Chapter 34

School Day

I dont really feel like to go to school today. I feel so guilty about Ryder. He loves me but I'm still in love with that Puckerman.

Today is the due date according to the assignments in glee club. I have to say something.

My mind wandering until I dont realize that I bumb into someone.

"Uppsss sorry." Without looking and keeping my head down clearing up my book that fell down.

"It's okay." A familiar voice.

I look up and he is Jake.

I better hurry before he say something about his brother.

I tried to waked away but he grabbed my hand.

"Why you avoid me again?" He asked.

"Because you remind me with Puck." I said trying to calm down.

"You still in love with him." Jake said.

I shake my head "I'm just trying to forget him." I push his hand and walked away from Jake.

"Hey buddy seems like someone scared you." Sam greeted me.

"I feel so guilty now." I said as my eyes glaze.

"Why?" Sam holds my shoulder.

I take his hand and we're talking in empty classroom.

"Ryder said that he loves me yesterday. That song he sang it was for me and he saw me slept and cuddled with Puck in our room while we are in London." I'm crying.

"Ssshhh dont cry." Sam hug me.

"I kinda like him, he is nice but I'm still in love with that Puckerman." I said.

"I will try to talk with Ryder. Dont cry I hate seeing you like this." Sam still hug me.

"One more thing. Everytime I saw Jake it reminds me with Puck. I cant handle it." I added.

"It's easy. I will tell Jake to use mask everyday so you wont see his face. See? Problem solved." Sam said.

I chuckle.

"Oh come on dont cry okay." Sam kiss my forehead.

"Sam, you're the best after Finn." I said.

"So I'm number two? Well thats okay (Tony Stark voice) " He chuckle.

I laugh.

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Glee Club

I need to tell Ryder something so he could understand.

I sits beside Marley and Brittany today to avoid Jake or Ryder.

"You okay?" Marley asks.

I nod.

Actually I'm not. I just wanna throw-up right now.

Jake and Ryder walks in.

"Jake! You should use a mask so you will look handsome and you Ryder, you need to cut off your hair to be bolt." Sam shouts as they walk in.

I laugh out loud.

"See? Problem solved dude." Sam giggle.

I laugh.

Finn walks in.

"Hey Finn the best number one and I'm the best number two but I'm smarter than you. I know that." Sam shouts as Finn walks in.

"I'm proud of you babe." Brittany said.

I laugh so hard.

"What are laughing at chicken?" Finn asks.

"Me, Sam and Brittany just making jokes. That's all." I said.

Finn sighs. "Stupid little chicken is trying to make jokes? Impossible." Finn yelled.

"Actually I'm smarter than you because I have a brain not a body full of food." I yelled back.

"You yelled at me? Okay fine dont come to me when you are crying." Finn yelled back.

"Okay. Dont come to my room and stole anything from there." I yelled back.

"Take your jacket off. That's mine." Finn yelled back.

Everyone sighs.

"Can you guys stop yelling at each other? I'm tired heard this." Blaine shouts.

Me and Finn being quiet.

I take my jacket off and throw it to Finn "yours."

I walk off and leave the choir room. I've been so terrible this day. Something wrong with my mind.

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*Ryder P.O.V*

I walks in to the choir room and Sam shouts me and Abygail laugh so hard. What's happened?

But wait. That laugh is fake. Is not her, seems like she hide something from us.

Now Finn and her is yelling each other. She's cute anyway.

Blaine stop them and then she take off her jacket and throw it to Finn and walks away.

What's wrong with her?

"Seems like something wrong with her. Go get her!" Marley whispered.

I nodded.

I walk out the choir room without noticing what everyone else says to me.

I need to find her. She must be crying right now.

One thing that I know from her is she always covered it when she want to cry or she just run away.

I found her. Sitting in the hallways down on her knees. I walk over but she realize it and run away.

But I catch her hand.

She stop and trying to push me but she cant. I hug her. She is crying.

"I'm sorry, I ruin everything." She still crying.

"No. You dont. Come on lets go back to the choir room." I said.

She shake his head "no. They would be mad at me."

"Listen, they mad at you because it's not you. It's stranger. Just be yourself and show them who you are." I said.

She nod.

I take her hand walk into the choir room but she push my hand slowly.

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*Aby P.O.V*

Ryder take my hand but I push his hand slowly because it make me uncomfortable.

We walk into the choir room. I'm trying to apologize.

I enter the room first and they shouts "Abygail!" Then hug me.

"I-I though you guys mad at me." I said.

"No we dont." Tina smile.

"Even though you are so annoying these days but you are still cute sweety." Kitty said.

"Thank you guys." I said.

I grab Sam's guitar and he frowned.

"Since when you can play guitar?" Sam asks.

"Since Jake's half-brother teached me." I simply answer.

"Well since our theme is SAY. Here is the thing I wanna say and I cant let it out so hope you guys can understand." I added.

I play the guitar and start singing.

And I'd give up forever to touch you'Cause I know that you feel me somehowYou're the closest to heaven that I'll ever beAnd I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this momentAnd all I can breathe is your life'Cause sooner or later it's overI just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me'Cause I don't think that they'd understandWhen everything's meant to be brokenI just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't comingOr the moment of truth in your liesWhen everything feels like the moviesYeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me'Cause I don't think that they'd understandWhen everything's meant to be brokenI just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me'Cause I don't think that they'd understandWhen everything's meant to be brokenI just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see meCause I don't think that they'd understandWhen everything's made to be brokenI just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

"That song is amazing!" Blaine said as he comes to me and hug me.

"You might hate me because I always reminding you many things but that was Kurt's offer to protect you when he wont be able here. You know, he loves you so much although you both not really close but still you are his little chicken." Blaine added.

"Blaine, I'm never hate you or mad at you. Me and Finn calls you 'the another Kurt'. Everything you do remind us with Kurt." My eyes glaze.

"I love you Blaine." I added.

"I love you too." Blaine replied.

"I love you too Aby!" Sam shouts.

I laugh.

I meet Ryder eyes and give him 'thank you' eyes.

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