Chapter 1 - I'm back

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Chapter 1 - I'm back

Sometimes life plays a joke on you. A pretty bad one.

"I have to tell you something" both of us said in unison. We both looked at each other in silence until both of us broke into laughter. "You first" Hana said after she regained herself from laughing.

My hands shivered from the cold. November had just started and it was very cold; and my lack of thick clothes weren't helping. Hana and I were total opposites. Hana was tall, while I was short. Hana had a black hair, I had brown hair. Hana was popular, I was unsocial. Hana always had a bright personality, while I had mood swings.

I looked at her with a serious expression and gathered all my courage to tell her about my one and only crush. Hana is my best friend and she knows that I like somebody from my childhood. She has been dying to know who it is and I think I am ready to tell her now. "Well, I want to answer your question." I said and looked into her eyes.

Her eyes shined bright and she smiled at me with a sincere heart. "I knew you will be ready to tell me someday. So tell me, who is the lucky guy?" she said and giggled at the end. "I will only say, if you tell me what you wanted to say to me first" I said and gave her a mischievous smile.

"You never change, huh? Anyway, actually I want to apologize to you; I have hidden something from you. Lately I have taken an interest in this one guy and some hours ago, he asked me out!" she said and jumped up and down in excitement. "Oh my, my, look how happy you are! I truly wish you congratulations from my heart." I said and jumped up and down with her.

"By the way, who is it?" I asked curiously. "It's Oliver from the B class" I suddenly stopped jumping and looked at Hana with a shocked expression. This was a bad joke, right? No, it's probably a dream. "What's wrong?" she asked and stopped jumping too. I shook my head and said "Nothing, let's grab some dinner." I said and dragged her arm with me.

"Hey, weren't you about to tell me the name of your crush?" she asked and stopped walking. "Nope, I changed my mind" I said and grinned ear to ear. "Darn it" she said and walked ahead of me. I looked at Hana and smiled at her. She deserved happiness and I shouldn't stand in her way.

"Are you coming now or not?" she asked and walked into the cheapest but best restaurant we knew. "Hey, wait for me" I said in a loud voice and ran to her.

Oh, Hana if only I could tell you about my crush. If only I could tell his name and talk with you about him. If only I could tell you that his name is Oliver. But I guess this will remain as a secret, I should move on. Sadly, this wasn't a bad joke neither a dream, this was the plain reality which hit me hard.

It was after a while, about 2 months later, when Hana discovered my diary. I swear, this diary was the biggest mistake I ever made. I should have thrown it away, I should have never written anything about Oliver in this diary. Now, Hana knew everything and I couldn't hide anything from her anymore. There was a long silence between us, we just looked at each other and the time seemed to pass too slowly.

"So you like Oliver?" she plainly asked me. "Wait, let me explain. It's true what you read in my book, but believe me, I truly want you to be with him." I said. "Do you still like him?" she asked plainly again. "Believe me, I just need some time and I'll soon be over him" Tears started to form in my eyes, when I saw Hana's unbelieving face expression.

"You still like him and you won't forget him that easily, he is your first love after all. Why didn't you tell me about it earlier? Don't you think that it will be too awkward for us three to hang out with each other? Will we both feel comfortable when I will tell you stories about Oliver? Will I ever be able to face you? Every time I'll see you, I will think that I betrayed you." She said and started crying. I looked at her with silence; she was right.

"I don't think I can do this. I don't think I can bear with the drama which is ahead of us. So I think it is better when we stop everything."

"What do you mean by that?" I asked terrified. "You know what I mean. I had a great time with you" She said and wiped her wet cheeks and ran out of my room while holding back her tears. "Wait" I called after her, but she was already gone. It was too late. I sat on my bed and looked in the space. Did Hana react too harshly or did I really commit a big mistake?

It was nighttime and I was sitting on the ground, still looking at the space and it was only then when I received a massage.

"Soon Min, how are you doing? Do you remember when we asked you if you want to finish your school year in Korea? I know you declined this offer, but I want you to reconsider it. We miss you and we want to see you. Eun Hee and Kyungsoo are dying to see you, after all it has been 4 years when we last saw you." Said mom's massage.

"I'll think about it" I sent back. The only reasons why I declined going back in Korea was because of Hana and Oliver. If it wasn't for them, I would have run back to Korea anytime. When I was small my parents decided that my brother, Kyungsoo, and I will stay with my grandparents in New York because of money problems. It was hell living here until I meet Hana. And shortly later, we had a new neighbor, Oliver. We didn't talk much, but the 'Good morning' he said every day was my only reason for me to wake up. Going to school had become easier too, because Hana and Oliver went to the same school as me.

