6. Girlfriend

Gray’s POV

It has been a week since I confessed to her. I love her. I love Juvia. That day, when I heard about she was in pain because of me. She went through a lot pain and depression. I hate this feeling. I hate myself for leaving her. I leave 1 year ago after she had told that she loves me on Valentine’s Day. I couldn’t forget that day.

Evening, February 14, last year…

There was an awkward silence when we go home. I am holding her hand as we entered the room. Her hands were soft; I just want to hold her hand and never let it go.

“Gray-sama…” She broke the silence. “Does this mean that Gray-sama loves Juvia?” she asked.

I don’t know what to answer. Do I love her? I couldn’t even look at her eyes. I don’t know what to answer. I know I am falling for her but why can’t I said that to her. It is really hard to explain. Her presence makes me feel better. Whenever I am with her, my world lights up. It is like the best feeling. But why am I like this. I couldn’t even said that to her.

“Juvia…” Words, Gray. Go on say it. You, fool. She already told you that she loves you. You have to say it too. You like her in high school, right? Now that you are roommates in college, you fell in love with her. You bastard, Gray. Tell her now.

“I’m sorry, Juvia. I think I have to move out here” What the hell are you saying, Gray? You must tell her that you love her. Now. There is no perfect time. It is now. I just rolled my fist. Why did I tell her that? Oh, man. I wasn’t sure of my feelings now.

“Okay, Gray-sama. thank you for this night.” She said. She let go of my hand and ran to her room. She stopped and looked back. “Oh, and Gray-sama. do your best in your studies. Just like we planned” She smiled but there were tears in her eyes. I know when she locked herself in her room. She will burst out crying. Damn, I feel worthless right now.

I decided to go to Loke’s room. He mentioned that his roommate left their room and transferred to another school. Loke said that she left because of him. Loke and his roommate had a relationship and broke up after a week. Well, that is not a surprise. Loke is Loke. That will never change.

“Gray, what’s wrong? I thought tonight will be your best night. Oh, I see. She refuses to get laid tonight, right?”

“Shut up, Loke. Why do you always bring that up? You know, you can have a relationship without sex. And that is not why I came here Loke.”

“’Kay. So what is it, you Virgin Gray?” He laughed as he said that. This bastard is making me a fool.

“Stop, mocking me.” I said irritated. “Well, the thing is I have to move here.”

“What but why?” He asked, confused. Then I told him the whole story after what happened in the mall. This and that…then he stood up. He looks serious.

“Do you even love her?”

“I think.” I answered.

“What kind of answer is that? You think? It means you are not sure. You are the worst, Gray. I felt bad for this Juvia…”

“I need to move here, Loke. I didn’t know how to face her now. She loves me. I love her, too. Yes, I love Juvia. But I didn’t know why I said that.” I keep telling that to Loke. I love Juvia.

“What the hell, Gray? Someone loves you then you love her too then she confessed and now you told her you have to move out. What is wrong with you?” He stopped as he saw me lifeless. “Well, Gray what I’m trying to say is that don’t keep your love hanging up. In the end, you are going to regret it. But if you really like to move out here, you are welcome here. You’re an idiot Gray. You like things to get complicated.”

“Thanks, man.” I told him and went out his room. He was right and I don’t have to say anything.

The next day, I moved out and went over to Loke’s room.

“Gray Fullbuster?” A voice called my name. “If you want to sleep get the hell out of this room” Shit. I am daydreaming. Damn.

“Hey man, something happen?” Loke whispered.

“Shut up. We’re not allowed to talk.” I said. I was thinking about Juvia. 

The class ended.

“So what’s wrong?” Loke asked.

“Not your business.”

“It’s Juvia, right?”

I sighed. “Yeah… I told her that I love her.”

Loke widened his eyes and suddenly laugh. “Wha-ha-ha-ha”

“This isn’t funny, Loke” He is irritating as always.

“Finally, Gray. Finally… so what did she said? Is she your girlfriend now? Gray Fullbuster has a girlfriend now.” He said it out loud and everyone heard it. I saw their faces smiled and I heard ‘finally’ then girls whispered and gossip at each other. What the hell?

 “I don’t know. I just told her I love her.” Then I found myself telling the whole story from the moment I get back home until she got sick and I told Juvia that I love her. Loke may be irritating but he can be a good friend sometimes.

