Chapter 2 (solicitude)

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"Look, I really don't want to go."Remus was sitting on his bed, head in hands.

"Moony, you look terrible. Maybe you should go tell Madam Pomfrey. I have never seen you in such state," said Peter, who was impatiently standing by the door, ready to leave for dinner.

Remus shook his head stubbornly.

"Hey, I'll stay with him. He looks like he's going to faint any moment," said Sirius and went to sit beside his trembling friend. Remus pretended to give him a disapproving look.

James stepped forward. "We'll all stay..."

"No," Sirius said, "he needs to eat something. You go and bring him a few sandwiches, or a piece of cake. And take Wormtail with you, he looks like he's going to get serious withdrawal symptoms if he doesn't eat at least fifty sweet dumplings immediately."

Peter curled his lip huffily. James sighed.  "Fine, but don't get used to the delivery service, Padfoot, next time you're going with us." They turned around, walked out of the room, and left the two boys alone.

"We need to talk," said Remus.

"Okay."

"Look, this situation... what happened was crazy and if you don't want to..."

"I had to wank," Sirius blurted out.

"Wha..."

"In the morning, when Prongs and Wormtail interrupted us. When I was in the bathroom. You made me so horny I had to go wanking, thinking about you," Sirius said in a casual tone.

"Oh," Remus said breathlessly, gazing at the boy sitting next to him. He wanted to reach out and run his fingers through Sirius's long raven hair. He didn't. "I don't understand. How can you, Sirius Black, the infamous ladies' man, the reincarnation of Adonis, want this?" And he stabbed his finger in the middle of his chest. "You know what I am. And you know how it affects... my body. I look..."

"Stop," said Sirius with an endearing little grin. "Moony, you hold more attraction for me than any of the girls I've been with. I can't believe I haven't noticed that before. I guess I've never considered anything else but friendship between us... however, now I want you. And when it comes to the scars you're so insecure about, I find them quite sexy actually. Maybe I'm just weird,"  he shrugged and leaned closer to kiss the werewolf's cheek.

Remus just stared at him for a moment, then he spoke. "But... this will ruin our friendship..."

"Who cares? Let's be lovers instead," Sirius said quietly, staring into the amber eyes.

"So you would try it out with me?" Remus's voice was barely a whisper.

"I'd love to."

Remus could feel a hand sliding up his thigh, sending shivers down his spine, and then, all of a sudden, he was lying on his back, Sirius's warm chest pressed against his. "No, Sirius!" he shivered uncomfortably.The bigger boy giggled playfully, wrapped his arms around Remus, and buried his face into his chest, inhaling the fresh scent of his body. "I know - it's too close. I just want to hold you."

Remus smiled and ran his fingers through the silken jet black hair that spilt across his chest and shoulder. It was so soft and smooth.  "I can't believe it. After all those years... I've finally got you."

"Why didn't you say anything? About liking me," Sirius mumbled against the other boy's chest.

Remus laughed without humour. "What would I say? Waking up, after having a wet dream about you, turning my head to the side to face you, the most beautiful man I've ever seen in my entire life, and say: Hey, did you know I came in your mouth last night?"

Sirius lifted his head, glanced at his new boyfriend, and grinned "Is that what you're dreaming about?"

Remus's cheeks turned deep crimson. It was an odd contrast to the ill pallor of the rest of his skin. He looked away, too embarrassed by his own honesty to hold the gaze, and nodded slowly. He wanted Sirius to know about his fantasies but at the same time, he wished he kept his mouth shut.

"That blush on your cheeks is lovely," Sirius said and leaned in to kiss the flushed face. "I could make your dreams come true," he said, rubbing his hand over Remus's groin.

"Not tonight."

"I knew you'd say that. I had to try it though," Sirius chuckled, taking his hand away. "Can I kiss you?"

What an odd question to ask.