About 5 years ago, everything had gotten back to normal. My parents overcame their money problems and wanted us to move back. Kyungsoo agreed immediately, but I suddenly didn't want to leave because of Hana and Oliver, even though I missed Korea more than Kyungsoo. One year ago, my grandparents decided to move back to Korea too, because they had grown old. It was getting hard for them to work and earn money. So they decided to fly to Korea and rest well there.

So now, I was left alone and the last time I visited Korea was 4 years ago. Suddenly a light flashed in my mind. Why am I even here? I have nobody and even Hana left me. I picked up my phone and dialed my Mom's number.

"Oh, hello sweetie how are you doing?" she asked me. "I am doing fine mom. I actually called you because I have changed my mind. I think I am ready to move back in Korea."

Well, it's been a long time since I was in Korea.

I told my mom that I wanted to move as fast as possible and my parents booked a ticket. It was the 20th December and winter holidays were about to start. It seemed like I had to wrap up everything really quickly since my flight was on the 31th and I had to pack my things and get rid of my flat and talk to my school about the moving.

The next 3 days I was ignored by Hana. My heart felt uneasy every time she ignored me, but I didn't have time for pity parties. I had talked out everything with my school and then the winter holidays came. I talked to my landlord and gave her my flat back. Since she was so kind she said that she would remove my furnitures and the only thing left was packing. Packing took really much time, but it was pretty easy.

It was on the evening before my flight, when I was taking a walk around the neighborhood. It was my last time here and I tried to memorize every little thing, so that I wouldn't forget anything. I looked to my right and saw Oliver jogging to me.

I gulped and called myself down. "What are you doing here?" he asked and tried to catch his breath. "Just taking a walk" I replied and started walking. "Well, then let's walk together" he said and started walking next to me. "Hey, do you have a partner for your science project? Hana doesn't have a partner and when I asked her why she isn't with you, she said that you already had someone. Is that true?" he asked. His brown hair fell on his forehead and his intense gaze was hard to avoid.

"I don't need someone, I need no one" I said and looked up in the sky. "What do you mean?" he asked with curiosity. "I am moving, back to Korea" I replied plainly. "What?" he asked disbelieved. "Why didn't you tell anybody? Does Hana know? Why are you going?" he asked in a loud voice. "Well, these are personal problems. I have to prepare for tomorrow, so I have to go. It was nice meeting you, Oliver" I said and jogged to my flat. He didn't call after me, he probably didn't care.

The next day my flight took off. After a long flight, I finally made it. I went out of the airport and breathed in the air. It felt good. A feeling of being back home gushed into me and I somehow felt relieved.

Suddenly I had the urge of going to the bathroom, so I went back into the airport. After I was done, I was washing my hands and I heard some screaming girls. Is that normal to happen in an airport?

Well, I was soon proven wrong when a guy entered the bathroom. The ladies bathroom to be exact. He was lucky enough that I was the only person who was in there. "I saw him running in the bathroom" I heard a girl from the outside say. "The ladies bathroom? Would he really do that? Let's check out" The other one said and the guy started to panic. He took me by my hand and dragged me in the toilet cabins. He locked the door and whispered "Bear with me for some seconds"

I froze and stared at him blankly. Then I heard some girls entering the bathroom and check every cabin. "Is there someone?" someone asked and knocked on the door. I didn't reply. Well, what should I even reply? "Jonghyun oppa?" she asked. In a matter of seconds, the guy came near me, only 3 centimeters apart from me, and whispered in my ear "Tell them you are here" Obediently, I did exactly as he said. "Sorry to disturb you" she said and all of them made their way outside. "Maybe he ran in the other direction" one of them said.

It was only then when I realized that the guy was still too close to me. I looked into his face, he had blond hair and his brown eyes were full of tiredness. His flawless skin and perfectly shaped nose made him look good. Too good to be honest.

"Thanks" he whispered again and finally moved away from my face. Seconds later, he was gone and he left me standing there speechless.

"Does he only whisper all the time?"

End of chapter 1

Hey guys, how are you? If you have read the first version of this story, you have probably noticed that everything is different in this chapter. The "Hana and Oliver" part is something like a pre-story because it will play an important role in this fan fiction.

Anyway, has someone listened to Jonghyun's new OST from Oh my Venus? It's currently my jam and it's called beautiful lady. You should listen to it if you haven't.

Oh, and don't forget to check out SHINee's teaser for DxDxD

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