Chapter 7 In My Room

The radio broadcast was a success with all the members. They were probably in the car already leaving the building. I did tell them to keep listening after they left. Now it was time to end the show for today.

"In life we come across people we wish we never met and people we never regret meeting. Having friendships like these is important. Always being able to tell someone you feel blue is always great. I too have a person whom I will never regret meeting." I took a small pause like always and looked down at the bracelet I was given 7 years ago before debut.

I always wore it after that. It held such a beautiful meaning to me.

"As I have said before meeting that person was the luckiest day of my life." I felt my heart beat faster, but it felt heavy and hurt at the same time.

"Here is the last song. As always see you tomorrow. I am Blue Night Jonghyun." I finished off my regular saying and let the last song play.

I decided to play the song that reminded me of that special person.

'10 cms: Americano'

I got up from my chair and bowed to everyone as usual before I left the studio. I had called Manager hyung and told him I'd like to stop by my mother's house since I hadn't seen here in a while. I knew she'd be sleeping so I went to buy some flowers for her and my Noona's favorite sweet bread she liked so much.

As I was walking to the house I remembered the time So Dam met Key for the first time. I had already told her about him and the others, but she was insisting she'd meet Key first. She had even texted me that the day before

To Jonghyun:

'Ya Jonghyun-ah! You always talk about that trainer Kibum. I wanna meet him since he sounds so special! ^ㅅ^ '

To Pretty Noona:

'Ah Noona why are you so anxious???? Okay I'll invite him over tonight. ㅎㅅㅎ '

After we had our regular practice I went to Key's room and knocked before entering.

"Bummie~" I said as I snuck in quietly.

It was pretty dark and I could see him laying down on the bed. I took this chance to jump on him to scare him.

"BUMMIE!" I shouted playfully at him.

He jumped up hitting his head on the top bunk bed.

"IDIOT!" Key yelled smacking me on my arm as I tried to catch my breath from laughing too hard.

"God damn it! What the hell do you want?" Key rubbed his heart area.

Sitting up on the foot of the bed I caught some air and began to explain to him about coming over.

As I spoke about it he looked somewhat nervous. Back then I didn't understand why. But somehow I feel as though even though I might think I now know why...I feel like it still isn't because of that. He was probably embarrassed of being seen with someone who acted so touchy with him. He really wasn't such a fan of skinship, but we were close friends already and I thought he wouldn't mind.

I reached and grabbed his hand.

"You okay Bummie?" I asked smiling slightly with an eyebrow raised.

"H-huh? Oh..yeah I'm fine. Sure let's go!" he smiled softly at me.

His eyes looked sad and afraid. I didn't ever find out why he looked so sad that day. Just seeing his perfect face be tainted with such a sad expression made me think that maybe being this close wasn't okay.

I moved my had away and smiled once more before getting up.

"Let's go."

As we got there he was still acting nervous and even tried backing out on it.

"What if they don't like me Jjong? What if they think I'm weird, a freak, even worse ugly?! I can't do this I'm going back." Key said panicking and turning around to leave.

"Bum." I grabbed onto his shoulders.

"Just breathe." I pat his back.

Key nodded and we walked back.

The whole afternoon we spent there was the best ever. My mom made us so much food and we all talked and laughed about things we all did when we were little.

Before Key left he asked to use the bathroom. While he was there my mother told me about how much of a sweetheart he was and how she would pray our friendship would last forever. I laughed a little and told her that it would no matter what.

As we walked back to the SM dorms Key started to tell me about his own family.

He told me how he never really got to see his mother and he grew up living with his grandmother.

"Sometimes I feel like running away and just never turning back.. I wonder who would notice and who would run to me.." Key kicked a rock as we kept walking.

I stopped dead in my tracks and grabbed a hold of his hand again ignoring his dislike of skinship.

"Kibum... If you ever had to leave I would follow you. I would never let you go." I swallowed hard and felt sweat form.

I was confused and didn't understand why I felt so attached to him.

"Stupid...just like a lost puppy huh.. My lost puppy." he smiled and pushed me softly.

"Yes I'm your puppy Bummie!" I acted as if I was panting like a dog and barked playfully at him then laughed standing up straight.

"Well if you are my puppy you need a collar! I don't have one but I do have this. You have to wear it so people know I'm your owner," Key took off his black bracelet he told me he made in 6th grade and gave it to me.

Happily I put it on and never took it off.

Later that night as I laid in bed thinking of today my phone buzzed from a message.

To Jonghyun:

'Ya Kim Jonghyun you better not let go of Kibum... He better be there at your wedding! ^ㅅ^ '

To Pretty Noona:

"Noona-ah why are you so weird??? Have you been drinking again ㅋㅋㅋ Okay it's a promise >//< Sleep well pretty Noona. I love you :*

I giggled silently and went to bed after. All I dreamt of was the day I had with Key.

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After dropping off the things at my mothers house I snuck in to give each a kiss of the cheek and mentally tell them I loved them. I said bye to Roo and left going back to the dorm.

By the time I arrived on foot it was already 4 am. I was hoping everyone would be fast asleep and not waiting for me.

I walked in quietly and got some food out of the fridge. I had skipped dinner earlier and was pretty hungry. I just got some bread and milk so it wouldn't be such a heavy meal at this hour.

As I gulped down my milk and ate the bread I heard a door open and close. It sounded like they were trying to be quiet and sneaky but they failed miserably. As much as I hate to admit it I had really good ears...like a puppy.

"Jjong?" I heard behind me.

Turning I saw Key standing there with that stuffed character from snow white named Bashful.

"Hey," I said then wiped my mouth from the milk and bread crumbs.

"Aren't you gonna sleep?" Key walked over to sit down with me.

"I was just hungry. Looks like you haven't slept yet either. Anything wrong?" I forgot what had happened earlier and moved on my own.

I reached over to his face and brushed some hair behind his ear making him blush slightly. Realizing my action I stopped and crossed my legs then cleared my throat.

"Ah.. It's nothing.." Key pushed his hair back on the other side now.

"Mm.." I nodded slowly.

"Actually... I can't really sleep unless I know you got back home." Key looked away and hugged his toy as he looked down.

"Key... Like I was trying to tell you earlier... This friendship I just.. I don't think I can see you that way anymore... My feelings they changed... You aren't just my bestfriend anymore, but instead-"

"I need to go Jonghyun...I'll see you in the morning," Key got up hurriedly as if he knew what I was trying to tell him.

I wasn't going to have it. I need to set things straight.

I got up quickly and like before I grabbed his hand and pulled him back to me in an embrace.

"Do you remember what I told you seven years ago Key? You always do this. You try to run away. I told you. Key if you ever had to leave I would follow you. I would never let you go. I can't do that unless you stop pushing me away like that. This what I'm feeling Key it explains everything. It's all clear now. All these years why didn't I notice it? My heart it beats fast everytime I see you..touch you... It's not friendship, but-"

"Jonghyun what are you saying? You are tired go to bed stupid dino.." Key gave a weak smile before pulling away from my embrace.

"Ya Kibum listen to me! I'm not tired I'm-"

"Drunk." Key laughed a little louder.

"Goodnight... You can finish this if you remember in the morning." Key smiled and pushed my shoulder playfully before leaving around the corner.

He must of gotten better at not making noise with the door because I never heard it open nor close.

I stood there a while longer just trying to figure out what I should do. After going over what Key said I chuckled quietly.

"It's not friendship, but love..." I smiled up at the direction his room was then turned to walk over to my room I shared with Taemin.

Boy was this confessing thing going to be hard.

*To Be Continued*