"Sure you can," and Remus brought his lips to the other boy's mouth, keeping his hand tangled in his long hair. Soon he could feel Sirius pressing his rock hard erection against his thigh as if he were humping his leg like a dog, seeking friction and the release he needed so desperately. Remus wanted to touch, stroke, and squeeze him. He wanted to pleasure him... at least him if not himself. He gained courage and his hand slid under the thin fabric of Sirius's underwear and gave his cock a light squeeze.

Sirius stiffened in surprise. "I thought..."

"I think I can handle this. Only if you want me to, of course," Remus murmured.

"Hell yeah!" Sirius grinned eagerly and zipped his fly open for Remus who pulled out his hard cock and looked at it. So many times he dreamed about touching it, feeling the velvety length in his hand.It wasn't too big.   Just the right size -he thought- To fit in my hand, my mouth, my... It was very nice, smooth and pink, with the slightest curve upwards. It was the first time he'd seen it erect and he liked it. Even his mouth started to water. His fingers caressed it from base to tip, where they lingered. After the short teasing, he stopped playing around and got to the point. The long firm strokes of his hand made Sirius hum approvingly. The boys rolled to the side so Remus was now on top of Sirius.

Maybe it was because a boy was doing it, knowing how to pleasure another man. Maybe it was the sight of Remus's flushed cheeks, kiss-swollen lips, ruffled hair, or eyes dark with a desire that made Sirius drip precum and swirl in pleasure. It was strangely exciting to feel a firm manly grip around his member, instead of tentative girl strokes. It was his first time with a bloke.

"Cum for me..." Remus whispered, kissing Sirius's neck.

Those words sent him over the edge. He yanked on the bedsheets and let his head fall back as the waves of pleasure washed through him. Remus's lips found him again and gave him several small sweet pecks. He groaned as he looked down to see his belly smeared with his own cum, but Remus just smiled and waved his wand. "Tergeo," he said and Sirius was as clean as before. All traces gone. "Thanks," he smiled, rolled on top of Remus and kissed him all over his face playfully, making him giggle. The sweet little kisses were tickling him. Remus felt so much affection pouring from his mate that only then he finally realised he was his and no one else's. "Did you like it?" he asked.

"Merlin's socks... if I liked it? It felt absolutely amazing. 'Didn't know you were so practised," Sirius chuckled and kissed the pale boy again.

"Emmm... I'm not. I have never been with anyone, actually."

"In that case, you're a natural, which is even better," Sirius said the words as casually as if they were discussing the weather or national depth.

Remus shook his head and rolled his eyes, smiling. He was really just doing what he liked himself. And the fact that Sirius liked it as well, though it wasn't unexpected, made him feel a strange comforting connection between them, that despite the fact he had compared Sirius to Michelangelo's David, distant perfection he thought he'd never be able to reach, he was just a human being with a human body, feelings, and urges. It made Remus relax and melt into the embrace, just two boys lying on a bed together.

"Next time it's my turn to please you,"

"Okay," said Remus in a shaky voice, smiling shyly. Sirius gave him a gentle punch and grinned. They rolled on the side and caressed each other. Remus slid his hand down the black-haired boy's back, resting it against his round buttock, giving it a light squeeze. Get a grip!-he reprehended himself and moved the hand back to the long black silken hair.

"Mmmm... I like when you do that," Sirius murmured and closed his eyes, enjoying the sensation of gentle fingers rubbing his scalp.

"We should stop. They're gonna be back any minute," Remus noted, pulling away, and sat up.

"Aaah... come on... stroke me a little longer..." Sirius complained but Remus shook his head.

"Why not?"

"It's getting harder to stay calm when we do that," he explained.

"Hmmm... and what about this?" Sirius said and made a really focused grimace. Instead of tall handsome Sirius, there was now a big black furry bear-like dog, comically tilting his head to the side. He licked Remus's cheek and poked his hand with his paw.

