Chapter 038

Still past

I clean Sasha drool with a napkin.

Onyankapon was showing a blueprint and here is Sasha. Eventually Jean and Connie got into some argument because of Hanji plan.

"Ah by the way why do you have dark skin Onyankopon."

I hit her head.

"Sasha that is rude"

I turn to him.

"Sorry its new for us to see people with different skin colors."

"Ah it's okay Violet well it because our creator thought it's more interesting with a mix of people"

I look at him. Is it a religion of some sort?

"You subjects of Ymir are the same. We exist because we were wanted."

" who wanted us"

I ask. Was everyone created for a reason? Was I brought here for a reason?

He turns to me.

"Violet yo"

"You aren't an Eldian."

I turn to see her. She was standing there with a smirk.

She came over to us.

"You were born outside the walls. Isn't that right?"

"What do you know" I responded back to her. She walks closer to me and whispers in my ear.

"Your father really did well on trying to hide your family legacy but maybe he should have wished for it to disappear."

Timeskip

I lay under the outdoor rooftop. The sun was coming up. I tied my hair up into a ponytail. I smelled something. It smelled nice. I stood up and saw a table full of food.

There was lobster, clams, shrimps, pasta, and food from modern times. I had a great meal today. My stomach had finally gotten full for the first time but I felt sick at the same time.

It was finally time to practice shooting."Wow that was such good aim. Violet please help me"

"Sasha fine just don't jump out like that. First, you hold your position. Focus on you I'm and then pull."

"That doesn't even make sense"

"She always like that"

I turn to see Eren and the other two.

"What do you mean by that"

"It is true when I ask you for help on how to have better stamina. I didn't understand a thing."

"Armin I explained it really well. Mikasa understood as well."

"You and Mikasa understand each other very well"

"They are almost done With the port"

I pulled the hair tie off my head. It hurt whenever I tie it up. My head felt bad enough.

"When are you going to cut it"

"Till I feel like it"

Eren grab a strand of my hair. Now that I look at it. It was long. It reaches my waist.

"Armin have you seen Bertolt's memories."

He looks over in Armin's direction. I turn to see him tense up.

"Yeah, but there isn't anything helpful."

He turns back to me.

"Violet you do you remember anything about your father"

To be honest I couldn't even lie to him.

"His sister was name Violet as well. I don't really remember anything more than that."

He seems a bit relaxed.

"But I think there is something about his family. Could he still be alive out there."

"There not much time left Zeke has three years left."

"I should have killed that monkey"

"Do we have to go along with Yelena's plan?"

I look at Armin. Mikasa turns to him.

"What's the problem"

"If we can fix Marley and the world misconception"

I walked over to Armin and put my hand on his shoulder. It's nice that there are people like him.

"Misconception what misconceptions"

"You know like how are we scary"

He reloads his rifles.

"The world sees us as monsters who can turn into titans. They're not wrong."

"Eren"

"Eren what is that supposed to mean"

He didn't answer. How can the world change just like that? It was made to hate Paradise. There is nothing that can be changed about that.

"But given enough time" Armin responded.

"Yeah we need more time"

"But we"

Before he could finish. I reloaded my rifle and shot the glass behind him.

It broke. I look at the glass shatter slowly. How this felt slower than before.

"Violet"

The loud bang. The glass shreds were everywhere.

I turn to Mikasa. At this point, they are more logical. Mikasa still has a heart. But I don't l.

"It ended like this too. Would they follow the scrip till the end?"

I walked closer to her.

" The fighting won't end would it."

"VIOLLLLETT CANNN I HAVVVVVE YOUUR BREADDD"

I drop the rifle and turn to Sasha. She was waving her hands like an idiot. I can see you from here. Before I walk away I turn to them.

"If the world were the same would it matter or is this a new future."

Present time

I look down onto her grave. I clench my hand into a fist. The tears fell down my cheeks. I look down.

I couldn't control anything. I thought I could at least prevent you. I thought I had the advantage here but that doesn't look like it. I tried to prevent you from leaving. Couldn't you have not known me too well? Why did you bother? Just why did you leave first.

