It's always been you, Ohm

Ohm's pov: 

I woke up in a bed, in a room I was unfamiliar with. This room really has blinding lights. I see a figure in front of me. It's white? Is it an angel? Am I in heaven? 

Oh no, it's just Nanon. It's NANON? Nanon is here. In heaven? 

When my eyes regained their senses, I realised I was in a hospital room. Nanon was next to me, Thai was sitting on the couch near me, and Nonnie was there too. 

I called Non's name. But nothing came out of my mouth. Am I dead? Wtf. No, just my throat is dry. I pat my hand on the bed. Thai noticed it and came towards me. Nonnie noticed here moving too. That's when I realised Nanon was asleep. I gestured to Nonnie to not wake him up. But while Thai was making me sit up, I mistakenly woke him up. 

He looked at me, I could not read the expression in his eyes. It was plain and weird. I didn't know what to say. neither did he let me. He took the glass from Thai and help me drinking the water. I was in bandages all over. But what affected me was that he had a bandage on his forehead. I was about to ask him why he had that bandage. But as soon as I was about to say something, he just rose and left the room.

"Is he still mad at me?" I asked Thai. He was standing next to me.

"Yeah, but not about the breakup."

"Then?"

"I don't know. Maybe drinking and driving in the middle of the night." he said, looking at me, giving me the most sarcastic smile ever.

"I know. I know," I said apologetically, "but why does he have a bandage on his forehead?"

"He had a fight with the staff." 

"What? Why?"

"They confused you with some Ohm Napasit guy and called him, telling him you had died, and that he should come and collect your body. He was so devastated that he passed out 4 times on the way here. But when we got here, we found out: you go into an accident, but the car was the only thing that smashed, and you were hurt, but out of danger. It will still take 3 weeks for you to recover.

So he punched the guy and literally made the whole hospital turn up to their toes, and I was afraid he would've killed someone. I handled it anyhow. He still said you don't deserve to be talked to, so he won't talk to you but take care of you because you two are soulmates, and eventually you'll be his husband someday."

"He said husband?"

"He did."

"And he fought with everyone?"

"Yeah. It was tough to handle him. He would've reported the guy to the police."

"And what about the police case in my matter?"

"I cleared it up. You would have to do social service once you are off bed rest for 2 months every Saturday."

"Understood. So will he really not talk to me?"

"You have him, Phi. You have him for life. Talk it out," Nonnie said. "I and Thai want nothing but you two to be together."

"But he said I was not good enough for him."

"Because he thought you stopped loving him."

"What?"

"I am not in the place to talk about that. i'll send Hia in, talk to him."

"Wait," Thai said. 

"Hia, I am sorry for telling Phi something so personal to you. I shouldn't have brought that up. I just wanted him to know in case you had a panic attack and I wasn't around. When I saw you in your worst panic attack on the day of your break up I went to him and lashed out. I know I was in the wrong and it was the business between you two but I couldn't help but stand up for my brother. I want to apologise to you too, Nonnie. I know you got pulled into a fight you had no idea about. I was just so mad. and I know, Hia, what you are about to say. You should talk it out with Phi and I will apologise to him personally after that."

"It's fine. Can you send him in? Thai you should leave too."

"Yeah, sure, Phi."

They both went out of the room and I heard some talking outside when Nanon came in. I guess they sent him in saying I needed fruits, because as soon as he came inside, he started peeling an apple.

"You know I don't like apples."

*ignored*

"Will you really not talk to me?"

*ignored*

"Future husband?"

He still ignored me, but the blush and smile that crept on his face did not go unnoticed by me.

"So am i really not good enough?"

He looked up this time. I could see the way guilt crept over him. 

"You know it wasn't supposed to turn out this way." He said; his first words hit me like the most beautiful present I ever received. 

"Why did you do that? Why did you break up with me?"

"That's a question I'll answer later. First, tell me why you did this."

"What?"

"Drunk driving?"

"i-"

"Was losing our kids that way not enough for me that I had to lose my love the same way too? You have no idea how hurt I was when I heard that I needed to come and collect your body. The fact that I found out that you did something similar to the reason our kids are not with us broke me, Ohm."

"But I was coming to you. I wanted answers. How can you just let me go."

"And do you think drunk driving could've led you to the answers? How stupid can a person be? Do you think I would've loved the fact that I lost the love of my life the same way we lost our kids?"

"Non. The panic attacks I got after our call. they were severe. I was already dead inside. Do you think driving while drunk would've mattered at that time?"

"Wait a minute; if you were having panic attacks, that is also considered the wrong situation for you to drive. Who gave you the permission to kill the love of my life? And despite all that, you did something that was the reason behind our kids' deaths."

"I am sorry, Non. I wasn't thinking. And what made you think i didn't love you anymore?"

"How do you know about that?"

"Thai isn't the only one who talks."

"What did she tell you?"

"Not much. I want to hear it from you. What made you think I did not love you?"

"The day we came back from Jun and Sapphire's funeral. You locked yourself up in your room. I was so tensed at that point that I couldn't keep myself from coming to your room. But when I was in front of the door,. you were talking to someone. and you said that you end up getting hurt every time you get attached and that you are done with being attached to people or loving them, and you are done with love. It broke so much to think that you also thought that I was the reason our kids have died."

"What do you mean, also?"

"As in, I thought that I was the reason our kids died."

"What? Why would you think that? Were you calling sapphire out? Did you throw them in front of the car? Were you the one driving?"

"No bu-"

"Then it's not your fault."

"But if I had let you adopt them a day before, then this wouldn't have happened."

"It's not your fault, Nanon. It is that guy's fault. And I got him arrested. I found out about him and told the police."

"Oh. can I ask you something?"

"Yes, princess."

"Who were you talking to in the room?"

"Do you have my wallet?"

"What?"

"Do you have it?"

"Yeah"

"Give it to me."

"Here."

I took the wallet from Non's hand. And took out the picture of the man I was talking to last night.

"This is the guy I was talking to. He is the first love of my life. I met him in my hostel. He was the same age as me, I loved him too much, but I couldn't date him. I took too much time. The day I confessed to him, was the day he told me that I should've told him sooner. I did not understand him. The next thing I find out, is he is no more with us. I think Thai told you about the medical conditions in that hell hole. And they did not provide him proper medications that killed him. And since he was the first person I was severely attached to, I thought maybe it's not a good idea to be attached to people. So I was polite to everyone but attached to nobody. Until you came along. And if you had heard the whole thing, you would have also heard that I was scared to lose the love of my life again. Nothing in this world can be strong enough for me to hate you. Or not love you anymore."

"Oh"

He hugged me, keeping the knife down. I could feel his eyes welling up, I squeezed him into the hug. We both just let our tears down. And we just stayed like that for fifteen minutes.

"I want you to know. At the end of the day, you are mine. And I am going to marry you, Khun Pawat Chittsawangdee."

"I'll wait for the ring Khun Korapat Kirdpan."

A/N: Don't tell me you really thought that i would kill my potential husband? and take him away from nanon? you really thought i was this curel, huh? whatever. This is true that the book would end soon. maybe some more chapters, or even at the end of this week. 

whatsoever, this plot was planned way ago so don't think i'll hurt them. i will not anymore. 

maybe season 2 would come but not now. you'll be notified. Anyhow, i love you all <3