Chapter 19

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Warning:  This chapter is Rated:R

There is Mature content in this chapter, you have been warned.

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Recap:

Rin's POV

Once we were both dried off, Sesshomaru started a fire, and I fed blaze an apple as I went to get my bow and arrows to get dinner.  I decided to go search for rabbit.  Finding one quickly and ending its life quickly so that it would feel no pain.  I skinned it and then brought it over to the fire.  While letting the rabbit cook I sat across from Sesshomaru.  Old memories started to come to the surface and I couldn’t resist the words leaving my lips. 

“Is it different now, I mean, I can catch my own dinner now, instead of you catching it for me.  Did it ever annoy you?”

He seemed to think about it for a while, before answering.  “No, you needed food, there for I did what was necessary for your survival.”

“So formal.”  I smiled and turned the rabbit.  “I used to stay up at night sometimes, remembering the old days.  You were always looking out for me, only now I understand why.”

He sighed and then just turned his head to look at me.  “You are no longer a child, I can see that now.”

“I tried to tell you, but you didn’t want to listen, did you?  Sometimes I do miss being a kid though.”  I let out a sigh and then shook my head when unwanted memories wanted to become noticed.  I turned the rabbit again.  “Thank you.”  He looked at me questionably.  “For saving me over and over again.”

He nodded and I removed the rabbit.  I ate quickly, then we left to continue for a few more hours. 

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I decided to give Blaze a rest, so I walked along side Sesshomaru.  Old memories once again came back, only this time it was only the two of us together.  No longer being a child had its perks I guess.  I took a side glance at Sesshomaru.  He had his normal emotionless expression on his face.  He was listening and focusing on his surroundings I know that now.  That’s how he is always prepared and ready for anything, he keeps his guard up.  One day I will hope to knock that wall of his down completely.  One day, one day I will succeed.  One day he will realize that it is okay to loosen up a bit. 

Sesshomaru came to an abrupt stop all of a sudden, and I reached behind, on my lower back, for my two daggers.  Pulling them out and getting ready for a fight.  Sesshomaru glanced at me and I the same.  Soon we were surrounded by bandits.  They all had grins on their faces.  The leader I am guessing spoke.  “My my what do we have here, a demon and a mortal woman.  Well demon it seems that you seem to have a good taste, I hope you won’t mind if I have a go with her.”

“Good luck with that, Your gonna have to fight for it buddy.”  I told him with as much venom in my voice that I could.

“I like that in a woman, lots of fight in her.” He signaled for his men to take me.  I don’t think so boys.  I threw one of my daggers hitting one man in the eye, and then turning on my heel at the last second and slitting the other mans throat.  Taking one of their swords.  I cut through the men like they were butt even with this dull blade.  They were so easy, Sesshomaru didn’t even have to make a move, until a few decided to go after him, and one had me in his grasp.  I head budded him and was able to stab him in the gut.  I looked at Sesshomaru and nodded my head in a thank you for being a distraction.  I ran for the boss.  He came at me like he owned me already.  I don’t think so.  Our blades clashed together.  “I belong to no one.”

“I will have to break that spirit of yours girl.”

“Oh really now, I don’t think that you will be able to, but good luck at trying.”

“I will have my way with you.”

“Or, you could die.”

“Why you little.”

I dropped to the ground and took his feet out from under him, climbing on top of him pinning him to the ground. 

“How about that I have my way with you instead.”  I said seductively.  He grinned and seemed pleased.  I started to remove his clothing.  Then hitting him in the head a few times with a rock that was near by, I bashed his head in.  Thinking it was only a few hits, I think it was more, because I couldn’t stop.  Blood splattered onto my face and cloths but I didn’t care, I had to kill him, he didn’t deserve to live in this world.  Who know how many women and children he has hurt.  Who know how many more would be next if I didn’t end it.  I felt hand on my arms and they pulled me away with ease.  Although I fought agains t them.  “They all have to die, I will kill them all, all of them, he will pay, he will suffer.  He will know pain!”

I hadn’t realized that I was shouting, until Sesshomaru shook me.  I finally looked up into his eyes, he actually seemed a little worried about me, or rather what just happened to me.  I collected my self and yanked my self out of his grasp.  “I’m fine.”

“Is that what you call that?”

I didn’t look at what I had done, because I have seen it before, I know what I did now.

“I. Will. Kill. Him.”

