Peaceful Slumbers

Lauren's POV

I don't know why I did the things I did tonight. Hugging her,touching her and holding her hand just felt so right? But I don't know why. She's my best friend and I shouldn't be feeling like this. There's a part of me that hurts when I see her, my chest it wells up and I start to feel all tingly whenever I touch her. Then there's another part that reminds me that she's my best friend and that I should only love her in the way I'm supposed to. And I mean I do. I think. So I don't know what the problem is. I really don't know what I feel. I'm so confused.

Camila's POV

After a marathon of movies and constant cuddling with Lauren, we went to bed. Lauren looked exhausted. The bags under her eyes were baggier. Her pupils were more dilated than they were this morning and her body posture screamed 'I feel horrible, goodnight' Overall she looked like she was ready to KO any second.

Dinah and I helped her up to our room. Lauren looked around scanning the room closely.

"Only one bed?" She cocked her brow.

I felt my cheeks turn red. "Uh... yeah."

Dinah smirked "Night Camren." And closed the door.

Note: Kill Dinah later.

She nodded. "Makes sense...not like you'd use your own bed anyway."

I felt my shoulders relax. "RIGHT? Finally someone who understands."

She smiled then looked at my timidly. "Camz?"

"Yeah Lo?"

" I really need to bathe, do you mind-"

"No leaving? It's cool I'll be down sta-"

"No."

I looked up at her.

"Do you mind helping me?"

I felt my face turn red.

"Help you?"

"Yeah... I um... it hurts when I barley move so I need help taking my clothes off, someone to run the water, and I think I can do the rest. " She said avoiding my eye contact. I saw a tint of red form on her cheeks.

"No. Of course I'll help you Laur." I reassuringly smiled.

She began to unbutton her shirt.

Wait a second...Lauren she'll be naked!? No. I can't see. I'll probably make her feel weird. What do I do? cover her up. okay with what? Yeah the towel duh. I swear I was bird for brains whenever she was the reason. I realized I had been watching her begin to undress. I shook my head.

" Just... here let me get a towel." I chocked out.

I walked over to the bathroom cabinet and grabbed her green towel. I then walked over to the tub and ran the water. On my way back to our room, Lauren had attempted to take off her shirt but got stuck in the process. Her abdomen was exposed as well as her black bra. Her arms were stuck somewhere inside the shirt in the process of taking it off. Looking at her gave me chills but I got myself together quickly. I walked over to her.

"Lo? Need a little help there?" I teased her.

"Yes now shut up and help me." She slightly smiled, annoyed.

"Chill there she hulk, I got it." I said beginning to pull the shirt over her head.

There were bruises all over her bare skin. I had been staring at them for too long. She seemed insecure and hid her face. Crap.

"Hey Lo?"

She didn't respond. After a few seconds, I noticed tear droplets fall onto her jeans.

"I hate how I look right now."

"Lo-" I began to say.

"It's just so gross..."

I wrapped my arms around her. "Shh. No baby. Don't say that." Shit it slipped. I rested my head on her shoulder as her back was pressed against my body. "Your beautiful. So beautiful that sometimes People fail to comprehend it. You just that special Lo, inside and out." I continued to see tears fall from her hands that covered her face. "Please stop crying Lauren. You know I suck at comforting people. I make people feel awkward not comfortable."

She chuckled and wiped off some of her tears. Then held my hand that was resting on her abdomen area in my hug. She played with my fingers mindlessly for a few seconds.

"Your right. I need to stop." She shook her head. She caught her breath. She then turned to meet me with her green glistening orbs.

"Thanks Camz, for everything. I love you."

I smiled slightly. "I love you too Lauren." More than you'll ever know.

I looked at her lips for a while and she looked at mine. Her breath hit against mine and she hesitated but began to lean in. She stopped herself almost immediately. It hurt her.... Resisting, I could tell. She had a confused/angry expression written on her face. She closed her eyes for a second trying to recover.

She exhaled at our situation. I automatically unwrapped my arms around her. She jerked a little in response.

"So that bath?" I told her trying to change the subject.