"Why should I live well. When you had a life before you."

I fell down to my knees. I had brought the bread.

"I never like bread at all. It taste horrible, I've never understood why you like eating this. The first time that you told me to smile. I honestly didn't know what a true smile was. Couldn't you have lived?"

I started to shake. My hair flew over the grave.

"Who would do my hair. Isn't this selfish of you."

The rain pours down onto the grass. My hair covers my face.

I lost people.

These people have feelings as well. Wasn't I the one with a poker face? I thought I could save you at least. I couldn't save my mother, Hannes, or you, Sasha. Who am I fighting for I couldn't save anyone?

Am I really crying for you? I look over to where Mikasa was. Had it really been a day? My clothes were wet, I hadn't changed from the green coat. Has it been a day with you gone? Time really passed by doesn't it. I can't even think anymore. If I was honest could that have prevented it?

I look up to the sky to see the clouds. I look down to the grave.

"You have to get up now"

I turn to see them all

Armin, Mikasa, Connie, Jean, and is it Nicolo.

I turn back to the ground.

"Violet it had been two days. You haven't eaten. Please just come. You probably have a fever"

I listen to his words. Armin, I'm sorry but it hurt too much. I place my hand over my heart. Two days is it really that long. It doesn't feel long. I touch her grave. You are buried underneath me. Could I still reach you? I gently put my hand on the grave. You were there whenever I thought about the future.

I close my eyes.

"Your name is Violet, well I'm Sasha by the way"

"My friend Violet you weren't about to throw that right"

"I thought you were going to die. Die right in front of me its scary."

"Aye how come you don't smile. Like smile Violet. You are truly a wonderful person"

"I held my hand out. I held it out. The way you did when I was going to give up. I'll lend you my strength just don't die here."

"No this time I will do the rest. Do you really think I couldn't make it this far? Haha, I survived and am living right now. I will fight along with you so let's hurry"

Tears started to flow down. I moved my hand away from the grave. You are still here right. . You are doing well right. I'm glad you made it this far. You truly made it this far. I'm happy for you.

"Idiot didn't I tell you not to cry now. Who is the baby now me or you? Now hurry to him, go knock some sense into him.

I look to see her, She was smiling. I'm sorry for not putting in the effort. I would fight for both of us. The freedom we deserved.

Armin POV

"It really did surprise me when she shot the rifle close to him. Annie, you like Violet too. I also think she likes you as well. She didn't kill you when she could have. I never understood her till now"

I look down onto Sasha's grave, it was known that she protected Violet from being shot. Would I be the same if it was Violet? I am really a devil.

Has it been a day, Mikasa walked through the door.

"Is Violet still out there"

She nodded, I have to go

She held onto me

"Armin this is the first time, I've seen her like this. You know how close their relationship was. She may need some time alone. Just like Hannes so leave her be"

She was right. She was there first person she'd had opened up to other than us. I should leave it be. I hoped she doesn't get sick.

"Is she still"

"Connie calm down."

I tried to calm him down but he rush outside.

Her hands look pale.

"I thought I could save you"

Her voice was weak and sounded low.

"VIOLET GRT A HOLD OF YOURSELF SASHA WOULDN'T LIKE THIS AT ALL SHE TOLD YOU TO LIVE WELL DIDN'T SHE. SHE GAVE YOU HER LAST WORDS DIDN'T SHE NOT EVEN US BUT YOU"

Connie yelled at her.

"Idiot"

I heard her voice

She stood up. But fell straight to the floor.

"My legs have fallen asleep"

I ran to help Her but she moved.

She's stood up. She turns to the grave.

"I'll keep fighting till the end."

End of Armin POV

"Goodbye, Sasha."

I turn away from her grave. My tears had dried I walked away. But I stop and turn to them.

I shouted to them

"Thank you Connie don't worry I'll treasure her last words

This felt more difficult than before. I had been here countless times because of the deaths. And you are the only one who matters here. I'm selfish Sasha. So I would go the way I want it to go.