I am afraid to find out

And just as i thought, i could have a good rest. Everything started going downhill. As soon as I got back home, mom said she'd been missing me a lot. Mom and I settled down for a conversation that changed into a 3-hour-long discussion. As soon as I was done with her, Nonnie came downstairs to tell me that she wanted me to drop her off at the mall because her friends were waiting there for her. While I was dropping her off, I received an email from the production team stating that the 3-day holiday I and Film were getting, had been cancelled. That means I have to report to the set tomorrow morning at 5:15. Which also means that i had to go back to Ohm's condo tonight. 

I thought the only way I could get through this sanely was with a coffee, and I also needed to text Ohm that I was coming back home early, and just as I was about to enter the shop, I was shocked. The view in front of me was something I did not expect to see. I saw Ohm and Film talking to each other. Not just that, Film had Ohm's hand in hers. I guess they talked it out just as advised and started dating. And that's when the realization dawned on me: the scene in which I and Film have to kiss is tomorrow. I have to kiss my best friend's girlfriend tomorrow in front of him. God, what did I do to deserve to be your favourite kid? 

-cheap copy of a golden retriever-

ohm, my break has been cancelled 

I'll come back to your condo tonight.

okay, I am not at home. Could you just take your spare key with you?

in case i get home late

sure

I saw him replying to me, and I left. I can't tell him I saw him; he'd think I was a stalker. Whatever his relationship with Film is, I am sure he will tell me when he thinks the time is right. Right now, I need to decide what I will do about the kiss scene tomorrow.

....

I got to Ohm's condo, and he was still not back. Are they going at it on the first day of their dating? Well, anyone would if they found out their best friend was going to kiss their partner 2 days into their relationship.

That's when I heard the door unlock. So he doesn't know about the kiss, or will he be mad? 

"Hi, Non," Ohm said while hugging me tightly. Is he happy because his crush accepted him? I guess then I have nothing else to do but be happy for him.

"Hi ohm. Where were you?" I asked, thinking he might tell me about it.

"Nowhere special. I just wanted to get some coffee."

"And that's it?"

"Yeah. Go wash up; I'll set us some dinner."

So Ohm really doesn't want to tell me about it. Is it because me and Film are partners in the series? Or did Film tell him not to tell anyone yet? 

.....

We got to the set, and I and Ohm went to the vanity. Prim and Film were already sitting there, getting ready for the role. I saw Ohm giving Film a signal to meet her out. Ohm and Film got out, and after 30 minutes of waiting, there was no sign of them coming back. As everyone was waiting for them, I told them I'd go search for them because I didn't want people to catch them making out, and the news to get out before they were ready. I saw Ohm and Film sitting on the porch talking and told them to come back to the shooting positions.

When the scene was set, I and Film were told that we were starting with the kiss scene first. I can swear on anything that I heard her sigh. Obviously, who wants to kiss their secret boyfriend's best friend on screen? When I and Film were done, I could not find Ohm anywhere around. That's when I heard one of the staff members talking.

"Did you see his reaction? It was so fierce that, for the first time, I got scared to even stand next to him. As soon as the kiss started, his temper went up, and he left. It was like he was about to cry."

Was Ohm that angry? Was he mad at me for kissing Film? Well, he kissed Prim too, but that was before the start of their relationship. 

That's when I heard the door bang in the director's room. Ohm looked angry while he slammed the door. Did he fight with the director? Did one kiss make him this mad? I saw Ohm get in his car and leave the set.

"Did he leave? What is the big deal? They are paying for it," the director said, coming out of his cabin.

"What happened, Phi? Is everything alright?"

"How can it be? Ohm just got really angry over a small matter. Also with such high pay."

"What was the matter?"

"He had to kiss Prim for an event. And they said they'd pay well for it."

"Ohh." 

Is that why he ran away? Because he doesn't want to kiss Prim? Is it because Film will get angry if he does?

.....

"Ohm, can I come in?" i said, knocking at the door of ohm's room

"Yes, Non, please come in."

"Are you fine?"

"Do you think I am?"

"Can you talk to me about it?"

"They want me to kiss Prim at an event."

"I heard about it. But it's not like you haven't kissed her before. What's the issue?"

"Non, that was not me. That was Kao. Kao kissed her out of love. For me, kissing as a character and kissing as a person are two different things. Except for acting, I have only kissed one girl. And that was my first true love. You know all about it. she left me for another guy. (a/n: imagine leaving Ohm Pawat Chittsawangdee for another guy. Couldn't be me.) Kissing is an important emotion to me; I can't just go kissing around my colleague like that."

"I understand it. Is that it?"

"Well, also the fact that someone would be mad at me if I did it."

"Yes, you also need to think about Film."

"Yes. Wait a minute. Do you know about Film?"

'I am sorry, Ohm, I didn't want to spy on you or something, but I saw you guys in the coffee shop, and there were hints: you were getting angry at us for kissing, and also Lucas told me you liked a girl, so."

"Wait a minute, do you think I like Film?

"You don't?"

"No, first of all, I am going to kill Lucas because I said I'd tell you when I am comfortable. Second of all, who said I liked Film? I don't like Film. The reason she would be angry is because she likes Prim."

"What? Then why was she hanging out with you instead of Prim?

"Do you remember the day we went to the movies? She texted me, saying that she wants to meet me before the shooting starts again." I visited the coffee shop you are mentioning because she wanted to confirm that nothing is going on between me and Prim. The reason I did not tell you was because she wanted to keep it a secret, and when she realised that we have nothing going on but that we are actually close, she asked for my advice to approach her, and that is why we were together."

"So wait a minute. who do you like then?"

"Non, I apologize, but I still am not comfortable saying it out loud, so can I tell you when I am confident enough to accept my love for them?"

A/N: yaay!!! double update.