Chp 18

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{IRL}

"Theyve been in there for ages nick, im starting to feel bad. Should we let them out?" Matt says looking at his brother who was laying on the couch with finn who had recently come over to see what all the drama was about. 

"Fuck no. Im so sick of them not just confessing there love for eachother. Its so obvious bro" Nick says with an annoyed look on his face. 

"I completely agree. We know they would be a perfect couple" Lola chimes in. 

"Im not disagreeing, im just saying maybe its time to let them out" Matt says. 

Guilt had taken over the boy. He wanted the pair to get together as much as everyone else but It felt wrong to lock them in a room and refuse to let them out until they worked out there issues. 

"Can i go talk to Liv?" Seb questions. 

Nick looked between Lola and Matt before shrugging and standing up. 

"Yeah but we have to make sure that she actually goes back into the room if they havent made up" 

"Trust me she will" Seb says confidently. 

The other four were extremely confused but choose to trust Livs older brother. 

"Alright lets go then" 

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"You loved me? You love me?" 

Suddenly the door opens. Saved by the bell liv thinks to herself. 

"Yo liv, can i talk to you real quick" Seb says immediatly noticing the uncomftorable expression on her face.

"Can we finish our conversation liv?" Chris says desperatly. He needed to know if what she said was true. 

Without saying a word Liv walks out of the room and walks towards Lolas room to talk to seb. 

Seb gestures for his sister to take a seat as he prepares what he needs to say. 

"Whats up" the girl smiles, greatful to have been removed from that incredibly awkward situation with chris. 

"Okay, Liv I need you to promise me you wont speak until Im finished. Please just keep an open mind while I talk." Seb says.

"Okay?" the girl says slowly, incredibly confused. 

"Liv, I know you love Chris" 

The girl trys to interupt her brother before remembering her agreement with him. 

"Ive never seen you like this before, even when your angry or upset with him you look at chris with so much love in your eyes. The boys and lola have told me everything about your 'friendship' and how obvious it is that the two of you are head over heels in love with eachother. I know your terrified of commitment and It took alot out of you to start dating Jake, and especially after what he did to you multiple times. But liv, Chris is different and I know that you know that. Hes perfect for you, I dont understand why you cant admit it" 

"You want me to fucking admit it! Fine I love him okay. I love him so much that it physically hurts me Seb. You and everyone else just need to get over the fact that I can never be with him" Liv says angrily. 

This was her least favourite topic to talk about. 

"Why not liv for fuck sakes!" Seb yells. 

Hed had enough now. 

"Why not?! Because Hes my best fucking friend Sebastion. No matter how much we argue or fight hes always going to be my best friend. I dont want to be hurt again if things dont work out. If we broke up that would mean that I would loose Matt and Nick too. Maybe even Lola. And after he fucking started dating Ruby I dont think I had ever been so hurt in my life. The one goddamn person I trusted with my entire being stabbed me in the back. I refuse to allow myself to be hurt over and over again. Even being in an abusive realationship didnt hurt as much as realising I cant be with chris. So please seb, Im begging you. Leave it alone."

The girl let out a long breath, wiping the single tear off her face. 

Seb stood there just looking at liv. 

He took a seat next to the girl grabbing her hand and interlocking his fingers with her. 

He sighed before attempting to calm his sister down. 

"Liv, Please just listen to me. In the nicest way possible, get over yourself. Go and admit everything you just said to me to chris before you fuck it up. Once youve fucked up liv, its hard to regain everything you had." Seb says lightly, not wanting to upset the girl any more. 

Liv sat there quietly sobbing. She knew her brother was right. 

She knew Chris was the one for her. 

She knew she loved him more than she'd ever loved anyone before. 

She needed him to be hers. 

"Okay" She whispered. 

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Walking back into the basement Liv's heart was beating out of her chest. She was sure Chris could hear it but she needed to ignore it. 

Seb closed the door, without locking it this time. 

He was so sure that he had gotten through to Liv now. 

It was all up to her.

"Hi" she whispered to the boy who was standing in front of her. 

Chris didnt say anything to acknowledge liv, Just stood there staring at her. 

It all came down to what Liv said next. 

Liv took a shaky breath in before starting the long conversation that was about to begin. 

"Okay, Chris I need you to stay quite while I talk please. Just let me say everything before you speak. Can you do that for me?" Liv says anxiously. 

Chris nodded his head watching the girl infront of him. 

"Chris, from the moment I met you I knew there was something incredibly special about you. Without even thinking you helped a complete stranger, allowed me into your house, into your life. You saved me, and within days of meeting you I knew you were going to be a life long friend of mine. No one ever compared to you Chris. You took care of me, made me feel safe and loved. No one has ever done that for me apart from Lola. As we became closer, I started to realise I might of had feelings for you and that terrified me because I never wanted to loose you. I didnt want to be hurt again, loose you or your brothers, and basically everything that has ever been important to me. As time went on and we spent the holidays in Australia I think thats when I realised that my feelings werent nothing. I actually loved you. I still do. I mean I wrote a whole goddamn album about you chris. Thats not nothing. When I started to feel confident enough to tell you everything, I woke up the next day and you had a girlfriend. When she said hurtfull things to me, you didnt protect me like you usually do. I had never been so hurt chris and that scared the fuck out of me. You make me feel emotions a hundred times stronger. Love, hurt, Butterflies. Everything. I was so angry with you. But then you told me that you needed me and that you wanted a chance with me and I freaked out. I told you to get fucked because I was scared. Not because I didnt want you or because I didnt love you." 

The girl wasnt finished but she needed a minute to stop crying. 

Chris didnt give her a minute though. 

He took a step forward and softly pressed his lips to her. 

Chris was kissing liv. 

Liv was kissing Chris. 

Tears running down her face she moved her hand into Chris's hair gently playing with it. 

Chris had his hand cupping the girls cheek. 

The perefct kiss. 

Butterflies overwhelming the pair. 

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Writers notes. 

So yeah! 

Imma just pretend this is me and chris ✊