"So that bath." She retorted.

I went to go check the water. It was at a nice warm temperature and at a good height. I knew she wouldn't drown in it alone if I left her,so from that observation I assumed it was ready. Before I went back to her, I stood there. Just thinking. She was about to kiss me? Like really kiss me. But contusion Lauren stopped her. Even so, I wouldn't take that moment back for anything. Her shy lips almost touched my eager ones and I wouldn't trade it for anything. The only thing that bothers me is that we were just so close. Man...she's really not making it easier.

"Camz?" She hesitantly asked.I didn't say anything, because I couldn't. I was both too hurt and happy. It was bitter sweet. But that's all I would get for now I guess, so I shouldn't complain.

"Coming." I managed to say.

I walked back to Lauren and helped her change out of the rest of her clothes. I think I almost fainted as I changed her out of her jeans. I swear I've never done anything like this in my life and to undress the girl that you love? Jesus. This couldn't of been more tempting.

She was now left in her underwear and bra. I looked at her bra. Mentally arguing with myself if I should un hook it for her or not. She looked up at me and smirked. "I got the under attire, don't worry."

I smiled slightly both disappointed and embarrassed. I nodded and handed her the towel. I turned around to make her feel more comfortable. I looked at my feet and pretended as if I wasn't dying to see her body.

"I'm ready." She said.

I turned to see her wrapped in the towel. Praise the lord. I'd have a heart attack if I saw her like that. I walked over to her and helped her to the tub. We stopped there, waiting a few seconds. Then we both realized that I had to help her in. Well, I guess I would get my desire after all. Not literately.

Her back faced me as she began to unwrap her towel. She did it slowly and I bit my lip harder with each passing second. She dropped it. One word gorgeous. I kept my excitement in as best as I could and helped her in. Suddenly our the skin under our touch became hot. My hands lingered on her body longer than they were supposed to. I saw her look at me with the same burning desire that I felt. As soon as I realized it, I took my hands off her.

I felt like such a pervert.

When she was set I nodded and walked towards the door. As I turned the knob I told her "If you need anything, don't hesitate to ask. Okay?"

"Okay."

After about 30 minutes I heard her call my name. "Camz."

"Yeah?"

"I need help getting out."

"Coming, WAIT what clothes do you want to wear?" I asked her.

"Um. A pair of pj shorts and a tee? I have that right?"

"Yeah, bottom left hand drawer." It almost came like second nature to me. I knew where everything of hers was. After the incident, I made sure to know where all of her stuff was to if needed get it for her but in this case, if she couldn't remember.

I placed the clothes on our bed and walked over to her. I handed her the towel and covered my eyes.

"Thanks." She chuckled.

I waited a few seconds.

"K." I heard her say.

I helped her out of the bath and onto our bed. I handed her the clothes as well as under attire. I turned on my heal and covered my eyes.

Ugh I can't believe I have to cover my eyes. She's my girlfriend after all.

"You can look now."

I turned to see her in a bra and underwear. I bit my lip. Sweet pancakes, if only you'd remember. I noticed I had been staring to long and grabbed her t shirt from the bed.

I helped her arms get through the t shirt and pulled it down for her. Then I put on her pj shorts and no, it did not get easier the second time.

After I had finished changing her, I combed her hair and blow dried it.

"You ready?" I asked fixing the bed.

"Yeah." She said looking over to see which side was hers.

It didn't take her long to figure it out. She knew which side was hers by the amount of stuffed animals on my side.

She laid down, with her back towards me. No good night, no acknowledgment, nada.

Ouch.

I tried to ignore it and faced her back. She was tired and I understood that, but she's just never faced her back towards me in bed. To add to it, she'd never slept without somehow being in physical contact with me and neither have I.

I shook it off, for her. I knew it wasn't her fault and that I couldn't blame her. But it's times like these when I miss her, all of her. Her touch, lips, affection and her simple but adorable gestures. But I was living through times like these that arn't that simple and have to be endured. Whether you like it or not.

I watched her sleep until I eventually did. However, our peaceful slumber didn't last.