Chapter 19

KAI'S POV

I couldn't think straight because of all the beers I chugged, so everything around me was fuzzy. The music was pounding in my head and I was covered in my sweat. It was gross and I felt claustrophobic. Everything I ate earlier that day threatened to make a reappearance. I held my mouth closed tightly for my sake and the janitor's sake. I got up from the bar and walked to the back of the bar. People were dancing, grinding, and making me feel uncomfortable. I decided I should leave before something happens. I didn't feel good and I knew I should be home sleeping. I finally made it to the back of the club and found a door. I assumed it was an exit and I opened the door. It lead to a back alley way and I believe it is the back of the club. I walked onto the cold dark streets and began to walk towards the light. The air smelled of trash and smoke. This also made a bad threat on my stomach's part. I kept staggering down the alley until I caught sight of something. It was a mailbox. No. It was a person? I stepped closer and found myself looking into two familiar eyes. I knew those eyes from anywhere. It was the guy who raped me. I tried to scream but nothing came out, I stood frozen like a deer in headlights. 

"Hello sweetheart, where do you think you're going?"

"HARRY!" I screamed.

"HARRY HARRY HARRY!" I repeated over and over again.

"Kai? Kai!?" I heard Harry say but I couldn't see him anywhere.

I was shaking but I couldn't control it. Suddenly I opened my eyes.

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My eyes fluttered open and light filled up the room. I realized that was a dream. I let out a sigh of relief and didn't even realize Harry standing over me.

"Are you okay?" Harry asked.

He looked really frightened and concerned. I could still feel the sweat on my body and my heart was still pounding. Was I okay? I shrugged, I was physically okay but mentally I was distraught. I tried to force a smile but someone would have to be blind to not notice it was a forced smile. I looked into Harry's eyes, and I noticed he was still waiting for an answer.

"Oh um yeah, now I am." I replied.

He sat down on the bed next to where I lay. I remembered I fell asleep in his room last night. It felt nice having him sit next to me. I felt safe and warm. I got butterflies just thinking how close we were. He took my hand in his and already I felt a shock run up my arm. I smiled but this time it wasn't forced.

"Do you want to tell me what it was about?" He asked.

I looked down at our hands. I deffinetly didn't want to recap what had happened but I knew I was safe now and there was no point in worrying. Harry would protect me, I was sure of it. I explained what I remembered to Harry, and he stayed attentive throughout the whole story. I felt like he honestly cared which made me smile. He didn't butt in and interrupt me, he just kept looking at me as I spoke. He was very concentrated and that made me grateful. He listened but most of all he care. When I was done he frowned. 

"Well Kai, that was a really bad dream but you know how I know that's never going to happen?" He asked.

"Why?"

"Because I would never leave you in that type of situation. I would never put you in any kind of danger ever again. I already let you slip through my fingers once and that's not happening again." He said.

I smiled and I felt tears swell into my eyes. That was so sweet, I couldn't remember the last time I felt safe like this but then I did remember. I felt safe like this when I was 13, when my parents were still alive and I didn't even know what suffering was. He made me feel like my safe 13 year old self again and I enjyoed it. I couldn't help it, I began to cry. He looked upset and confused.

"Why are you crying? Please don't cry." He begged.

I giggled through my sobs. "It's just that no one ever cared for me like you do since my parents. You make me feel safe Harry."

His face lightened, "I try."

He smiled and grabbed my hand. I obligaed as he walked me to the kitchen. He didn't make anything this morning which was totally okay with me. He made me a bowl of Cheerios as well as one for himself and we sat on the couch. It was around nine in the morning which is pretty early but I shrugged it off since I was with Harry. He flipped through the channels until I heard the name One Direction. I lifted my hand for him to motion to stop flipping, he listened and it was a lady,

"The world wide phenenom One Direction has just released their new album Take Me Home. It is local pretty much everywhere. The boys were interviewed and they said they were very excited and they couldn't wait for their worldwide tour. All five boys are very excited for the beginning of their tour coming very soon. Visit our website for more information on this topic." she finsihed talking and I turned to look at Harry.

"You guys are going on tour?" I asked.

He nodded and looked a bit upset, "Yeah we are. We just released our album not long ago and we are soon going to be going on tour."

I frowned and he must've noticed, "But hey at least it's not for another month." He added.

