Cammie : 33

this is me. i'm a full blown criminal. i can't escape this. i'm going to jail for this. i think as i walk my way to starbucks adrenaline still rushing through my veins.

i walk through the doors and i am immediately met with a warm hot chocolate and a sad smile from shannon, "how did it go?" she asked with a crack in her voice. "i don't know what i've done shan. i've really fucked up and it's all my fault. i wish i could turn back time and fix this all. i'm so so sorry." i pleas trying to justify what i have done to myself and shannon. "i think i wanna go home cam." she tears up. "but...b...but this is home shannon, here. you and me, we are home." what the fuck i done. "cammie we hardly know each other," the lump in my throat comes back, "i want to go home and see my dad. i want to go home and play baseball. i wanna go home" tears roll down shannon's face but her expression doesn't change. it looks like the blue of her eyes are leaking out as she cries and it's killing me. "it's my fault isn't it. i knew i should never have forced you into anything. into my life. you were doing so well baby." i just said baby, could i make this any worse for myself. "this isn't your fault. i just need a break from you. from us." she pauses. "i'm getting the first flight tomorrow morning. i'll come back. i promise." and with that she gets up and walks to the door. she turns around one last time before she leaves and says "call me baby."

i leave my hot chocolate in starbucks and run out the door. my eyes so full of tears i can't see anything. i run and run and run until i can't see anything but the sunset and the dusty road. i collapse and cry until no more tears come out. i feel my body on the sun heated floor as the stars come into the clear night sky. my body feels empty. i lay there for what feels like hours until my phone buzzes. i scramble to find my phone praying it is shannon's name that lights up my screen. but instead it was my mum.

mum: where are you?! you've been gone for hours i've been worried sick. me: sorry, can you come and take me back to the station?

a few hours later.

i didn't get charged. they said it was self defence but i need to be careful as next time i might not be so lucky... i type a text out to shannon but i delete it and go to sleep.

A/N I AM SO SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME I FORGOT ABOUT WATTPAD