Chapter 12 - Heartbroken

27th August 2002:

I driving to Mike's house, he was probably sick of me asking so I went uninvited, he probably didn't care seeing me tho, he said he loved me after all. Finally the fear of being on the road had faded and the grief of Zane wasn't flooding me as much, despite me constantly thinking about him and missing him like crazy. Reanimation was in my CD player, the first time any other album than Hybrid Theory was in there for a few months. 

I stopped the car outside the Shinoda household and locked my door when I was outside of the car. "Mike!" I shouted, hoping he could hear me, but he couldn't. "I'm glad I could come over Mikey" A girls voice is what I could hear from outside, "Huh?" My legs took me to the window, I started into the Pane and a small girl was talking to Mike, for some reason he looked a little uneasy. I had to investigate and took out the keys to unlock the door. Something was off and I didn't like it. The door closed behind me quietly and I paced myself in to the living room to see the girl on top of Mike, putting her dirty lips on to my fiance. "What the fuck is this?!" I shouted loudly and the girl stood rapidly, she looked me in the face, "Who the fuck are you, fatty?" She glared, which intimidated me. "I'm Mike's fiance, and I may be fat because inside here I'm growing a baby that Mike is the father to!" I pointed to my stomach and pushed the dirty bitch and Mike stood, with tears in his eyes, "Girls calm down!" Fury filled me and I grabbed Mike, "Calm down!? CALM DOWN?! YOU ARE CHEATING ON ME WITH THIS BITCH!" The tears filled my eyes and my vision became cloudy. I couldn't believe Mike was cheating on me, he said he loved me and that he wanted to marry me.

"You're pregnant!? And Mike is the father?! What the fuck Mike I thought we were together and you were fucking this fat cow. I thought better of you" Her disgusting face shrivelled up like a prune when she looked at me and gave a good punch to the side of my face, knocking me over. "Oh you seriously know how to give good punches, but I can do better" I practically flew up from the ground and launched my full body force towards her. I grabbed the collar of her shirt and flung her to the ground. I got on top of her, punching her again and again and again. "Ruby, Jess. Stop this!" Shinoda grabbed my shirt from the back and lifted me up off the ground and dropped me back on to my feet. He stood in between us and Jess got off the ground, "Fuck you, both of you" I stormed off, "And you can take these back too!" I threw the keys at Mike's face and they hit him, he ran after me while I rushed to my car to get in as quick as possible. "Ruby please, I can explain!" He grabbed my arm, and I swung myself around, "Touch me one more time and you wont have the time to explain yourself! And get back, fuck you." I took my ring off and did the same that I did to the keys, threw it at his teared up face.

I jumped in my car, "Ruby please I was-" I couldn't hear anymore of the sentence, this was because of the wheel spin I pulled as I sped off. To be honest, I didn't want to hear the sentence he tried to say to explain his way out of cheating on me. "Fuck you, fuck you, FUCK YOU MIKE" I punched the wheel I was steering with and started to cry.

When I got home I never slammed the house door so loudly. I ran upstairs to rip the pictures of Mike off of my wall and cry hard. The thought came to my mind that I should phone Chester, he was my helping hand if Mike was not, and was overall a great guy. I dialed Chester's number. "Hi soon to be Mrs Shinoda haha!" Chester greeted to me, it made me sad and I choked up before I could speak, I went silent, "Ruby?" His reassuring voice give me the confidence to speak up and tell him, "Hey Chaz, I gotta tell you something" My shaky voice made Chester know that this was serious so he told me to 'Go Ahead.' "I uhh.. I went to Mike's house earlier and he was erm... Uh.." My voice stopped again, "He was what?" Chester questioned, "He was cheating on me with a girl, I don't know what to do Chester please help me" He gasped loudly, I heard it so clearly over the phone. "Right, I'm coming over. Bye Ruby and hang in there" Chester hung up and rushed to my house.

20 Minutes Later...

"Hey Ruby, mind if I come in?" Chester asked, giving me a hug. "No not at all, can we go upstairs? I feel better being there." I walked upstairs and he followed behind, nodding. We both sat on my bed and he put his arm around my shaking shoulders. "Hey, try to not get too worked up about this.." Chester rubbed my shoulder comfortingly and this made me a little calmer, "You know, before me and Samantha got married in the 90s, I caught her cheating on me with a man I still don't know. We were not properly back together for months afterwards until she came over and said sorry, we made up and got back together. It never happened again.." He cleared his throat as it was getting a little shaky, "I'm not saying you should forgive Mike, but its the best thing you can do. But if he does it again, then I'd consider leaving him for good" Chester covered his face with his slightly shaking hands and let out a sigh, "I thought he was better than this.." I hugged Bennington.

"Thanks for the little talk I really appreciated it" I thanked Chester, he made me feel like I wasn't alone and the fact he had gone through the same, it made me hopeful me and Mike would get back together. That thought made me angry, "No, I don't wanna get back with him, the cheater... But Chester said it would be the best thing to do... NO, MIKE CHEATED ON ME!" I faught angrily with myself and decided to go into my living room and lay down on my couch. "Well, baby. Looks like it's just you and me when you're born.." I rubbed my stomach, hoping my baby could feel my love...