENESS FOR TODAY! GET OUT ROU!"

He poked a tongue out. "I don't want to."

I groaned. "What the fuck is wrong with you? Are you bipolar?! You threaten me and then become all kid like. You're the first of the Akatsuki to be such a big... stupid face!"

"Akina..." He sighed, running a hand through his silky black locks before he narrowed his eyes at me. "The stupid one is always the person calling someone else stupid."

Kisame and Itachi were lurking nearby, wondering why Akina was taking so long. Seeing the duo face off against each other excited the shark man.

"Oh this is gonna be lit!"

As the conversation flowed, he withered.

"This fight is on a grade school level! What are they, five, calling each other stupid?!"

Itachi shook his head, hoping the Senju wouldn't act as dumb.

"Oh yeah, well you just called me stupid so that makes you the bigger stupid head! IN YOUR FACE!" I shrieked, pointing a finger at him.

"Akina's gone grade school level too!"  Kisame deadpanned, as he sighed leaning against a wall. 

Rou sighed. "I never said that. What time did I say it? What hour, what minute, what second? How many times had the world spun?"

I growled, grabbing his collar and shaking him back and forth like a rag doll before smacking his face multiple times. 

"SHUT UP! YOU DID SAY IT! YOU CALLED ME STUPID."

"This petty sibling like quarrel is what's stupid!" 

That moment, Pain opened the door and blinked at the scene in front of him. I was panting heavily, landing slaps to Rou's face as he tried to defend himself.

"...."

"...."

"SHE STARTED IT!!" Rou pushed me away and I swore.

"WHY ARE YOU RUNNING?! WHY ARE YOU RUNNING?! I'LL SHINRA TENSEI THE FUCK OUT OF YOU."

Pain's jaw tightened and a warm, delicate pair of hands separated Rou and I. Konan nee shook her head at us. "Stop acting like kids, and act like adults. Arguing will get us nowhere."

She appeared out of nowhere and I slowly stepped back, nodding. 

Why did I act like that? That little-

"I'll get you, you damn hoe!" Rou shouted before slithering away like the snake that he is. I gasped and strong arms held me by my stomach as I tried to catch him.

"YOU MOTHERFUCKING LITTLE WHO-"

"That's enough. I received some reports. Itachi.. you may leave when you want for your purpose. And Hidan is dead." Pain announced and I stopped moving instantly. 

"Wait, what?" I whispered. Since Shikamaru didn't attack that time I assumed.. that they were safe.

"Kakuzu is nowhere to be found. He is presumed to be dead. If found alive, kill him immediately."

"Shishou! I can bring Hidan back! And that old geezer too if he's dead. I just-" 

"No." Pain stopped me mid way of my ranting as I gave him a confused stare.

"No?"

"Hidan wasn't much of a valuable asset. If Konoha can defeat him that means he's weak. We have no use for the weak."

I glared at Pain, enraged. "What the fuck do you mean by weak?! Konoha was just lucky! Hidan is seriously strong and devoted to the cause. I can save him by bringing him back!"

The temperature dropped suddenly around us, and I suppressed a shiver running down my back. He was livid. Furious. But his voice was deathly quiet.

"Perhaps I have given you too much freedom and that is my fault. Akina, you will obey my orders or face a painful death. You will obey my orders." With that, he walked back inside his office.

I gulped harshly, my jaw twitching and my hands clutched the cloak. I was filled with pure, unadulterated rage. "I will bring Hidan back."

"Akina, that's not the best idea." Kisame gulped as he pulled my arm. I snatched it back, elbowing him in the process. I activated my rinnegan, eyes pooling with tears at frustration of being helpless.

I thought things had changed. That I had changed them.

But the stupid plot just wouldn't let them live.

Do the bad guys always have to die?

Does that mean Dei-

My eyes widened in slight horror as I turned to Konan frantically. "Where's Deidara? I need to see him."

If Deidara and Sasuke encounter each other...

"He is currently returning with Tobi. He must be somewhere in the neutral land between Konoha and the Land of Whirlpools, last I heard."

"When?"

"A day ago. He was completing a job in the Hidden Mist village."

Wait.. but I told Sasuke to meet me at the Land of Waves.. they're in different directions so he should be fine.

They both should be fine.

I sighed loudly, relief hitting me hard. "Fine. I'm going on that mission. And bringing Hidan back. Kuchiyose no jutsu!"

I did the hand signs as Kokomi appeared before me, her black eyes peering up at me. "Hidan, where is he buried? Who killed him? I want all details."

"Akina-san..." Her voice held a tint of worry and my anxiety grew worse.

"What is it now?"

"S-Shikamaru sent you a message. He said, Hidan's body is in Konoha and Kakuzu is alive in the cells as well."

Konan blinked once. "Is that so.. how are the defenses then?"

"Strong. Many ANBU are guarding them. Well, they're guarding Kakuzu. Hidan's been buried somewhere in Konoha and I don't know where. Its been six days, Akina-chan. You won't be able to do anything." 

My jaw tightened in anger. "Then why the fuck didn't you inform me anything?!"

"Y-You didn't summon me-"

"As if I give a fuck! You had one job Kokomi and that was to keep an eye on all my loved ones. You could've reversed summon me.. I... just leave. I don't have the patience to deal with you now."

"Uchiha-sama..." She whimpered.