Remus laughed. "You always find a way around, don't you, Padfoot?" Grinning, he leaned against the wooden headboard of his bed and let the dog rest his fluffy head in his lap, scratching and caressing the animagus behind his ears. "This is utterly absurd," he snickered when the dog licked his face affectionately, making him laugh.

They sat there for another minute or two when James and Peter returned with some food.

"Fighting fire with fire, Moony? Looks like petting a furry little dog helps with your furry little problem," James sneered, noticing the colour in his friend's face, though there was a completely different reason behind it than he thought.

The unintentional double-meaning of his words made the dog let out a happy bark which faded into laughter as he turned back to his human form.

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The next day all the boys stayed with Remus, playing exploding snap, laughing all over Gryffindor common room. In the evening, they snuck out under James's cloak right into the shrieking shack.

Remus took off his clothes, pulled a ragged blanket around his shoulders, sat on the floor, and waited, feeling weaker and weaker every minute.

"I'm sorry you're feeling so fucked up, but I can't wait till you change! This is gonna be a great night..."

"Prongs!" Sirius scolded his friend, rubbing Remus's back. He really did look terrible. James stopped talking and apologized.

"I'm fine," Remus said quietly, "I think you should change now, it's almost time."

Sirius nodded and stepped away. The three friends turned into a dog, a rat, and a stag.

Remus felt a strong urge to pant, to get more air in his lungs. The pain hit him soon after. His limbs were lengthening and all he could feel was sharp stabbing and burning as if he was being stretched and mangled. All his bones were breaking and healing, including his skull. He could swear his head was being ripped apart and dipped in acid. His joints shifted, forming paws and canine legs. He couldn't do anything but whine and wish for it to stop.

Then he lost himself.

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"Moony... Moony!" It was Sirius's voice he heard.

"Mmmmm...?"

"Wake up, it's over."

"Yeah, you were quite rough this time. Absolutely amazing," James informed with delight, but his face looked concerned.

"What did I...?" Remus asked hoarsely, his clouded memories were clearing up slowly. All he could recall were just flashes of a green dark forest.

"Well... you found some human outside, so Sirius had to take you down. But don't worry, you didn't do anything. No one got hurt," James explained.

"Except for him," said Peter, unhappy with the whole situation.

It was the words that made Remus realize he was lying on the ground, naked, sore, and exhausted. And bleeding.

"I'm sorry, Moony, I didn't mean to hurt you... You would be upset if we let you kill someone,  and you wouldn't stop fighting," Sirius said softly. His hands were hovering above Remus's body, trying to figure out where to touch him without causing him unnecessary pain.

"Thank you," Remus mumbled, with a weak attempt to smile. Sirius chuckled, but his face wasn't amused whatsoever.

"We should take you to Madam Pomfrey now," James decided, pulling his friend on his feet, unsuccessfully. They had to half-drag-half-carry him to the castle.

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Madam Pomfrey didn't let the boys stay, she said Remus needed rest and kicked his protesting friends out. As he lay there he suddenly felt fingers creeping up his hand. He flinched.Someone whispered. "Shhh... It's me. Prongs lent me the cloak."

"Sirius..."

"Shhh... look Moony, I'm so sorry I hurt you... I shouldn't have bitten you so much."

"I said it's okay. You've probably saved someone's life.." Remus barely whispered, he was so tired and sore.

"Alright, alright. Sleep now, please," Sirius said softly and pressed his lips gently against his boyfriend's forehead, holding his hand, stroking it with his thumb. It was so soothing, the young werewolf fell asleep in a minute, smiling contentedly.

｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.——4 days later—-

Remus was in his dorm, madam Pomfrey finally let him leave the hospital wing. Dressed in his red bathrobe, he was looking for a towel. He desperately needed a shower. Once he finally found it, two arms wrapped around him.

"Moony! You're back!" Sirius exclaimed, rubbing his face against his boyfriend's nape. Remus gasped in shock. "Did I scare you?" Sirius giggled innocently.

