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JUNGKOOK POV

This time was different with Y/n.. I made love to her....because I love her.... I don't want to lose her. I know my mistakes, I see the shit I've done. I can't take them back now, I have to walk away from this and let her be free...........

Y/N POV

I feel so conflicted with everything. He has made me feel so many things that no one has ever made me feel before, good and bad. He was different this time, more genuine. I could see the love in his eyes. Maybe he feels guilt for what he has done, but it doesn't change what is already done, What he has taken from me.

I walked out of the shower and at this point it was light outside, we were up all night... I expected him to be gone but when I walked into my room he was still laying on my bed with his face closest to my window, sideways on the bed.

He is beautiful, something I can never avoid while looking at him. He was so deep in thought he didn't even hear me walk into the room.

Y/N: umm....

He sat up and looked over at me...

JUNGKOOK: I didn't hear you come in....

I stood there as I crossed my arms looking out the window..

Y/N: Yeah... So I should probably get some sleep so I can finish up on packing....

He looked down at his hands...and rested his face on his arm while his arm was on his knee.

He was hoping I'd change my mind.....

JUNGKOOK: You really want to do this?

Y/N: I am doing this Jungkook, I have no other choice.

JUNGKOOK: You do... have other choices.

Y/N: Kook, we.... I thought we decided....

JUNGKOOK: No... you decided... I had no deciding in any of the choices you've made recently...

Y/N: Please just go....

As tears started streaming down my face....

JUNGKOOK: you....

He stopped saying what he was going too and stood up off the bed and started walking toward the door..... but turned around looking at me...

JUNGKOOK: I'm changing...

Y/N: a little too late...

JUNGKOOK: It's never too late to be a different person...

Y/N: there are some things you just can't come back from...

He walked over to me and bent down to kiss my forehead

JUNGKOOK: You Don't see the changed parts in me, you only see the bad I've done.

Y/N: how can I see anything else?

(His facial expression as Y/N said that)

JUNGKOOK: I love you....

He put his hand under my chin and made me look up to him.

JUNGKOOK: I want you....

Y/N: Jungkook, We've talked about this... you swore!!

JUNGKOOK: I need you...

Y/N: You lied to me.. to get what you wanted.... again!

JUNGKOOK: I didn't lie to get what I wanted....

Y/N: You fucking lied to me....... You swore... I'm so stupid...

JUNGKOOK: we all lie sometimes to keep what we love and need.

Y/N: NO

Y/N: You can't do this too me... I have a plan for my life...

JUNGKOOK: a plan? a fucking plan?

Y/N: YES a good plan... a life plan....away from here

JUNGKOOK: that doesn't include me...

Y/N: especially doesn't include you...

He gritted his teeth, I could tell he was getting angry with me....

JUNGKOOK: You don't understand...

Y/N: I understand perfectly but I don't think you do.

JUNGKOOK: I understand that you never cared about me at all....

Y/N: No... I love you... so much it hurts...

I started breaking down.... I slid to the floor and leaned on the bed.....

Jungkook looked down at me...

JUNGKOOK: You've made me hurt this whole relationship...

Y/N: then why do you want and need me so bad?

JUNGKOOK: because I know the real you...

Y/N: do you though?

He leaned down in front of me... grabbing my hands...

JUNGKOOK: You don't understand how much I love you... and how far I'm willing to go...for you.

Y/N: You've already went pretty far....

JUNGKOOK: You're pushing me....

Y/N: Just go...

I pulled my hands away from his....

and started yelling at him...

Y/N: JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE! GO.....

He looked at me with watery eyes.....  He got up and walked for the door.... opened it and Bianca was already standing at the door about to knock...

She stood there, took back by Jungkook leaving my room with me on the floor crying... and screaming......

BIANCA: I was just checking....

Jungkook cut her off to turn around to say

JUNGKOOK: You may leave me here behind you like I meant nothing to you...

I looked up at him...

JUNGKOOK: I follow through with what I say.... I'll give you time....

Y/N: time???? I just want you to leave me alone for good.

JUNGKOOK: but when that time is up, I'm coming to find you...

Y/N: no.... you are crazy!!!!

JUNGKOOK: I'll come take back what's mine....

Y/N: I'm not yours..... you don't fucking own me....

JUNGKOOK: I know I don't own you...but you chose me, then I fell in love... and after tonight it cleared up any doubt I had in my mind about you and I....

Y/N: what.....

JUNGKOOK: I love you... I'll give you your time....

Y/N: how long?

JUNGKOOK: I'm not sure.... but don't get anyone else killed.....

I hit the floor with my fist...... He walked away leaving me with so many questions..... and because I knew he was right about last night and how we felt....

Bianca was speechless....... she comforted me most of the morning....

I'm not sure what's to come next but I have to pray he wont ever find me....

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