Contusion Lauren vs Subcontious Lauren Pt.3

Camila's POV

She turned away from me covering her face with her hands, crying furiously into them.

"Lauren?!" I nudged her. "What's wrong?!

She shook her head into her hands. "I-I...why?!" She said hitting her thigh with her fist. "WHY? WHY?! WHY?!" She continued to scream.

"Lauren please tell me what's wrong!" I pleaded.

She shook her head again, holding her head. Her fingers clenched her hair. "Remember. Remember. Come on." She pleaded. "Why? Why? I don-nt know. I.. don't know!" She said shaking her head as she began to turn red.

I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what was wrong. I thought back at things that made me calm down when I was freaking out. The things she did for me when I freaked out.

⚡️Then it came to me⚡️. With full confidence, I got in front of her and crouched down at eye level. I then cupped her face. In that moment, she dropped her hands down to her lap. Her red, puffy, but beautiful eyes stared into mine. Her lips parted, but trembling. I shook my head as a tear escaped from my eyes. Then close the gap between us. Furiously colliding our lips together. She didn't reciprocate.

I continued anyways. Savoring her, all I her, as much as I could. Her breathing became heavier as she tried to resist. Her hand finding it's way to the back of my neck clenching it hard. Her nails dug into my skin, yes it was painful, but at the moment I could care less, because at that very moment, she kissed back. Her kisses were eager,violent,and full of passion. She then pulled me closer by my neck, digging her nails in me deeper. My grip on her cheeks loosened, holding her in place gently. I began to Stroke her cheeks lightly with the pads of my fingers. Feeling the electricity hit between them. My body was now jello. I was getting weaker with each passing second but it was all shattered, when she pushed me away.

I looked at her in confusion.

"Stop...d-doing this to me." She said as her tears began to fall all over again. "Just ssstop. I can't- I just can't"

I felt my heart break into a million pieces. What? Lauren No?!

Suddenly I heard footsteps coming towards us.

"Lauren. No. Please don't do this." I pleaded, as tears began to fall from my eyes.

She shook her head. "I don't know. I just- I don't know. I can't. I cah-can't." She said between breaths.

I grasped her hand and gently kissed it before she pulled it away. "Stop. Le-leave me alone. P-le-lease I ca-can't do this."

"Lauren... please I love you." I pleaded again.

Before she could say another word, We were then met by Dinah and Mani.

Dinah held onto Lauren's chair and turned to look at me, "We got it from here."

Then pushed her away, I lost them after she hit a right at the curtain. I didn't realize it but I was running, when Mani grabbed my wrist pulling me back. Causing me to loose my balance. Mani helped me regain it before I fell completely though.

She stood in front of me holding her hands up. "Mila, we got it from here. Please give her some space..."

"I can't. I can't let her go, Mani! I can't loose her! I have to-." I hyperventilated, falling to my knees as they lost all movement.

Mani crouched down next to me. I looked into the void. Loosing my sight. " I can't. I just can't." I managed to get out.

She cupped my face for me to stare at her. I regained full vision now.

"LISTEN HERE. YOU AND I BOTH KNOW THAT YOU LOVE LAUREN. MORE THAN ANYONE CAN IMAGINE, RIGHT?" She said.

I nodded my head and sniffled.

She softened her tone. "That's what I thought. And that's why, my dear Mila, you can't let this little outburst discourage you. You saw how she kissed you! It was... so." She said scrunching up her face to convey the feeling.

"I know."

"Yeah, you do. and you know what that means?"

I shook my head.

"It means that you know how much she loves you back."

"Mani, you heard her. She wanted me to stop. She wanted me to stop l-"

"Don't say it. You know that's not what she would want. You know that damn right Mila. So stop thinking that. She just had a little outburst. She was overwhelmed, you know that. All this could of been to much for her, for all we know she could of remembered and she's freaking out! We don't know what's wrong with her. And as much as I know you want to find out. You can't right now. because you seem to be the source of the outburst. And I don't think we'll get anywhere with you asking her. Let Dinah take care of this. You know she'll get it all under control. Okay?"

I sniffled. She was right. I should let her handle it because as much as I wanted to be there for her, for whatever was happening to her, I couldn't because I was probably the problem.

"Okay?" She repeated.

"Okay." I retorted.

She embraced me into a heart warming hug. "It's gonna be okay." she said stroking my hair.