"Don't do that again..." Remus grumbled, turning around. Sirius kissed his cheek. "Prongs and Wormtail aren't coming here this evening," he said.

Remus raised an eyebrow.

"Detention," Sirius explained.

"How did that happen? That Sirius Black has a free evening while his two partners in crime got detention?"

"Easily. McGonagall didn't catch me," he said proudly.

"Good. I was starting to worry you didn't break any rules today," Remus said sarcastically.

"Please..." Sirius smirked. "So... I know I hurt you in that forest and I was thinking if I could make it up for you," he whispered seductively, rubbing Remus's hips gently with his hands.

Remus rolled his eyes, "You don't have to..." but was interrupted when Sirius suddenly kissed him. "I know I don't have to, but I want to," he smiled and pushed his confused boyfriend onto the bed, straddling him.

"Sirius! Not now, I wanted to take a shower..."

"A shower? Hmmmm... sounds interesting," he said, sucking on the other boy's earlobe. "No! " Remus protested, it was difficult to concentrate when the hottest boy in the world was sitting in his lap, kissing his neck, and rubbing his scalp with his fingers. 

Sirius sensed his struggles and smiled. "Are you sure you want me to stop?" he whispered, hot breath fanning against the other boy's cheek. Remus shuddered with pleasure and anticipation. "Look... If you let me have a shower on my own, I'll let you play a little," Remus just couldn't deny Sirius anything, he was too irresistible, and the warmth of the strong smooth thighs heating his lap... in fact, he wanted to turn him around, yank his pants off and fuck the cocky little tease through the floor.

"Hmmm... okay," Sirius said happily and hopped off the staggered boy. "But hurry up, I hate waiting."

Remus was surprised that Sirius gave in so easily, but stood up quickly, grabbed his clothes and the towel he'd found, and scurried toward the bathroom.

Once he was standing under a stream of hot water, his whole body relaxed. He watched the dried blood from the wounds madam Pomfrey healed with her spells and which covered his chest and thighs, wash away. Then he let the water run over his face, calming his system.

When he was finished, and his body was clean again, he walked out of the shower, wrapping himself in his towel.

Once he was properly dressed, he walked back to the dorm.

Sirius was shirtless, waiting for him. When he saw his boyfriend with flushed cheeks and wet hair, he stood up and reached for him. "Can I touch you?" Sirius breathed."Yes." Their bodies collided and Sirius's lips attacked the hot skin on the other boy's neck. His hand knotted into the wet brown hair and pulled down, making Remus tilt his head back. "You're so hot with the wet messy hair..." he groaned.

Remus shivered, Sirius's hot breath on his skin and the hard arousal rubbing against his own made him speechless.

Sirius almost threw him onto his bed, pinning him to the mattress, straddling him. He leaned closer and caressed the sides of his face, kissing him gently. Remus melted against his lips, feeling more aroused than ever. He parted his lips willingly and let the raven-haired boy explore his mouth until he pulled away. "I've wanted to do this so bad...," Sirius murmured, running his thumb over his lover's cheek. He went down, settling between Remus's spread legs, unbuttoning his trousers.

"What do you want to..."

"Shhhh! This is my time to play, your time to enjoy. Be a good boy, lay back, and relax." As Sirius said the words, Remus's hard cock was already in his hand. It was a little bit bigger than his own and perfectly straight. Without further ado, he tightened his grip around the smooth length and started to move his hand in firm strokes. He kept it slow and watched Remus moan desperately while stroking the boy's belly through the fabric of his shirt, damp from the shower steam.

"Feels good?" He murmured, slowing down even more. "Padfoot... " Remus groaned, squirming. His hips bucked forward. "Am I torturing you?" Sirius asked with a devilish grin."Yesss... " Remus hissed, trying to move his hips to speed up the process, but Sirius held him down firmly. "Moony..." he whispered, "look at me."

