Chapter 35

Warning there may be foul language and sexual content in this chapter.

Recap:

Sesshomaru's POV

“You really love her, it really is her, isn’t it?”  I looked him in the eyes and he knew the answer.  “So what will you do later in life?  One day that girl is going to want something from you.”

What could he possibly mean?  What will she want from me? 

“A child perhaps?”  My eyes widened.  The child would be a half- breed.  Would I want it?  Even with it being my own, it would still.  Would she really want, she is still human, even though she is a witch, she is still human.  “My son, did you think that it would only remain the two of you?  Did you not think that she would not want a child of her own?”  To be honest I never really thought about it.  We haven’t had much time to talk about our future together.  We’ve been too busy fighting, but what else is new.  Would we even be able to raise a child?  Would I be able to handle a child?

“My son, perhaps, it would be wise to sit and speak with her?”

“Perhaps you are right father.”  His hand on my shoulder, and then he took it off as I took away from him.

“Becoming a father my son, will change how you see her, how you see everything.  It may be good for you, it may be good for her, and it may not.” 

I began to walk away, back to her.  While thinking about everything father had said, but stopped mid step.  “Thank you, father.”  With that I walked back to her, to my Rin.

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Rin’s POV

I woke up to see Sesshomaru standing by the window, he was looking out of it thinking.  He seemed to be deep in thought, I wonder what he could possibly be thinking about.  I rolled onto my side, my back was starting to hurt from sleeping on it, and for staying gin one position for too long.  He looked over at me when I moved.  He came to my side and sat on the edge of the bed.  His hand moved to caress my cheek, causing me to smile and lean into his touch.

When he touched me, something felt off, something was different about him.  Something’s wrong. 

“Sesshoamru, is everything alright?” I asked as I took his hands from my face and held it in my own.

“Everything is fine, there is nothing to worry about.”

“Are you sure, something seems different about you?”  Why would he lite to me?  He didn’t seem to want to answer and it was now irritating.  Why won’t he talk to me?  That’s what we are supposed to do right?  I sat up and looked at him, he refused to meet my gaze.

“Sesshomaru?”  Nothing.  “Sesshomaru you look at me right now!”  He turned his head and the look in his eyes.  “Talk to me, please?”  My voice cracked.  I want us to be able to talk no matter what.  I don’t want us to try and keep things from the other.

“Once everything is over, when we finish this, what is it that you want?”

What does he mean what do I want?  I want him.  Always and forever, I want him.  “I want you, I want to live with you, I want to have fun, and to be able to live without the fear of someone trying to kill me or us or the ones that I love, that is what I want.”

“Is there anything else that you could want?”

“What else is there?  Sesshomaru what are you thinking about really?”  What could he possibly be thinking about that he can’t just tell me?  He turned his head from me.  He was about to get up to leave.  I touched his cheek and turned his face for him to look at me, he did not want to have this conversation, I could see that in his eyes.  He was worried about something, about me, about us?  I have yet to see him like this.  “Sesshomaru, you’re scaring me.”  I whispered.  “Talk to me, what is on your mind?  We are supposed to talk to each other, aren’t we?”  I searched his eyes for any sign of that I could find, that would help tell me what was going on inside his head.  “Please?”

“I had a talk with my father, and it got me thinking.”  He never took his eyes off of mine.

“What did you two talk about?”

“You and I.”

“What about us?”

“Our future.”

“What about our future exactly?”

He seemed to hesitate before he answered.  “He mentioned something that you may want in the future.”  He looked away from me then.  What could he have brought up?  Something that I want?

“What could…. Oh, OH!”  Sesshomaru looked at back to me then.  “I, umm, I don’t know what to say, I never actually thought about it much.  I thought about us together, but a child, I never put too much thought into it.  Do I want one?  I don’t know, I never saw myself having a child.  I never saw myself being with someone.  Now if something happened, and let’s say that I did end up having a child.  Would I want to keep it?  The answer is yes, it would be our child.  The question is would you want it?  Sesshomaru it would be….”  We both knew that it would be a half demon, like Inuyasha, who Sesshomaru didn’t care much for, although he has protected him once or twice when his life was in danger.  Sesshomaru still hates or can’t stand half breeds. 

Sesshomaru just stood up and walked towards the door.  I knew he was going to leave.  I stood to my feet and ran to him.  I turned him to face me.

“You are not leaving, you will stay here, and you will talk to me, even if I have to make you.”  He stared at me, as if I had lost my mind, but there was also pride in his eyes.  Pride for me, for standing up to him.  He sighed and sat back down on the bed.  I straddled him and placed my hands on his shoulders, then up to his neck.  “I love you, and I don’t have to have a child to be happy if that’s what you’re wondering.  All I need is you, I know that some woman say it, just to say it, but I mean that.  All I need is you, you keep me sane, you keep me from losing control, you are my world, and I would do anything to keep you, to stay with you, but if you ever wish to send me away, and that will make you happy, I will leave.”

He growled and gripped my hips.  “You are forever mine, mate!”

“Prove it.”  I challenged him, and he did.  He proved to me how much he cared, how much that he loved me, even after the sun rose in the sky. 

I was now laying on his bare chest as he caressed random patterns on my bare back.  My head was over his heart, I loved listening to it.  “I love being able to lay here with you, just the two of us.”  I told him as I moved so that I could look up at him.  His hands moved to move a strand of hair out my face and behind my ear. 

“You mean the world to me Rin.”  I smiled and moved to kiss him.

“Mmm.”  I closed my eyes shut, and took a deep breath, and let it out. 

“Rin, are you alright?” “I’m fine, just…Sore.”    

His face changed, he didn’t seem to like that very much.

“Sesshomaru I am fine, you know what you’re doing, I’m sore, but in a good way.”  I smiled at him and kissed his nose.  He looked at me with love in his eyes.

“How did I manage to get you?”

“I don’t know, but I think fate got something right.”

His reaction was to role us over and to kiss me.  It slightly hurt when we rolled over, but I was fine, it was a good pain.  We continued to make out, and then it turned into something more.  Soon we heard someone enter my home.  He stopped mid thrust, and growled.  I tried to focus on who was in my home, although it was a bit difficult since I was a bit distracted.  Sesshomaru was pissed, so I spoke, while I rubbed his back and shoulders. 

“Inuyasha could you come back another time?”  I called to him.

“Um yeah, is everything okay?”

“Great, now leave.”  Sesshomaru had started to continue what we were doing before Inuyasha showed up. 

“Rin?”

“She said leave.”  Sesshomaru growled out.

“Oh, oh, um yeah you got it, leaving!?”  He yelled back as he left.  He figured it out.

“Sess-Sesshomaru.”  I held onto him, as he continued.  He captured my lips with his own, and I lost sense of reality. 

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Okay so I would like to thank all of you that read this story, and thank you for voting and commenting.  I would also like to apologize in advance.  I am not sure how often I will be able to update this story or any of my other stories.  School and work guys, so I am sorry.  I will try though, becuase I love writing this story and my others, I also love hearing/seeing, what you guys have to say.  So thank you, and agian I am sorry.

Please let me know what you all think about this chapter and the one before it.  How are Lord Sesshomaru's POV?  What do you think of their conversations?  What do you think Sesshomaru will decide?  What do you think will happen between Sesshomaru and Rin?  Will they fight?  Will they die?  If somone is to end, who will it be?  Do you think that Rin really does want a child, but won't admit to it?  What do you think that they should do? 

I need to know these things.