Waver

(A/N: credits to the artist for the art! I wrote XueXiao because of this 😊😊😊)

Xue Yang's face is serious as he watched Xiao Xingchen cry. He just killed his own best friend Song Lan with his own hands. "Daozhang – " he called.

"Shut up!" Xiao Xingchen yelled, blood flowing down his cheeks from his eyes and is mixing with his tears.

"But, daozhang – "

"Shut up! Just shut up!" Xiao Xingchen said, agony is painted on his face. "How could you... how could you do this?!" he asked, mad, as he faced to him. "They were innocent!" he told him.

Xue Yang didn't answer. He just watched him cry his heart out. His heart has gone cold already watching how Xiao Xingchen cry over Song Lan. I knew it... he thought. I really should kill him. And now, since he knew who I am. He thought as he took out a knife and walked towards Xiao Xingchen. "Daozhang." He called. Xiao Xingchen didn't answer and faced him, his eyebrows knit. If only he still has his eyes, he would be glaring at him full of hate, loathing, and disgust. The thought created pain on his chest, but he ignored it. He stopped in front of Xiao Xingchen while the other is on the ground, kneeling and crying. He raised his hand and was about to kill him when his hand stopped in the air as he stared at him. He lowered his hand and he half knelt in front of him. "Daozhang." He called as he raised his hand without the knife and held his chin. He raised his chin and pulled his face closer to him. "Do you know why do you still not die until now?" he asked, amusement in his voice as he stared at Xiao Xingchen's angry face. "I wavered." He told him.

"What?" Xiao Xingchen finally said. When he knew it was Xue Yang, the first thing that he thought was why. Why did he still not kill him until now? "You must be joking." He said, sarcastic. Of all reasons and this is what he tells him.

Xue Yang smiled. "Go ask why. Ask me why I waver every time I try to kill you." He told him.

Xiao Xingchen pressed his lips tight. "Why?" he asked through his gritted teeth. Even if he hates him and is about to die, he still wanted to know the reason why Xue Yang kept him alive until now.

"It's because..." Xue Yang said.

Xiao Xingchen listened carefully, yet didn't hear more. He wondered, did Xue Yang play tricks on him again? But, he found out why Xue Yang didn't continue what he's saying when he felt soft and familiar touched his lips. He knew, deep inside his heart he knew. That soft and familiar are also lips, but he didn't dare think to assume. A-Qing is blind and a girl she wouldn't dare kiss him. While the kid he saved is also a guy, so it's impossible the kid would kiss him. But, turns out that kid is no ordinary kid since it is Xue Yang – his enemy. And now... tears fell from his eyes again as Xue Yang continued kissing him. He slipped his tongue inside his mouth and played with his tongue. "... just how much you hate me...?" he asked. "How much do you want me to suffer? How much will you disgrace me...?" he asked when Xue Yang pushed him down and opened his clothes.

"Daozhang..." Xue Yang called as he licked Xiao Xingchen's smooth and slender neck, then his shoulder. "You should know... I don't have a reason to hate you." He told him and kissed his lips as his hand slipped inside Xiao Xingchen's clothes and touched his skin.

Xiao Xingchen let out a moan. He was surprised. This sensation is new to him. "You – " he said, his body started to feel hot as Xue Yang continued to feel him. He gritted his teeth. Why do I feel pleasure being touched by my enemy's hand? He thought, mad to himself since he let out another moan of pleasure again.

"Daozhang... you should remember." Xue Yang said as he pinned Xiao Xingchen's hands with his one hand while his other hand is touching him. His legs parted Xiao Xingchen's leg. Xiao Xingchen wanted to protest, but he felt his body is weak and is reacting to Xue Yang's touches. "You were the one who interfered with my business – " he said.

"I - !" Xiao Xingchen said, mad, only to let out a cry when he felt Xue Yang's finger slipped inside him. This kid! He thought. If only he have his eyes, he would be murderously glaring at Xue Yang. "Why are you doing this thing to me – ngh!" he cried, his face flushed as he breathed when he felt another finger slipped inside him. He moved his legs and curled his toes, his body reacting positively of Xue Yang's touches. Why? Why...? He thought as he cried in pleasure when he felt Xue Yang's fingers are playing with his inside. He moved his arm, struggling of Xue Yang pinning him down and is struggling from the pleasure he's giving him yet his limbs turned weak. He could only wait until Xue Yang stop playing with him. "Go on... do what you want with me..." he said, gritting his teeth. He looked away. "You're the winner. I'm the loser. I'll be dying, anyw-ah!" he gasped when he felt Xue Yang pulled out his fingers and something wet flowed out of him. He... came.