I let my tears fall, effortlessly. As I held onto Mani, feeling powerless, lifeless and weak .

Dinah's POV

I rolled Lauren behind the curtain.

She was hyperventilating. "Why. Why.Why.Why." She mumbled.

I nudged her. "Lauren. Hey. Calm down dawg."

She sat there idle.

"Lauren. Please your scaring me." I told her honestly.

She shook her head and pressed her hand against her chest. "It I-" She managed to get out.

"Lauren, you know you can talk to me." I told her.

She took a deep breath. "I-I c-cah- can't."

My eyes widened. "Why are you stuttering?"

She began to cry. "I- I -I don-t Kn-ow."

Holy shit.

"Hey. Hey. It's okay." I said crouching down to hug her.

"Why.Cant. I-I. T-ta-lk." She stuttered.

"It's probably a side affect of the contusion." I informed her.

But why now? Why not from the start? What the hell our we doing wrong? Shit.

"Oh...Wh-y?" She frowned. "Oh my god. I-I'm getting w-worse!?"

"Shh.. it's okay. Don't worry. I'm sure it's just because of the shock."

"No."

I cocked my brow. "No what?"

"Not t-the reason."

"What?"

"I-I ugh."

I gave her a second.

"Why."

"Why what?

She began to cry more furiously.

Sweet Jesus. I don't understand her right now. If she's not crying because she can't talk then why is she-

"I-I-I." She scrunched up her face in frustration.

I held her hand reassuringly. "It's okay. Take your time."

After a few more fits of struggle she managed to say, "Di-nah, The k-kiss I-I liked it. She stuttered then breathed "I rreally liked it."

I gave her a warm smile."Then what's the problem?I don't undertand."

"Under-rstand. T-that's the t-thi-ng, I d-don't kn-no-w why. I-I don'-t understand."

"What don't you understand?"

"I-I don't know wh-y it felt so good. Why I'-I'm so con-conflic-flicted. Why am I s-s-so confl-icted rrright now?"She forced out of herself.

"Oh Lauren." I stroked her back."I know. I know. I want to tell you everything but I can't. You have to try to remember."

"I d-don't know. I-I can't. As mu-much as I t-try I c-can't. And I hate hu-rttting her liiiike that."

I didn't know what to say. Think Dinah. Think.

"And the scary part is that I really liked it Dinah." She said looking up at me with heart felt eyes. " I just- do-on't k-now wwwah-y. And these fee-fe-feelings all of the-em, plus my hhead and m-mah-my confu-usion, they'rrre killing m-me."

"I know. Lauren. I get it. But you have to hang in there. Okay? For Camila, but more importantly for yourself. You don't remember, but I know that you would kill to remember the love of your life. So please try. Don't give up. There's still a bunch more memories to go through, please give it a chance, we -she can't loose you again, well almost that time but this time it's literal. Camila..she she couldn't take it when she thought you were a goner Laur. She was going out of her mind. Even suicidal, for a few seconds till you know me, put her in her place. And you know what I told her?"

Lauren shook her head.

"I told her to not give up, because she loves you. And that's what has been running her engine since. Now Lauren, I don't want you to give up. Because I know that you under all that confusion and feelings, you love her."

She sniffled.

"Right?" I said hoping she would say yes.

She stifled a smile then nodded.

It was suddenly replaced by a frown and wide eyes. "Oh-oh my G-god. I'm ssso st-stupid." She said face palming herself.

"What? Why?"

"B-bec-cah-cah-cah."

I rolled my eyes stupid stuttering contusion and pulled out my phone. "For lana's sake, Stop struggling and type it please."

She grabbed my phone and began to type then showed it to me.

L:Because, of what I said. I'm so stupid. I didn't mean it. I was just so overwhelmed. I didn't know what I was saying. What was I thinking?!

"I know you didn't mean it Laur. I'm sure Camila does too, even though she's uh crying a river over there..." I said peeking over the side of the curtain.

Lauren typed vigorously.

Why did you say that Dinah, your the stupid one.

L:"SHE'S CRYING?!"

I nodded my head.

She pointed towards the stage and motioned her hands as if she was pushing herself.

"Huh?" I asked.

"Cah-Camila. T-take me t-to her. N-now." She practically demanded me.

I nodded. "Chill. Dawg. I got you." I told her and did what she wanted me to do.