This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things

💛Fearless💛As soon as I took my lips off of Debuts, I immediately regretted it.

Why tf did I just do that??? She's isn't gay, and not only that, she thinks being gay is disgusting. I'm her best friend, the one person that makes her feel comfortable, and I just fucking kissed her.

We both sat there in silence for a few seconds, both of our faces pink and warm.

"Sorry, idk where that came from. Ik you're not gay and I didn't really...We don't...I...I just-"

"It's fine, stop talking" Debut sat there looking like she was thinking hard about something.

My heart was racing 10 times faster than usual. The butterflies in my stomach were multiplying by the second, and not the good type of butterflies. The type you get when you're terrified.

"Are you mad at me?" I asked, trying to figure out her thoughts on it.

"No" she said quietly.

We both sat there awkwardly for a long time, neither of us wanting to say anything.

"Do you wanna finish our movie?" I offered.

"Sure"

I laid back down and hit play on the remote. We finished the movie, except this time we didn't cuddle. We sat about almost a foot apart. At one point I tried to scoot slightly closer to her, but she side-eyed me and scooted further away from me.

I couldn't focus on the movie for the next hour. All I could focus on were my thoughts eating me alive.

I love Debut so much. Not in the way that I just implied, but just as my best friend. She's my everything, and all I want in life is for her to have everything she wants. She's an angel on earth and she deserves the world.

I also love her in a way that's more than friends. I know it's really bad, considering the fact that we're best friends and she's straighter than a pencil, but I just want to kiss her and cuddle her all the time. She would never though, because she thinks being gay is gross.

What if things are weird between us forever? I just got her back, I can't lose her again. I didn't mean to make her uncomfortable. I thought we had something because of the way we were looking into each others eyes.

Apparently not. Guess I was just being delulu.

Why did I have to live up to my name? Maybe if I had hesitated, had I not been so fearless, maybe I wouldn't have kissed my best friend and made her uncomfortable.

Once the movie ended, Debut got up and walked towards the door.

"Well...bye I guess.."

"Bye" I said before she closed the door.

I fucked up.

🩶Folklore🩶At 5 o'clock I walked into the kitchen and started getting some ingredients out.

Lovers ankle was obviously injured, and 1989 was exhausted from the fight, so I decided I'd make dinner tonight.

Once I started cooking, Speak Now walked past the kitchen before turning around and peeking her head in.

"Something smells really good in here"

"Thanks! I'm making dinner, I figured I could give Lover and 1989 a break."

"Can I help? I have no one to hang out with and I'm bored."

"Of course! You can hang out with me anytime!" I smiled.

Speak Now is so cute. Her smile, her giggle, everything. She's just such a sweet person.

Over the past couple weeks I've been thinking about her more. I think I like her, like, I like her, but I don't want to put her in another "dear john" situation because I'm 10 years older than her.

"Could you hand me that spoon?" I asked, trying to think about something else.

When she turned around to grab the spoon, her arm brushed against mine and it sent chills down my whole body.

"You okay?" She asked when she saw me shiver.

"Oh yeah, I'm fine. Just cold."

"Here, take my jacket" she started slipping her arms out.

"No no no, I'm fine. It's your jacket, you keep it."

"No really, take it. I'm getting kind of hot anyways"

"You sure?"

"Positive" she smiled before handing me her jacket, revealing the tight purple tank top that she was wearing. Damn, she looked good in that top.

"Thanks" I smiled before slipping her jacket on. It smelt like her.

"Folklore, can I tell you something?"

"Yeah of course, you can tell me anything sweetheart"

Please. Please be what I'm convincing myself it is. Please.

"I just wanted to say thanks for being such an amazing friend to me. I know that's really random, it's just that we don't hang out very much, but when we do it just makes me really really happy. I feel like you actually get me, and you just make me happy." She looked at me with big eyes and the cutest smile ever.

"Awe, thanks Speak. That means a lot. I'd love to start hanging out with you more, you're a super amazing person and you mean a lot to me."

"Really?" I could just see the way her eyes lit up with excitement. It was adorable.

"Of course" I giggled.

Speak Now threw herself into me, giving me a giant hug.

"I love you sweet girl" I smiled as I hugged her back.

"I love you too" she said before letting go of the hug.

Once we finished making dinner, I let Speak Now take a bite of it before we put it on the table.

"Mmmm that's so good" she tilted her head back.

Stop it Folklore. That's not what she meant.

"Glad you like it" I smiled, trying to ignore the sensation I felt from watching her.

"Dinners ready everyone!!" I called out as I set the table.

Once I sat down, Speak Now took a seat next to me, glaring at Evermore when she tried to sit there. In Evermore's defense, that was usually where she sat, but Speak Now clingyness was cute.

After a minute or two, everyone had sat down. Everyone except for Lover, who was hopping on one leg down the stairs.

"Oh shoot I forgot" I said as I raced over to help her to her seat.

Once I got back I started eating. I happened to glance down for a second, but then that lasted for a few extra seconds when I saw Speak Now subtly squeezing her thighs together under the table.

It has nothing to do with you Folklore. Stop it.

But what if it does have something to do with me?

🤍Poets🤍There was an awkward tension all of dinner. Usually there was tons of conversation and everyone was talking, but today it was mostly silent. Aside from the occasional fork scratching against a plate.

Rep and Lover looked mad at each other, which was super weird. They also both seemed angry with Midnights, and based on Midnights' face, I'd say the feeling was mutual.

Debut and Fearless were usually laughing with each other and talking, but now they were both just silent. They barely even looked at each other.

"Is everyone okay?" 1989 asked, finally breaking the silence.

"If you consider the fact that your girlfriend fucked my girlfriend while we were gone then yeah, everything's great." Rep boldly stated. Lover rolled her eyes.

Everyone would've gone silent if it weren't already, and we all just stared at Rep.

"What....?" 1989 asked worriedly.

"Yeah, apparently your girlfriend gave mine drugs without her knowing and then they were both high. Somebody couldn't keep her hands off of Midnights, and instead of just walking away, Midnights got turned on by it and then they fucked. I found them cuddling in her bed when I got home" she nodded towards Lover.

"I have a name you know" Lover snarled at Rep.

"A real 'Lover' wouldn't cheat."

"Midnights what the fuck??? And Lover, really??? You're my best friend, how could you?" 1989 yelled, but her angry voice was laced with an undertone of pain and betrayal.

"Nine I don't remember any of it, I swear I would never do something like that if I was able to think straight. I was high and I honestly thought it was Rep. I promise I would never do that."

"Yeah except you did do that, so...Midnights what's your excuse?"

"I don't have one. I was high, I wanted her to get high too. Being high makes me horny, apparently it makes her horny too." Lover glared at her, crossing her arms. "She was kissing me and touching me, and once she slid her hand down my pants and started talking dirty I just-"

"Save it, I don't wanna hear anymore."

Well this is a lovely dinner conversation.

"What about you two?" Red asked, looking at the two youngest, to which they both replied "Nothing."

Nobody spoke after that. Once we all finished eating, everyone silently cleaned up and went back up to their rooms.

Are things always this chaotic around here?

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