And I Love You So

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I hugged my knees and broke out in tears. How could you Jungkook? How could you be so cruel?

Tears streamed down my face as I felt an emptiness inside.

An emptiness dark and deep.

I have lost the only light of my life. A string that attached me to him, is severed now.My mind was going blank and I felt so cold. I laid my body on the couch. My eyes were feeling heavy.

Why do I always cry? Why do I always hurt him and get myself hurt too? What's wrong with me?

I was loosing myself in a trance when a familiar fragrance filled the room. The room was dark. I didn't bother to turn on the lights.

I don't want to face my pathetic self now.

Am I thinking things again?

This time the scent seemed closer and the room was illuminated. And there he was standing with his hood on.His eyes were fixed at me. Dark circles were visible around his eyes. He has become a little thin too.

I rubbed my eyes and opened them again.

There's no mistake. He's here.

He took  small strides to come near me. But he stopped in a meter distance without speaking a word. I looked at his eyes calm and deep with a sadness lurking in them.

He spoke first. Calm and clear. "Hyung!"

A glacier melted in me. I felt tears filling the brims of my eyes again.

How much I wanted to hear his voice!I couldn't shift my eyes from him. He looked like a tree still and calm and I was like a wanderer wandering through the endless paths in the scorching sun. I stood up and jumped on him. He lifted me up as I found my shelter in his embrace.I let my sadness out. His hoodie was getting drenched with my tears.I held onto him tightly as he moved to sit on the couch. He hid his face on my neck and inhaled -"How I missed this scent! And this chest and those eyes! Hyung...You.."- he wrapped his arms around me as tears were rolling down his eyes.

"I am sorry Hyung! I should've trusted you. I should have let you explain. I am an idiot!"- he mumbled through his sobs.

"Yes you are an idiot! A possessive,protective knucklehead! I wanna punch your face so bad! You pig!"- i kept slapping on his chest. He didn't even make a sound. He cupped my face in his palms as he kissed on my forehead. A long and passionate one.

"Don't you dare to leave me again, Jeon Jungkook. I will kill you if you do it again"- i placed my face in his broad chest as I spoke. I could hear his heartbeats pacing up loud and fast. He gently stroke my hair as he cooed - "how much did you drink today? Let's  Get  you a shower first. "

He lifted my body in his arms and walked in the shower. He took off my sweater an unbuttoned my shirt. He let the bathtub filled with hot water and taking off my pants along with boxers placed me into it. The hot water was soothing my numb body as his hands were busy shampooing my hair. His face was curled in a beautiful smile.

The smile you only have when you get back the warmth of your favourite person.

After rinsing my hair off, he said - "i am waiting in the bedroom. Come out when you finish taking a your bath. Okay?"

I smilingly  nodded and he left half closing the door behind him. I let myself sink into the hot water.

With him back by my side, i can fight off the the biggest storm. His warmth brings me peace and sanity. Without him i am a wanderer without a destination.

I sighed at my situation as happiness filled my heart.

When I got out of the shower, he seemed asleep. I leaned on to see his face more closely.

What have you done to yourself idiot?

His plumpy lips seemed pale now. I leaned on to plant a peck on them. It's been a long since his lips collided with mine. He opened his eyes slowly. In them i could see something glistening . Not lust, it was love that he was craving for. He was just like me waiting to get lost. He pulled me closer and pinned me down on the mattress, his eyes scanning every bit of me.

That gaze does something inside me. A churning in my stomach rises each time he lays his eyes on me.

I placed my hand around his neck and pulling him closer, i whispered - "Make love to me!"

He silently settled a fringe behind my ear as he leaned on to whisper  - "I won't stop tonight. You have payments due and I will get it back with interest. "

"I am not asking less. Go on."- I whispered back getting lost at those brown orbs of him.

His bare chest was like a white canvas waiting to be painted with my touch.He untied the bathrobe and put it aside.I traced his abs with my fingers as he closed his eyes in pleasure. I was lying bare under him with my cock already craving for his touch. One of his legs was pressing in between mine's as he said in a deep voice - "I will take time to devour your taste tonight, Mr.Kim. Make sure to stay awake till the morning."

