Chapter 21: Bittersweet

Nanaba's POV

I groaned looking at the foods in front of us which are starting to get cold. "They are taking so much time!" I whined slamming my palm at the table. It caught most of the people's attention but I didn't even bother to apologize nor look at them. My extreme craving plus my annoyance with my husband who is too busy with his phone has mixed up inside of me and now, I feel so pissed off. "Argh!!" I groaned messing my hair.

Just as I was about to complain once again, Mike's phone rang. I glared at him as he picked it up.

"Its Levi" He said showing me the caller's id.

"Let me talk!" I snatched his phone and placed it near my ear ready to yell at the person on the other line. "Hey! Do you even know that you two are taking so long?" I hissed and rolled my eyes. I was expecting some smart reply from Levi but he didn't talk. The other line was silent and that made me curious.

"Hey. You okay?" I asked, now concerned of them. Mike looked at me confused.

"She knows"Levi whispered. I frowned, not catching even a single idea of what he just said.

"What?"

The tone of my voice made Mike a bit inquisitive thus he leaned towards me, placing his ear near the phone, just enough to hear my conversation with Levi.

"Hanji knows everything now"

My eyes widened in shock. "Wha- HOW?!"

Mike who was beside me also looked surprise.

"She saw me and Petra earlier. And now, she ran off" Levi heave a sigh "I don't fuckin' have any clue where to look for her"

I felt my blood boil. I always knew that we'll get to this point.

"This is what I am always afraid of. You accidentally hurt her all because you wanted to keep your lies" I straightforwardly said as I stood up from my seat. "So face the consequences and look for her yourself!" I yelled just as I ended the call. I turned towards my husband. "Lets go! I already lost an appetite"

Mike lookes at me exasperatingly. "After all the trouble of ordering this much food? What are you planning to do with all of this" He asked, getting up from his chair.

"Leave it!" I answered as I started walking. Mike followed me but I suddenly felt bad. I really want to eat those chilis right now! Damn this hormones.

I stopped. "On the second thought......... Lets just put those on take outs instead" I said, huffing to hide my pride. My husband rolled his eyes but then he answered me with a smirk before he walked back to the table to call for a waiter.

Hanji's POV

I pulled my hoodie better over my head as I sat in front of the steps of Nanaba's house. I don't have any idea where to go earlier so I decided to stop in here. And aside from that, my stomach hurts so much right now because I haven't eaten anything aside from my breakfast. Damn that chibi. I lost my opportunity to eat free foods just because of his scheme with Petra earlier.

"Ugh" I groaned. "This sucks" I whispered, pulling my knees on my chest. I placed my head above it, recalling the events earlier. Technically, I should be happy right now because Levi is straight. But I can't seem to feel that way because I suddenly felt insecure. I mean, how can I even match with the super sophisticated and lovely Petra when I am (according to that freakin' chibi) is just a shitty four eyes. If Levi's type of women are those like Petra, then I don't have any chance. "This really sucks" I sighed as I felt the pain in my chest again.

I let myself rest in that position till I heard a car engine stopping in front of the yard. I looked up.

"Hanji!" My pregnant bestfriend squealed, running towards me. I stood up and met her halfway.

"Hey" I greeted her. I was answered with an embrace.

"Are you okay?" Nanaba asked, loosening herself from the embrace. I smiled at her and nodded but it seems like my eyes didn't coordinate with me. Because just as I was about to answer, a tear fell from it.

"I... I'm.." I stopped as the tightening of my chest started once again. "I'm not" I sobbed "I am not fine Nanaba"

My bestfriend hugged me once again, lightly pushing my head at her shoulders as I cried. "Stop crying please" Nanaba said in small voice. "It also makes me feel hurt whenever I see you like this" she tapped my back as I continued to sob. Then her husband went towards us. While I cried beside Nanaba, Mike guided us inside the house. He went to the kitchen while Nanaba helped me sit on the couch.

"He lied to me" I told her. Nanaba ran her hand at my back to sooth me as I hiccupped from my sobs. "But I don't think that is where I felt most hurt at" I admitted. I rose my head to face Nanaba who looked at me with a confused expression.

"What do you mean?" She asked.

My lips curled upward while I contained my cry. "I... I feel dumped because I like him so much Nanaba" I confessed. "But seeing Petra and remembering how much it affected him when they broke up.... I don't think I can be suited for Levi"

Nanaba embraced me once again and Mike arrived with a glass of water. He excused himself afterwards to provide me and his wife some space.

"Hanji, you shouldn't think of yourself that way" Nanaba started. "It is true that Petra is lovely and attracting but you" she held my hand "you have your own charm" She said. "Attraction does not only come in the external beauty Hanji. You are also very charming because you are smart, funny, and very unique" Nanaba smiled at me. "To be honest, most of the guys that I tried to partner with you almost wanted to date you for real. I just declined them because you told me to do so"

I laughed a little when Nanaba said that. But then, her expression suddenly dropped. My bestfriend looked at me seriously. "To be honest Hanji, I also have something that I want to admit to you" She told me, holding my hand tighter "I always knew the truth" Nanaba admitted. "But I decided not to tell you because Levi told us to keep it a secret"

I bit my lower lip. "So all this time it was only me who doesn't know a thing?" I asked sarcastically "you were all lying to me"

Nanaba shook her head. "You don't know how much I wanted to tell you the truth. But I didn't, out of respect to Levi" She told me but I turned my head away. "Please try to understand Hanji" Nanaba plead  "We never really want to hide it from you this long. I am sure that Levi also had a thought of telling you the truth but he never just had the chance to do so. He probably don't want you to hate him"

I gulped as another set of tears fell from my eyes. "That is the thing Nanaba" I whispered. "I like him so much that I can't hate or despise him. Eventhough he did this, I can't get my feelings for him off my chest"

Nanaba embraced me. "I am so sorry Hanji" She said patting my back.

I don't think that I can ever hate Levi, or even get him out of my life. He already sneaked inside my heart and I don't know if I can ever take him out of it. Maybe it really is true that love can make you go blind and that as much as it gives you happiness, it also provides you a bitter experience at the same time. That I realized as I cried on my bestfriends shoulder, pouring all my frustrations out of myself.

AN: This is supposed to be a long chapter but I decided to cut it into two parts. The next chapter will be published tomorrow (hopefully) along with my new LeviHan book.

Yes folks! You have read it right. I made a new one. The title is "Guns and Lancet" And the genre is very new to me hahahaha the cover and the plot is posted below :))))

PLOT: A virus broke out and no one knows how it did. Everything turned ugly and now, the faith of humanity lies on the hands of a military captain and a senior doctor. Will Hanji and Levi be able to restore the previous peace that the world has before it got infested with the man-eating creatures? Or will these deads forever roam the cities of the planet?