I felt a little better but to be honest I didn't want Harry to go. I wanted him to stay with me even though we just kind of met. I nodded my head and tried to make it seem like I was okay with it, but in reality I wasn't very convincing. He sighed and I could tell he was a little upset too but not as much as me. I knew it must be a lot of fun traveling around and performing almost every night. We ate in a comfortable silence for a little until I finished and just waited for him He looked at me,

"You're a fast eater." He smirked.

I playfully hit his arm, "Yeah well maybe you're just a slow eater? Ever think about it like that?"

He scoffed, "Okay fine you win."

I giggled, "and you talk slow."

He raised his eyebrows, "Is that an insult?"

I laughed, "No, who said I didn't like it?"

He laughed, "Okay okay."

He stood up and took my bowl from me. I thanked him and as he walked to put them into the kitchen I smacked his butt and I laughed. He looked back and winked at me. I blushed a little and looked on my phone. I went on the twitter I made with him before all this happened. I got a lot of followers since last time I was on. I tweeted even though I had no idea who would read this.

I'm bored Harry come feed me.

I laughed. Harry walked back into the living room and said,

"What do you want to do now?"

"Hmm... I'm not sure, up to you."

He thought for a couple of seconds, "Movies?"

I nodded happily. The last time I've been to the movies was when I was 13. That was a really long time and I suddenly felt excited. I've never felt this excited before. I got up to go get ready and walked up to Harry's room. I went to his closet because he told me that's where we put my clothes when we finished shopping. I picked out an outfit I vaguely remember. A pair of black leggings, with an oversized sweatshirt that had a simple black cross on it and once again my black combat boots. I loved them, I felt like I overwore them but I didn't really care. I loved them so much. To finish it off I put my hair in a ponytail and put in some bow earings. I walked down the steps to find Harry already changed from before in a pair of really tight skinny jeans and a plain white v neck. He smiled when he saw I was ready and I slipped my phone into my boot considering I had no pockets on my leggings. He turned off the television, walked over to me and grabbed his keys and phone off the counter.

"WE'RE GOING TO THE MOVIES!" Harry screamed.

Was anyone even home? I'm not sure because no one answered and I hadn't seen anyone all morning. We walked out of their flat and to Harry's black car. I got in the passenger seat as he got into the driver's seat. He started the car and began to drive. He turned on the radio and told me to tell him when to stop. I heard a fast catchy up beat tune that I kind of enjoyed and said,

"Stop please."

 He listened to the beat for a little bit and began to laugh. I was confused,

"What?" 

He smirked, "Nothing."

Oh I just wanna take you anywhere that you'd like

we could go out any day any night

baby  i'll take you there take you there baby i'll take you there yeah!

Oh tell me tell me tell me how to turn your love on

Right away I recognized that voice.

"Harry that's you!" I nearly yelled.

He laughed, "You noticed!" 

I nodded my head and turned it up louder and danced incredibly horrible for the next three minutes.

And let me kiss you!

The song finished and I said,

"I like that song, what is the name?" I asked,

"Kiss you."

I nodded, "Is that off your new album?"

He nodded, "Yup." He said popping the P.

We arrived at the movies and suddenly were flashed with blinding lights. How did the paparazzi already know that Harry was going to be here? I nodded my head in confusion. I got out of the car as did Harry. We walked up to the front door and Harry grabbed my hand. He looked at the ground and I copied him, I guess this was a way to get them annoyed? He squeezed my hand and I squeezed it back. I found out that I really liked that. We got into the movies and suddenly a wave of popcorn hit us. It smelled so good, Harry paid for out tickets to go see the movie Pitch Perfect. I had no idea what is was going to be about but I told Harry no scary movies. I hated scary movies. We ordered popcorn and I got a fruit punch. I didn't like soda, I know I was weird blah blah blah. We walked into the theatre and sat all the way in the back to prevent any sneaking up on Harry. The movie went on like any normal movie and I found it quite funny and amusing but for some reason all this darkness made me very sleepy. I ate popcorn and laughed when I found it funny. Harry tok my hand in his and I actually enjoyed it. I liked his hand in mine, it made me feel safe and I found myself to be a big fan of hand holding. I was kind of nervous my hand would get sweaty at first but came to the conclusion if I got nervous about it, it would happen. So I pushed that thought aside and found myself drift off to sleep on Harry's shoulder.

AN: I know this isn't really a cliff hanger or anything but it's more of a filler. But hey at least I update often! So if you want me to update sooner leave a comment and vote! I have a lot more ideas for this story so hang in tight! :) -a