Remus forced his eyes open and looked down. Once their eyes met, Sirius licked his throbbing cock from base to tip. Remus swore, but couldn't get his lust-filled eyes of the beautiful boy licking him. Sirius decided to stop the slow torture and took him into his warm mouth. His tongue licked enthusiastically at the precum-leaking slit, making Remus moan and almost tear the bedsheets under them as he grabbed on the neatly tucked fabric. Sirius's hand stroked the length he couldn't fit in his willing mouth while the other hand played with the boy's balls. He sucked hard on the tip and moved his head up and down, sliding his lips over the ready-to-burst cock. It didn't take long for Remus to finish in his boyfriend's mouth, just like in his dreams and fantasies.

Sirius swallowed and licked him clean gently, then crawled to Remus's side, kissing his cheek. "Did you like that?"

Remus smiled, still breathing heavily, and kissed his lover, tasting himself on his lips. His hand travelled down Sirius's bare chest, around his waist, up his back, into his hair. Sirius purred contently and buried his face into the crook between Remus's neck and shoulder. Remus giggled and embraced his cuddly boyfriend, holding him tight. "I want to do that to you," he whispered.

Sirius lifted his head. "This was supposed to be a redress," he said.

Remus reached out and squeezed the other boy's hard-on. Sirius didn't flinch or move at all, just glanced at the hand squeezing him and then back to Remus. "Okay then," he smiled slyly and rolled onto his back, unzipping his trousers. He wanted to pull his cock out but Remus slapped his hand. "Don't touch," he said in low voice. Sirius grinned, even more, he liked to play games. "Yes, sir," he teased.

Remus moved slowly to settle between the other boy's spread legs. He leaned in and started to kiss and lick his way from Sirius's neck down to his belly. He didn't leave the pink nipples untouched. While he licked them, Sirius stroked his honey-brown hair, urging him to continue. Remus obeyed and once his lips stopped at the edge of his boxers, he looked up insecurely "May I...?"Sirius was biting his lip, gazing down at him with dark eyes. His hand caressed Remus's hair once again and pushed his head down gently. "Yes, please..."

Remus gave him a dirty look and pulled his boxers off and touched the animagus's leaking cock, which jumped in response. He smiled indulgently and watched Sirius squirm in need. "Moony..." he almost glowered, his fingers tightening in Remus's hair.

When Remus dragged a finger through the pre-come that had pooled at the tip and took his hand away, Sirius almost whined in frustration. He was about to shout at the boy to stop fucking around and suck him already when suddenly Remus took his cock into his mouth and did exactly that. The animagus opened his mouth to scream in pleasure but the sound got stuck in his throat.

Remus's head started to move up and down, tongue swirling enthusiastically around the smooth member. He was excited to have him in his mouth, to taste him like this.

Sirius's hips jerked violently, and he felt the boy gag. He caressed his brown curls in apology, and Remus's response was to hollow out his cheeks and take him even deeper.

"Mmmm... Moony, play with those balls, I like them warm," he whispered huskily. His eager lover did what was requested. It didn't take long to finish him. He swallowed and licked around, making sure he got all of it.

"Bloody hell..." Sirius breathed when Remus snuggled against his chest.

"Okay?" he asked.

"Very okay!" the black-haired boy laughed. "Was that really the first time you did that?"

"Yes," Remus blushed, but Sirius didn't see it. He was breathing heavily, eyes closed, fiddling with his lover's brown curls. "It was my first as well. I mean... doing it to someone," he said.

"My first both doing and receiving," Remus said quietly.

"Well... I hope I didn't disappoint."

"Disappoint? I've been fantasizing about this for ages and I definitely didn't expect it to be this good," Remus said happily, burying his face in Sirius's long black hair, inhaling his scent. He wrapped his arms around the bigger boy with a contented sigh.

"Hmph... I almost killed you in that forest a few days ago. I thought you'd be mad or sad and this is what I get? I should attack you more often."

"You made it up for me quite well," Remus murmured and kissed the other boy's cheek.

Both boys laughed weakly. They were exhausted.