c a l m n e s s

Chloé POV___________

For the first time in my time in Hogwarts, I didn't want to wake up.

I didn't want to because everything seems so wrong these days. Draco is still laying and healing in his bed, wounded. The classes seem more and more boring every day, the sky is grey and rainy.

It's March, spring, I should be out on a walk with Draco or Luna, we should be happy and sad that the semester is almost over, I should wander around the castle with Fred and George. Nothing is right. This is not what I wanted when I came to Hogwarts.

I wish I could take back the time. But wouldn't things be the same? I'd still be the only Beauxbaton student here, the Dark Lord would still want to use me, no one else. The only thing I could possibly do is to stay in France and never some here, but then I'd never meet Draco. And that would be a sad, miserable hole in my life, never filled.

With every alternative, my life would still be like this. So I should stop worrying already and understand there's no way out of this. I have to do it and then, maybe, I can be with Draco like a real couple.

I stood up from the bed and made a few steps over to my desk. Snape told me to write to my parents and inform them about what I'm gonna do. I don't know how they'll take it, but I have to warn them. Although our house is far from Beauxbatons school, I don't know his plans. I don't want to put them in danger.

Mother,I'm writing to warn you and father about my future actions. I think you know what I'm talking about. Before you try to stop me, there are too many lives at risk, much more than just me. I have to do it and since I don't know the Dark Lord's plans, you should come to Hogwarts, where you'll be safe. Please come as soon as you can.Chloé

Then I gave the letter to my owl and she flew away with it.

It's finally Friday and I have only three classes today. I was a bit late for Charms, but I managed to come in silence and thank God, no one noticed. Then I had Potions, for which I was too early because I wanted to catch professor Snape, but he sent a younger student to tell us to go to class and wait for him there. I couldn't talk to him in front of other students, and after the class he stormed away so quick that I didn't catch him. Whatever. My last class was Herbology, one of my least favorites.

I'm glad I had Herbology though, I finally had the chance to walk in the fresh air. These past few days, I've been so busy with everything going on that I didn't even step my foot out of the castle.

As I was walking by the greenhouses, I saw someone familiar in front of me. I couldn't see who it is, though. I should really get some contact lenses, it can't go like this forever.

As the figure moved closer to me, I noticed he's wearing Hufflepuff habit and his hair is messy as always. It's Cedric.

"Hi!" I waved my hand and smile at him as he walked to me.

He said hi back and I asked him what's he doing here, but apparently, I didn't have to.

"Oh, I think I know." I giggled.

Cedric looks different. His face that usually had a nice glow with smile is now dull and I swear I saw a few wrinkles, too. Oh my god, what could happen to him?

"Have you used the one I gave you?" He asked me about my joint.

"No, I didn't have time..." and I won't have.

"Ced, what's going on with you?" I asked with a worried face.

He looked me in the eyes and then quickly looked down to the ground.

"I miss you." He mumbled.

Suddenly, I realized we were practically best friends for a while. We did some fun stuff together and at the time, he was the only person that was friends with me. After the ball, everything went to shits.

I know how he feels and the only thing I can do right know about it is to give him a hug. I wrapped my hands around his muscular body and placed my head on his chest, because his shoulder is too high for me. He put his head on my shoulder and when the strand of his hair met my skin, it shivered a little.

This could be my last hug with him. I feel like the day is coming and I can't stop thinking about things I'm doing for the last time. I don't mean that I'm gonna die, hopefully not. But if the war starts, who knows where I'll go.

I gently stroke his back with my palm and then let go of the hug.

"Cedric!?" Shouted a girl's voice behind us. We immediately turned to see who it is.

It's his friend, or girlfriend or whatever she is, she doesn't look very happy. Even her walk is angry, not mentioning the face.

"I should go. Thank you." I said and walked the other way back to the castle. I peaked through my shoulder to see if they're fighting. She was questioning him and...poor Ced's face looked so sad. I hope I didn't make him trouble.

I got to my corridor and knocked on Draco's door. I put my hand on the handle, but he was faster. Draco opened the door and took my body into his arms.

"You walk!" I screamed with a happy voice.

After he put me down back to the ground, I gently stroke his hair.

"How's my favorite patient doing?"

"Favorite? You've got others?" He giggled and sat on his bed.

"I'm happy you're walking, but I need you to rest, okay? Lay." I said and pushed him into his bed, he fell on his pillow and sighed.

