To Jonghyun

To Jonghyun,

You were everything I had and everything I didn't have. And now, you have vanished in a blink of an eye.

It's been 10 days since that horrible event has taken place. How much must you have suffered that you saw no other way out? He, she, me, everyone is probably incapable to imagine. No one can know how a person is feeling on the inside; one can guess, but never know exactly. The signs were here, but we were unable to recognize the seriousness of the matter.

I feel guilty. I think every fan feels guilty, but how mortified must your family and your members feel for not being able to stretch out a hand to someone who dearly needed it? Right now, I am cannot smile while reminiscing about you, it hurts too much, but someday I will. I will listen to your music with a bright smile across my face whenever I will experience good days, and I will listen to your voice when I will feel sad. I want to remember you as a wonderful, talented and beautiful artist who changed the perspective of my world.

You taught me so much. One of the last things that I learned from you is that we need to take responsibility for what we say and we have to choose our words wisely. There are many more things that I have acquired from you, but if I would start to list everything up, the list will be endless.

You, who has helped many through your music, will never be forgotten. I am very proud of you for the amazing work you have achieved in such a small time.

Music never dies. You will always live on through your music and your writing.

Thank you and you did well.