Chapter 29

“No remorse whatsoever?” 

“They’re the ones to feel that. I kill behind an objective. I told you, I ran background checks. I’m not a chained dog to command just as people wish.” 

“And.. my aunt was qualified for her own objective?” 

“It was a hard choice, she was asking for mercy.” 

I shut my eyes, getting my heart to soften, thinking at what point made her decide her own fate.

“I wish she would’ve talked to me..” I whispered under my breath.

“She would’ve known you’ll carry a heavier pain than not knowing. Rest assured she’s resting.” 

“How would you know that..” 

“I killed her the fastest way, like putting her to eternal sleep.” 

She was found dead in her sleep with a headshot, the bullet exited on the back of her head clean.

So he really did put her to sleep..

It somehow gave me closure knowing he was thoughtful enough to decide for her.

I turned around to face him and he wiped the tear stain on the side of my eye.

“Thank you, then..” 

He just nodded and pulled my head to give me a hug.

–

I woke up without him.

I checked the clock and I overslept again.. it’s already lunch time.

I sighed remembering the conversation last night. He’s not so bad after all.

Five minutes of me just sitting on the bed, thinking.

–

I opened the fridge to get some milk when Jen appeared behind me.

“Ma’am, should I reheat the food?” 

“Maybe later, Jen, I’m still not hungry.” I then looked around, it’s quiet.

“They didn’t train today..” Jen spoke.

“Hm? Why?” 

“He was just sitting inside the car ever since this morning ma’am, he looks bothered about something.”

I looked quite shocked, him? Bothered? Since when? I thanked Jen and went to the garage.

Could it be about last night that he starts to contemplate life? Or worse, just spiral down to depression as his guilt gets him?

I sat inside the passenger seat and he’s just quiet beside me.

“Uhm.. you okay?”

He just nodded a little. “Is it about last night?” I asked. I never knew his silence could bother me again.

“I saw the pregnancy test..” uh..

I got confused, “O..kay? What about it?” 

He didn’t talk again. I pucker my lips not knowing what more to say.

“Is this.. about the wanting-to-get-me-pregnant thing?”

He finally looked at me, confirming my thought.

I am just speechless..

“Well, see.. What we have is just.. fun sex, there’s nothing more to it. Marriage? Family? Kids? I still don’t see it for myself.” 

“I see it..” he really looks gloomy about it..

I sighed internally. “I’m sorry, Jungkook. There’s other wom-”

“Stop.” 

I immediately zipped my mouth.

“You keep suggesting things I could freely do on my own without you saying it.” I kept quiet.

“What do you want me to do then.. I can’t bend everything for you, Jungkook. We aren’t a couple, more so, married? Child-bearing is a whole nother thing.”

He didn’t talk..

“Just why get me pregnant right away? You don’t plan to maybe be my boyfriend first? Then possibly be my husband? Then we can maybe talk about bringing a child to this earth.” 

“I keep telling you I like you, you wouldn’t say it back, how else would I mark you as mine if not get you pregnant?” He smirked weakly, sadness still in his eyes.

Wow.. I don’t know if I’d like what I just heard because he likes me that much or be annoyed by him.

He leaned his head on the head rest and my eyes stared at his Adam's apple.

“It wasn’t in me either..”

“What wasn’t?” 

“Have a family. But one look at you felt like it’s right to stay by you.” 

“You meant spy on me?” I tried to joke about it.

He chuckled a little, “yeah, it wasn’t enough to see you on just a screen so I somehow followed you sometimes, just to look at you and see if my desire dissipates.” 

W-Wait he really stalked me?? 

“And it didn’t??” I got weirded out that I look attractive to him.

“I’m here, aren’t I?” He chuckled softly.

I just laid back in my seat as well. What do I do then..

We were quiet for a while, it’s a good kind of quiet.

I looked at him and saw that his eyes were closed.

I got up and sat on his lap, making him look at me. His arms automatically wrap around my waist.

I kept staring at his face and he did the same to me.

“I can’t.. not think of who you are..” I confessed.

“I know, cupcake.” 

The way that he doesn’t try to change my mind on him made me kiss him out of nowhere.

He held my nape and we kissed like it’s the last.

We stopped for a while, panting as I leaned my forehead to his.

“This.. doesn’t mean.. anything..” I said, high of dopamine.

“Of course, cupcake.” He smiled at me.

I fixed myself and sat more properly on him before laying on his body, my head resting on his shoulder.

He hugged me tight and we kept quiet again.

“How many women have you had your whole life..” I got curious randomly.

“I guess two? I was way younger back then.”

“No, I meant as a girlfriend.” 

“Two.” 

“Oh.”

“You, cupcake?” He already chuckled.

“Never had a committed relationship, just fuck buddies.” 

“I know.” He said, amused.

“But now that you got older, how many women have you touched?”

“I told you, I didn’t have time for that, I was too busy.. hunting.” 

“Seriously?” 

“Why do you think I fuck you like crazy?” He laughed.

I got red, hearing that. 

“I find it hard to believe you, you move like an expert.” 

He laughed and I felt his chest move with it.

“Are you saying I’m good at sex?” 

“No way.. I’m just saying you never run out of ideas on things..” Damn it, I didn’t want to boost his ego.