"This is humiliating." He whined.

"What is?"

"You, taking care of me. It should be reversed..."

I pulled up his black tshirt to see how the wounds are doing. His pale skin is covered in scratches, but they're not so red anymore. Snape's elixir made wonders.

I sat on his lap with my legs spread wide to the sides. He provocatively smiled and pulled me closer to him.

"I have to take care of you." I giggled and took the elixir from the bedside table.

"I can think of many ways to take care of me..." he whispered into my ear and started kissing my neck. I smiled and put the elixir back.

"Don't you want to know how my day was?"

"No..." he kissed my cheek, "I'll ask you that later."

With that, he pulled my white sweater out of my body and threw it onto the floor. I'm not wearing any bra today, so I made it easier for him.

He smiled at my boobs and put his head in between them. I laughed and kissed him on his lips. They are soft as always. I helped him to untie his sweatpants because it's still painful for him. I pulled them to his knees and did the same with his underwear.

Because he couldn't undress me from the bottom, I had to do it myself. It was a little awkward, I tried to do it as fast as I could. When I was fully naked, I sat on his lap again and he placed his cold hands on my waist. I feel his eyes examining the every inch of my body, while smiling.

I leaned closer to him and locked our lips. This time, the kiss is passionate, almost inpatient. I know what he wants.

I grabbed his hard dick and jerked him off a little. He moaned into my mouth and that only turned me on even more, so I didn't wait. I put him inside me, I slid balls deep and arched my back in pleasure.

I don't want Draco to do much, because he's still ill, so I'm taking this into my control. Today, he's my toy.

I started riding him slowly to adjust myself to the size. Draco's hands are squeezing my hips, that got a little more curvier than they were when I came to Hogwarts. I'm constantly letting out moans into his mouth. He liked that.

I fastened the tempo, our breaths got heavier, the room got warmer.

"Chloé..." moaned Draco and grabbed my throat.

I pushed myself fast and deep down his dick, my tempo is too hard, I feel like I'm gonna collapse. I'm definitely a bottom, this is killing my thighs.

Draco pulled me closer to him by my throat and licked my lips, leaving wet saliva on them. I giggled and leaned over to his ear. As I ride harder, I'm letting out loud moans into his ear, he loves that.

"Fuck...I'm-" stuttered Draco and grabbed my boob.

I feel it coming.

My body got suddenly so warm, I feel I'm gonna explode any second now. I keep riding, but at the same time I'm collapsing and leaning on his chest.

Draco thrusted into me the last few times when I couldn't do anything more and moaned.

"I love you." We both said at the same time and giggled.

I helped him clean himself and when I got back from the bathroom, I found him crying in his bed.

"Draco, what is it?" I asked and laid next to him.

He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me closer.

"I don't wanna lose you." He sobbed.

I know what he's thinking about. This might have been our last sex.

Just like that, we both sobbed into our arms until I fell asleep.

Draco POV_____________

I didn't sleep. I didn't wanna waste so much time with sleeping when I can be with her.

Chloé's laying on my chest, her legs are wrapped around mine. I'm listening to her calm breath, I'm stroking her hair, I'm doing my very best to remember this moment in case...

In case it will never be the same.

It started raining around midnight. The moon is illuminating my room, shining exactly in Chloé's face. The heavy rain is pouring from the sky to my windowsills, making a loud sound.

My body still hurts bad, but I feel like I'm getting better. I didn't want Chloé to lose hope, so I tried to walk today. It only reminded me how weak I still am. I have no idea how I'm supposed to do the task when I can't even walk.

My mind is so busy right now. I'm thinking of every possibility, sometimes I glance at Chloé's chest if she's breathing. She is too young...me and Blaise are too young for this.

I should've told her about the letter from Lucius I got today. He's saying that the Dark Lord is very inpatient and it will most likely happen three days from now on. I should've told her, but I didn't want to. She seemed so happy from my walk, I finally saw a real smile on her face. I couldn't ruin it with this.

Oh, to be in the beginning of the 6th year again. To have no other problems but Pansy knowing about me and Chloé. Pansy. I don't even know how we ended. I think she understood it when I went to France, because she didn't speak to me since. I'm glad it's over, but at the same time, I'm so mad at the Dark Lord. Without Pansy, me and Chloé could've been a real couple, we wouldn't have to hide.

I just hope everything will be fine.

It has to be.

I'm scared.