We walked in complete silence after that, no glances were made.  I never looked back at him, but I could feel him glaring daggers into my back.  I knew that he wanted to know what that was back there, but I didn’t want to tell.  He will soon realize that I am full of secrets.  More secrets than he may think.  Some secrets that could put the Great Lord Sesshomaru in danger.  While walking there was a small stream and I decided to try to get this blood off of me.  Sesshomaru stopped and stood by a tree so that he would not be able to see me.  I stripped quickly washed the blood out of my clothing and then my hair, and off of my body.  I put on a new set of cloths, this time it being more of skin tight clothing, showing off more of my body.  In which I wore to attracted the males to get them to come to me and then for me to get answers out of them.  It also had more hididng places for my daggers which I loved.  I walked out to where Sesshomaru could see me, and I swear that his eyes widened for a split second.  I smirked and then continued down the path that we had been taking.  That felt good.  I actually injoy the thrill of it.  Why?  What is wrong with me?  Am I crazy?  Am I going insane?  Will I ever be okay?  Will the voices ever go away?  Will they ever leave me be?  Will they continue to haunt me?  Why me?  The sun began to set, when we reached the hot springs.  My muscles were tensing up and I really needed to relax.  I stripped of my clothing and stepped into the hot spring.  I could feel my body relax, it felt so good, and all of my worries were just whispers.  I was covered by the water and I turned to look at Sesshomaru.  “Hey, you grumpy old dog, why don’t you come join me in here?”

His response was to stripping of his clothing too.  I thought it would be polite if I gave him his privacy, so turned around.  Why did I say that, we are both naked in the hot springs, why didn’t I keep my mouth shut?  Me and my big mouth.  Why Rin?  Why?  My heart rate and breathing picked up, I was nervous and I knew that her knew because of his stupid hearing.  Damn those ears of his. 

I know that I am his mate and everything now, but does that mean that he will take me right here and now if he wanted or would he wait until I was ready, although I think I would let him have his way with me now, if he wanted.  Oh yes definitely a possibility that I would let him do whatever it is that he wished to do with me.  His hand were on my shoulders, gently barely touching me.  His hands ran down my arms and then to my hips.  I froze, my mind no longer knowing what to do.  My body tensing back up.  I could hear my own heart beat in my ears, that is all I could hear now.  The sounds of the life at night disappearing around me.  It was just Sesshomaru and I now.  My breath was caught in my throat.  I could feel him behind me.  His bare chest touching my back.  Our bodies touching each other. 

If he did take me it would hurt, a lot.  I am so going to die.  Man why did I do this?  I could feel his hot breath on my neck and ear.  “Relax Rin.”

I have to respond some how, I am not weak, I am strong.  Come on Rin, play your game.  You can have him melt into your hands.  Or maybe the other way around.  Rin you have to say something.  I gulped “Yeah, easy for you to say.”

“I will not harm you.”

“Sure you won’t, not intentionally any way.”

“Is that what you fear?”

“If it is?”

“I will have to help you overcome that fear.”

“Yeah, good luck with that.”

“Rin.”

One of his hands rose out of the water and he turned my face to the side and up so that I could look at him.  “Relax Rin.”  His lips met mine, and he was so gentle, he has never kissed me this way before.  He lingered over my lips for a moment before pulling back and looking at me.  Like he could really see me, and I could really see him.  My breathing, if possible, picked up even more.  He kissed me again and again, until I finally started to relax.  My body giving in, along with my mind.  I started to lean back against him.  My right hand grabbing onto his right arm that was around my waist now, and my left hand found its way to the back of his neck.  His hold on my tightened, and I could feel his friend more now.  He nibbled on my bottom lip asking for entrance which he was granted.  Without breaking the kiss I turned in his arms to face him.  His left hand that was cupping my face went to my waist and my hand went to his shoulders.  His strong shoulders.  I ran my hands down his arms and then back up again.  I pressed myself to him, hearing him growl.  I smiled into the kiss, and eventually I had to pull away to breathe.  His lips moved to my neck and my head tilted back, a moan escaping me.  Which only caused him to growl once more.  His arms tightened even more around my body, pulling my body closer to him.  My hands slid down his chest, my nails digging into his skin, causing him to hiss.  He pulled away slightly, our noses touching.  It was as if he was looking into my soul and I his.  His guard was almost gone.  I had to get that guard down.  I had to break that wall.  I took his face in my hands and kissed him hard, and then pulled back just enough to look into his eyes.  “I love you.”  I was thinking that it would come out in a whisper, or breathless, but it came out strong, and powerful. 

I waited for a response all he did was look at me.  His eyes were searching for something.  He took my face in his hands, “As I love you, my love.”  He kissed me with so much passion and love.  I could barely contain myself.  I want him.  I want him to claim me.  I don’t care anymore.  I need him.  His hands went back to my waist, I pressed my body closer to his as much as I could.  My hands going back to his shoulders.  “Sesshomaru?”

His hands moved to my hips and I jumped up, my legs wrapping around him.  My back hit a boulder, and I screamed.  Everything became a blur after that.  I no longer had control of my body. 

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