A smirk appeared on my face as I stroke his lips with my thumb - "Make sure I don't fall asleep ,Mr.Jeon!"

He leaned on to plant a kiss on my lips. Our lips collided and the heat it exudedmelted the ice in between us. His tongue was entangling with mine and I could taste the sweet minty taste of his mouth. He was occasionally pulling off to take a breath, leaving a strand of saliva between our faces. He then slowly went down my feet with his tongue working in a harmonious rhythm .I was shivering with pleasure. He placed a long kiss on my feet and the sucked on my thumbs. Through my half -lidded eyes, i could see him. Hair disheveled and his brown orbs darkened with lust, he had a smirk clinging on his lips. He then proceeded up to my thighs. My body was heating up with his every touch. His lips plump and moist, his eyes deep and calm and his body firm and steady, i was ready to get lost in him. He was slowly planted moist kisses on my groin ,earning moans from me. I couldn't suppress myself. Tonight ,he was different. He was slow yet it was sending shiver down my spine. He sucked a Hickey on my groin making me groan in pleasure. He looked at me and before I could embrace him to kiss, my dick was engulfed in his mouth. He kept teasing me ,licking the shaft of my cock occasionally. My mind went blank. "Don't tease me, Mr.Jeon . Just do it already!"  - i clenched a pillow tightly as I exasperated. "Ask me nicely Mr.Kim. Say please suck me! And I will." - a smirk appeared on his face as he replied with a bit of a smug look .

My hard dick was twitching continuously . I held on to his biceps as I pleaded - "P.... please!"

He took me whole in his mouth , my dick almost hitting back of his throat. He sucked on my balls and looking up at me, he hissed - "Dammit! You smell nice down here!"I closed my eyes in embarrassment .

This guy surely knows how to get things flowing in my body.

His hands were pumping my crotch down in a rhythm. I felt a churning sensation in my stomach as my cum splattered on his face. "I...I am so...Sorry"- i managed to blurt out as I was struggling to breath. He smiled and laid by my side as his hand gestured me to sit on him. I did as he asked just like a marionette. His crotch was parallel with my face. Plump and hard, it was waiting to get in my mouth. As I took him whole, his tongue seemed to be moving around my rim."Ah...Eh..What are you doing, jungkook-ah?"- i felt an urge of cumming surging inside my body."Shhhh....You can play with my dick as much as you want. Lemme just concentrate here."- he whispered .

I was being pleased from both sides. My mouth was full with his big hard dick and my  most sensational area was getting it's share of pleasure. I lost my breaths when the final lick of his made me come again. My mouth gobbling his cock up and down, he groaned loudly as he came in my hand.

He pulled me under him as he stretched my legs and thrusted in. We both groaned in pleasure. He started moving slowly as he leaned on to suck my nipples. He growled in pleasure - "Look at me. I want you to look at me. Yes babe!"

He paced up, as he pulled my hand over my head. My moans and his groans were filling the room. In the winter, we both were sweating. Beads of sweats could be seen on his forehead ,glistening like diamonds in the bed side lamp.

"All four." - he commanded.

I turned myself in all four and let him in. "Dammit! You are so tight, hyung! Even the back of your head looks pretty."- he pulled me close to him by my hands my back almost touching his bare chest. I called out his name "Jungkook- ah! Fast! fast!" His thrusts became faster as he bit on my earlobes. His lips were planting moist kisses on my nape. I held on to his neck as his pace became slower. We were both struggling for breaths as we both came together. His warm seeds were dripping out from my hole and mine from his hand.

Being tired we both laid down.

He grinned "That was awesome, Mr.Kim. Do you want to go for another round?""Shuddup! I have a shoot tomorrow you beast!"- i slapped on his chest. My body felt light and happy. He cleaned me with a wet towel and pulled the blanket on both of us.

His arm under my head, he pulled me closer as he cooed in  - "I love you, Kim Taehyung. Don't you dare to look at another man with these eyes."

I smiled as I nodded and said - "I won't"

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A/N ---

Today marks the 8th anniversary of BTS. Congratulations to all the armys. We have made it so far. We will continue to spread love as our boys have taught us. Borahae 💜