"Who will be dying, daozhang?" Xue Yang asked. Seeing Xiao Xingchen not struggling anymore, he let go of his hand and undressed on top of him. "I won't kill you." He told him as he held his hands again while his other hand caressed his cheek. "Daozhang... look of me – " he told him as he grabbed his chin with his fingers and he faced him to him. "You should only look at me, not anyone else – " he told him as he bit the blindfold and removed it. Then, he kissed him, at the same time he entered him.

Xiao Xingchen's body froze for a second before it squirmed underneath him when it felt something invaded it. Xiao Xingchen's cry from being entered was drowned on his mouth as Xue Yang kissed him. Although Xue Yang is thrusting inside him, yet his kiss is surprisingly gentle, as if coaxing him and at the same time apologizing for the pain he caused him. Xiao Xingchen didn't expect Xue Yang would do this, and so he could only grit his teeth and bear the pain. Why... he thought as tears fell from his eyes together with blood. Xue Yang saw it and licked them. Then, he kissed his eyes that will be closed forever – because he gone blind, or will die...

Why would he still be gentle towards me as his enemy? Xiao Xingchen thought as he felt something warm filled him inside. "Daozhang..." Xue Yang called as he gave him a long kiss, and then let go of him. He stared at him. "I love y – " before he could continue, in just a blink, his vision turned red when he saw the bright red blood gushing out of Xiao Xingchen's throat after he cut his throat with his sword. Xue Yang felt everything stopped and only moved again when he heard a thud. Xiao Xingchen's arm holding the sword fell on the ground and the sword clattered. "Daozhang...?" he called, still in shock as he looked at Xiao Xingchen's body now stained with blood. "Daozhang... daozhang...?" he called and raised his hand. He didn't notice they are trembling and when he touched Xiao Xingchen, his heart sank. The body that was warm earlier while he's hugging... it now turned cold. "Daozhang..." he called. "Daozhang... daozhang, wake up." He called. "Daozhang. Answer me. Wake up. Please wake up – " he said. But, he knew Xiao Xingchen wouldn't. "Daozhang..." he called as his eyes watered and his tears started to fall. "Not once have I cried again after that time when I was a child. Yet..." he said as he lowered his head. "Daozhang... did you hear what I tell you?" he asked, then bitterly smiled. "Of course you didn't." he said as his hand reached the sword. "Still... I'm gonna say it again – " he said and looked at Xiao Xingchen. "Daozhang, I – " he said and smiled as he pointed the sword on his chest. " – I love you – " he said as he stabbed his own chest.

"Do you hate me that much?"

"Daozhang, I don't hate you. I have no reason to hate you."

"I love you."

"I may have no reason to hate you. But, I have millions of reasons to love you."

"Daozhang. It's not me who hates you. But, it's you that hates me – "

MXTX U.

The wind blew and the maple leaves fell from the tree. A student with black hair that's tied and is sitting on the bench, reading a book, turned. Only to smile when a maple leaf fell on his nose. He lowered the book he's reading and took the leaf off his nose. He looked at the sky. It's so blue and bright. The clouds drifting paints the sky with different white figures.

"Hm? What are you doing here?" a soft and gentle voice said.

The student turned and saw it was his professor. "Sir." He called and bowed. He put the maple leaf in between the pages of his book as a bookmark. He stood up and took off his headphones. "I'm just wasting my time." He answered.

His professor's forehead knotted. "You young ones waste your time yet when you will be adult you'll ask for more time." He said.

The student just laughed. "How did you know I am here, by the way?" he asked and looked at his professor's closed eyes. He is blind.

"Oh. That..." the professor said, then his forehead knotted again. "... I just..." he said, didn't continue. Even he does not know, too.

The student just smiled. "Shall we go home – " he said and gave him his hand. " – sir?" he asked and smiled brightly.

The professor smiled and nodded as he took his hand despite he can't see it. "Mn." He said. "Xue Yang." He called.

The student grinned as he cracked the candy in between his teeth.

(A/N: yep yep yep! A modern AU guys! This started on my FengQi fic. 😂😂😂 see you on my modern AU fic!)