I closed my eyes, turning away as I started to walk towards the entrance. "Just get out. I don't need your help. It's always a mistake trusting someone. As if you guys could do this."

I placed a hand on a nearby tree and gulped harshly as my throat felt dry suddenly. I was so tired. 

I need a break.

When all this is over... I'm going to retire in some mountain away from everyone and all this drama. Fuck everyone.

I dodged the stone being thrown at me and turned around, getting an irk mark as Kisame called for me. "Hey hentai." 

"What is it, hentai? Also, you're no one to talk calling me a pervert."

"Don't get so hasty, pup." He placed his hand on the top of my head as I roughly pushed it away. 

"I'm leaving to bring back Hidan and Kakuzu."

"Its a trap."

"I fucking know it is! I just.. want to.." I punched the tree as it grunted under the pressure, shaking wildly. 

"I get it kid. Its just that you have to stick to your mission. And Itachi and I to ours. Now, you have to choose. Its either Hidan or Itachi. You can't be in two places at once. And if Leader-sama finds out.. I don't think Rou will help you this time."

I removed my hand from the tree, rubbing my eyes furiously to get rid of the half formed tears. "Fine. You guys go. I'm heading to Konoha. I choose Hidan."

"After all that I said? Seriously?! Man, I gotta work on my talking skills. Just tell me, why him over 'Tachi?" He sighed.

"I'm not going to sit here and talk my feelings out with you, Kisame. We have no time." I scowled slightly.

"Do you love him?"

I paused. "No. I don't love anyone but myself for I don't see a reason to love others when all you face is pain."

He chuckled. "You're such a hypocrite and a liar, brat."

"I'm hurting them because I love them." 

He frowned slightly. "What?"

"Its fucked up but true. I distanced myself from them to save them from a certain man. I heard from someone that the best form of love is self sacrifice. So, what I'm doing is showing my love right? By hurting them, distancing myself from them and helping capture Jinchuriki's considering Naruto is one, I'm saving them. Because, I'll always be a step ahead of the Akatsuki and then I can plan accordingly."

"They might not realize it, but love isn't all about hugs, kisses, trust and all that crap. Its also about what length you're willing to go for them. Sometimes, to make myself feel better I goof around with you guys. But all of you are dying and I can't stand that. I can't distance myself from you guys because you're my only family now. So, not being able to save my family makes me feel worse." My voice faded to a mere whisper, the ache in my chest increasing drastically.

"Self sacrifice is the best form of love." I whimpered.

"Its the worst way to show your love, Akina. Its not right and you know it deep inside." Kisame scratched his head.

"But its my ninja way. And no matter how toxic it is.. I'll follow it to my death."

"You're... you're really fucked in the brain aren't you? You aren't depressed, are you?" He shot me a worried glance.

I laughed slightly, clapping my hands slowly in mock admiration. "The better question here is when did my depression start."

He stared at me incredulously. "What the fuck?"

"Hey, I'm fine Kisame! I swear on my parents! I am ok." I smiled and he slowly relaxed.

"Well, if you swear on your parents.."

I smiled softly, following him.

Jokes on you, Kisame. My parents are dead.

I can't make anyone worry about me.

How selfish of you, Aki.

I turned around, wide eyed. I could've sworn that was her...

Wow, okay that was dark but I could relate.

You guys need help.. then talk to me... like please just PM me saying I need help. All you gotta do is say three little words. It can help you be happy and we'll save another life.

I'm a total stranger.. but that may be the reason its easier to talk to me. I will never judge you. I appreciate you all. :)

Please, if you feel depressed remember that you are NEVER ALONE.

Don't take the burden on yourself like Akina. While she's a representation of me, I can't not say that I wouldn't do this for I do believe self sacrifice is the ultimate form of love no matter how twisted it really is if you look deeper within.

Just talk to me. I'm a friendly person. Y'all need help? I'm a text away.

And remember, when you feel as if no one cares about you.. you're wrong because there's at least one person who does. You just have to find them.

As the book progresses, I'll be writing about more and more dark topics so please be aware. All the fun kinky shit was long over in Naruto.

Now, while Akina has a touch of romance in her life I'll be giving her a more realistic view which includes tackling 'darker themes'. Read the intro if you have no idea what I'm talking about!

Of course, there will be a few funny and cute ass moments. And kinky shit will be there. Just, not for now. 

PS: I'm really not blaming anyone Istg. I REALLY AM NOT ACCUSING ANYONE!!

But, I kinda feel weird since so fucking many Senju Uchiha books are popping up all over the place. I mean, I guess its popular (is it, really because before starting i didn't see shit?) but tbh I think my book (when I started it) was the only one with such a character. (I apologize if there were more but I didn't see them that time.)

I specifically wanted a Senju but then I threw Uchiha into the mix thinking it'd be unique and different. OP um, not so much. 

You all can see how much she's getting kicked around like a sack of potaetoes.

TIME FOR THE DEATH ARCS YAS!

IM NOT ACCUSING ANYONE OF PLAGIARISM BECAUSE OF THE CHARACTERS BEING CALLED (name) Senju Uchiha.

I'm just saying, you wanna borrow my ideas - ask me for permission and go for it if I agree! Don't copy my shit because I've seen it happen to amazing authors before and I don't want it happening to me.

Lol as if anyone's gonna copy my shitty book. *eye roll*

But that's just in case!

See ya!

~Blue