02 hateful attraction

Y/N's POVMy eyes filled up with tears. He did it again. He slept with another girl again. I know that I don't love him but this hurts so much. Why does he need to sleep with other girls when he already has a fiancee? Why does he show love and care when at the end of the day he will fuck other girls? Is it wrong for me to wish that my fiance wouldn't sleep with other girls?

I pushed him away from myself with all my strength. He stumbled a little as he was not expecting this. I got down from the table, fixing myself and also trying my best not to cry. He furrowed his eyebrows. 

JK: What happened?

Y/N: I am leaving. 

JK: Why? 

I didn't say anything and just started taking steps towards the door. I was about to open the door when he slammed me against the wall earning a painful groan from me.

JK: I asked you something. Why are you leaving in the middle of our makeout session?

Y/N: Because I don't like it. I don't want to makeout with you. So please stay away from me.

JK: Really? You don't like it when I touch you? You don't like it when my tongue dominates your mouth or when I leave those purple marks on you?

Y/N: ...............

I couldn't say anything. Do I really like it? I looked down and then my eyes automatically went towards the bed and it was enough for me to answer his questions. 

Y/N: No I don't. I hate it. I hate it when you touch me. I hate it when you kiss me. I hate it that you are my fiancee. I hate it that I need to marry you. I just hate everything about you. I hate your existence in my life. I HATE YOU JUNGKOOK. 

I was surprised at myself as it was the first time when I burst out like this. But then I looked at him and I could clearly see the anger in his eyes. He was burning in rage. He was looking terrifying. I didn't say anything and came out of the room. He called my name.

JK: Y/N!

I didn't stop and kept going. I didn't want to see his face anymore. He called me again and this time too I ignored him and got inside my car.

JK: Y/N!! I AM CALLING YOU. 

He shouted but it didn't stop me. 

JK: YOU ARE REALLY GONNA TEST ME HUH? FUCKING GET THE HELL OUT OF THE CAR.

I didn't look back and drove off from there, leaving a frustrated and angry Jungkook behind.

It's enough. I have had enough of all these. I was too kind for the people around me. Why should I care about my dad when he never even looks at me? All he does is use me for everything. For his business, his image as for the world I am a pretty girl who is also smart. But little do they know that I am not the princess of my dad which he tries to show the world. I have decided on my way back home that I will decline this marriage with Jungkook.

I got inside and went straight to my dad's room. 

Y/N: Dad, I need to talk to you.

Dad: Not now. I am busy.

He didn't even bother to look at me. 

Y/N: Dad please, it's important. 

Dad: I told you not now. Can't you get that in your head?

He yelled at me. I am not that sensitive. But how long can a person stay strong? From my childhood to now, I have never received any love. Because of my dad's position, no one actually ever tried to become my true friend. They always came to me for my dad's money. And they would always make it so obvious that I would decline those fake friendships. 

My tolerance was coming to an end. All the treatments I was getting from my family, my fiance, my classmates were making me feel so used. Everyone was using me. One for business, one for desire or obsession, others for money. 

Y/N: If you don't have time then I will just inform you that I am not going to marry Jungkook. I can't marry someone who sleeps with others. And obviously there is no surety that he won't do it even after our marriage. 

Finally he looked up at me. Irritation and anger visible in his expression. 

Dad: What did you just say?

Y/N: I said that I won't marry Jungkook. Please don't force....ahhh.

My words got cut as I felt a hand on my left cheek marking five fingers on my soft skin. He slapped me. Tears trekked down from my eyes.

Dad: Don't you dare spell that sentence again. You will marry him. 

Y/N: I don't want to.

I whispered but he heard it.

Dad: I am warning you Y/N. Don't test my patience. Do you want your family to die?

Y/N: What are you talking about? 

Dad: I have already taken money from them. Now if you don't marry him then he will simply kill me and your brother and eventually take you. Either way you are going to end up with him. So why are you just making things complicated?

I just looked down, not knowing what to say or do. I didn't say anything else and just went to my room. I sat on my bed crying. I didn't have any more energy to keep up with all these. The river of tears will never stop streaming from my eyes. They are destined to flow from these two eyes for the rest of my life. 

I got up undressing myself as I turned on the shower, letting the freezing water hit my skin. After two hours under the water, I came out wrapping a towel around my body. 

I froze on my step as I saw a person sitting on my bed, his one leg crossed over another. Jungkook. He checked me out from head to toe. I became red out of embarrassment as I was only in my towel.

JK: You look hot babygirl with wet hair and just a piece of towel.

He got up and made his way towards me as I started going backwards. It was continuing until my back hit the cold wall of the washroom being trapped between his arms as he leaned in. 

JK: Why didn't you listen to me?

Y/N: ..............

JK: So you are not going to answer huh? I asked why you didn't listen to me when I called you?

Y/N: I didn't want to listen to you.

JK: Do you hate me?

I shoot up my head to look at him. I don't know why he is asking that question. 

Y/N: What?

JK: I asked do you hate me?

Y/N: Why are you asking that?

JK: Stop questioning and just answer my fucking question. 

Now I wanted to piss him off. I don't know from where I got that courage but I said something which surprised me too. Because what I said was not true but still I said.

Y/N: What if I say yes?

JK: You are trying really hard to get it huh?

Y/N: Tell me one reason for me to not hate you. Give me a reason to love you. 

JK: Don't test me princess. I never showed you who I really am. So don't try to find out. It will be your worst nightmare. 

He said his last word whispering in my ear sending chills all over my body. He swiftly slipped one of his hands behind my waist smashing his well built body on my small thin one grinding on me. Another hand went behind where the hem of the towel was locked. I gasped as I felt him slowly pulling it out.

Y/N: J-Jungkook w-what are you d-doing?

JK: How can you expect me to not do anything when you are looking this much tempting?

My mouth fell apart hearing his words. 

JK: You know why I am so obsessed over you? 

I looked at his eyes trying to find the answer. 

JK: Because you are so unique. So different from each and every girl I have ever seen. So beautiful. So fucking precious. So innocent. So loveable. So addicting. You are more dangerous than any drugs out there. I feel like I might die from a drug attack if I don't see you at least once a day. And this addiction is getting deeper by each passing day. 

He was saying all these things in his deep raspy voice. Nearly whispering on my lips. But his hand was also doing it's work which was to slowly undone my towel until my whole backside was naked against the wall. The towel now was only covering the front side of my body. He was about to remove the whole towel when my voice stopped him.

Y/N: Then why do you sleep with other girls? If I am this much addicted then why do you go to them?

JK: For my sexual pleasure. But once you completely give yourself to me then I don't think any other girl can even come near my mind let alone my body.

He winked at me.