“Well, it is up to her now, Gray. I told you, you shouldn’t hang her up. Now you are confused. I told you, idiot complicated man. Just pray that she still loves you…” Yeah, what a friend. words of encouragement, huh? 

“Hey, Loke come on now.” A brown hair woman called her.

“Cana?” I asked “Loke and her?” I looked at Loke.

“Yeah, but nothing serious. Just playing around, we agreed at each other. She was so good. Thanks man for moving out.” I saw a maniac smile. Pervert, Loke

“Well, enjoy. I guess.”

I went home thinking about what Loke said. ‘Just pray that she still loves you’ I am sure now that I love her. I am so sure now. I like her. I love her and I want her. I want her to be with me for the rest of my life. Damn, why did I just realize this now? I was about to open the door when someone opened it for me.

“Gray-sama,” She said softly. She looks bad. Has she been sleeping? “Juvia wants to talk with Gray-sama. Is that okay with you?”

I just nodded. I entered the room and sat at the couch. Juvia also did the same. What was happening? This scene is so sudden. I was about to open the door but Juvia had opened it now she wants to talk. I am getting nervous now. I was about to speak but

“Gray-sama! Is that true that he loves Juvia?” She asked making her face red.

“I love you, Juvia.” I told her once again. I looked at her. Her face was redder than ever

“But why now?” I stopped breathing for a moment trying to find the right answer to her question. I was again about to speak. Not again “Juvia waited to hear that Gray-sama,” She was sobbing now.

“Juvia was asking herself if she did something that made you leave here after that night. Juvia kept asking herself ‘Does Gray-sama hate me or not?’ Juvia could not even sleep. Juvia got depressed. Juvia kept herself busy but she was worried about Gray-sama. Juvia always remembers Gray-sama. Juvia even called her but Gray-sama didn’t answer. Juvia thought that Gray-sama hated Juvia for what she did at the mall last year’s Valentine. Juvia was devastated when you said that you will move out.” She burst it all out. “Gray-sama, Juvia was trying to forget you but Juvia couldn’t even do that. Juvia had locked herself in her room. Juvia thought that she had no purpose on living because Gray-sama does not love her back, Gray-sama hates Juvia now.” She stops talking and she was crying now.

“Juvia, I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have leaved you.” I suddenly moved out the couch and hugged her tight. “I love you, Juvia. I am sorry it takes so long to tell you this. I don’t even know if I’m worthy of you. You make me happy always. Your presence makes me calm. I don’t know if I could do the same thing I felt when I’m with you. I’m so sorry, Juvia. It is my fault. Forgive me, Juvia.”

“Gray-sama” She whispered and. She hugged me back and talks in a soft sweet voice “Juvia will always love Gray-sama. Gray-sama gives Juvia strength every day she woke up. Juvia felt happier each day she was with Gray-sama. Gray-sama is worthy of Juvia’s love. Juvia gives herself to Gray-sama. Juvia didn’t know if she was worthy of Gray-sama, he was perfect and every girl in the school wants him.” She cried again

“Stop it, Juvia. I love you and that's all that matters, right?” I told her as I looked at her. Her eyes were full of tears. I wiped it with my thumb. I love looking at her eyes. She was so beautiful. She’s the only person that makes my heart beats so fast “I love you, Juvia.”

“Juvia hopes this isn’t a dream.” She felt like it was a dream. But why?

“Juvia, this isn’t a dream. I am really in love with you.”

Her eyes widened in amusement “Juvia loves Gray-sama, too” and then she hugged me again crying

“Stop crying, Juvia.” I hugged her tightly. I felt her warm through my body. Oh, how I love her so. I finally said it. I love her so much. “I’m sorry you waited long, Juvia.”

“Juvia is just happy, Gray-sama. Juvia waited long but this was worth it. Juvia didn’t regret anything, Gray-sama.” she said , still hugging me.

“Don’t do that thing again, Juvia. I’ll die if I heard you do that again” I told her that as I remember that time when she locked herself and got hospitalized. I don’t want her to suffer again. I don’t want to lose her. I don’t want to leave her side again. “I promise to never leave you again. I won’t make you suffer again.”

She nodded and didn’t say anything. I know she was smiling and she sighed in a happy tone. ‘I am now Juvia’s boyfriend’ I thought. I had to make her happy from now on. I have to protect her. I don’t want her to cry except for tears of joy. I just want to make her happy by my side.

“Juvia, you are my girlfriend now, I’m so happy.” Unexpectedly, there were tears in my eyes while smiling at her.