Chapter 13 : Just Want You To Stay

Jiyeon's POV

We were now sitting on a bench and enjoying our time together.

I don't want to go back. I want to stay here with him.

Just then he got a call. He picked it up quickly.

"Hello..."

It seemed like he was talking to Hongjoong as he mentioned his name. I slightly sighed and looked to the front.

He ended the call and sighed. He ran his fingers through his hair in frustration.

"Is everything okay? You look worried," I asked.

"I totally forgot about the vlive we had to do today." He sighed again.

"We should go back then..."

He looked as if he didn't want to go back like me but he had to. He has his responsibilities as an idol. He can't just ignore them, right?

***

On our way back we didn't even utter a single word. I kept looking out of the window. I was sad that I had to leave him.

I know that we could meet again but this time seemed as if I won't be able to see him for a long time. I felt like I would cry if I spoke anything.

We reached my house. I opened my seatbelt was about to open the door when Seonghwa stopped me.

"I'm sorry, Jiyeon."

I turned to him. "You don't need to be sorry for it. I can understand." I gave him an assuring smile.

"But still..."

"You should go now... Goodbye."

I opened the door and went out of the car. I waved at him giving him a fake smile. I sighed when he drove away. I looked down and went inside.

I plopped on the bed and sighed. I just has been a few minutes since I last saw him but I'm already missing him so much. I was so sad that I hugged my shark plushie tightly.

Why am I feeling this kind of thing? I shouldn't feel like this. I can't like an idol that way...

***

Seonghwa's POV

I parked my car in the parking lot and rested my head on the steering wheel, letting out a deep sigh.

I didn't want to leave her but I had my responsibilities to take care of. I just wanted to spend more time with her. Is it too much for me to ask? I too want to live a normal life.

To be an idol was my dream and that dream became my reality. I wanted to sing and dance for the people who love me. So I worked hard everytime just to keep up to their expectations.

But there are sometimes when I don't feel satisfied with myself. Sometimes I feel upset if I don't meet up the expectations. Of course, I have my members to cheer me up but I need someone else to be there by my side in those times.

Someone who understands me more than myself. Just being with that person gives me strength to move forward. When everything is giving me a hard time, I want to stay by her side, leaning against each other.

I don't want anything else but her. The one who makes me smile just by thinking about her and gives me the strength to get back on my feet.

And I think Jiyeon is that person. I want to be with her. I don't want anything else than her.

Just want you to stay.

***

I was now sitting on my bed, leaning back on tye headboard and staring at the selca that I took with Jiyeon.

"You really like her that much?" Hongjoong said and sat on his bed.

I quickly locked the screen and cleared my throat.

"Won't it affect you career as an idol?"

I looked at him and then down at my phone.

"I know I shouldn't feel like this... but my heart doesn't want to leave her. I've started to like her more than before."

"I can understand. But have you thought about your future when you date her? Many fans don't support their idols when they're dating."

"But Atinys aren't like that."

"I know they support us so much but we can't make them like her, right? There would be some of them who might be against it. What if they try to hurt Jiyeon? Will she be able to handle it?"

I sighed and looked down, thinking hard about what Hongjoong just said.

"I'll support whatever you decide to do and others as well. We're always there by your side," he said and smiled.

"Thanks Hongjoong-ah." I smiled back.

"Now let's sleep. We've to wake up early tomorrow."

"Ah right."

I switched the lights off and went to bed.

What will happen to me? Will I be okay?

To be continued...