Chapter 46

Chapter 46:

-          Liam’s POV –

Day 60:

I told you at the start of this story that it had been sixty days since I’d first realised that I was attracted to my best friend. That’s sixty days of torture. Sixty days of lust, jealousy, possession, frustration, and desperation. I love him so damn much that it actually hurts.

Everything hurts.

Which is why I can’t last another second.

For sixty days I’ve been cherishing every touch that we’ve shared, every moment that his eyes have met mine, every dazzling smile that he’d send my way, all of it. Words cannot even describe how much I long for him to love me back. I’ve spent weeks trying to hide these feelings but it’s no use; I’m at my limit. I hate our ‘friendship’. I always will. Because being ‘friends’ is the last thing I want from Niall. I want his everything. I want his heart, I want his body, I want his love. Actually, I don’t want it. I crave it.

I need it.

It’s gotten to the point that I can’t even be without him for a day without snapping. And that’s what I’ve just done. I’ve snapped.

And now it’s all about to end.

My eyes locked with Niall’s as I heard him draw in a shaky breath. My heart’s now pounding out of my ears; slowly driving me to the edge. I took a step towards Niall.

Ba-thump

I took another step towards him, he stared back at me.

Ba-thump.

I took another step towards him, he took a step back.

Ba-thump.

I took another step towards him, he was now backed up against the wall.

Ba-thump.

I took a final step towards him.

Ba-thump.

I wrapped an arm around his waist and cupped his cheek with my other hand and held him close. And just like that I closed my eyes and forced my lips hard onto his.

I thought I’d never touch you again.

I felt him tense but I didn’t pull back. I slowly and softly moved my lips against his; taking in the warmth of his lips against mine, and the fact that he was alive and breathing. Eventually I summoned the courage to slowly pull back and look him in the eye. His were staring straight back into mine with an expression that I didn’t recognise. My heart throbbed inside my chest. I wrapped my arms around him and buried my face into the crook of his neck and crushed him against me. I couldn’t face him.

“You’re okay...” I whispered; squeezing him tighter. I couldn’t help but hear the sound of Zayn choking in the background. I guess he must’ve spat out another drink or something.

“Come on, let’s leave them alone.” I heard Louis mumble; followed by the sound of scuffling footsteps. Moments later I heard the front door close and the house fell silent. I clung onto Niall for dear life.

“...Liam..?” I heard Niall’s voice murmur. I tightened my grip on him.

“I love you.” I murmured. I felt his body stiffen. “I know that you don’t love me back, but I can’t hide it any longer.” I continued.

“It hurts to not be with you.”

-          Niall’s POV –

Day 60:

“...Liam..?” I managed to get out.

Liam’s arms tightened around me and I felt my heart throb inside my chest.

“I love you.” He murmured. I froze. “I know that you don’t love me back, but I can’t hide it any longer.” He went on. “It hurts to not be with you.”

It took a few moments for the words to hit me, but when they did, I almost collapsed then and there.

My heart exploded.

I was about to hug him back when he suddenly pulled away from me. His eyes met mine and I watched as he flashed me a painful smile before turning and starting to walk away.

“Liam...” I murmured. He didn’t hear me.

“Liam.” I said; slightly louder. He still didn’t turn around.

“Liam!” I yelled. He froze and slowly turned back to face me. I clenched my fists.

“Why...” I murmured. He just stared back at me in confusion. “Why on Earth... would you think that I don’t love you..?” I gritted through my teeth. Now I was glaring at the ground; trying to hide how pissed I was at that idea.

Why..?

“The fuck do you mean why?!” He yelled back. I flinched. “Amy just pranked us and played a conversation that you two had had earlier! I heard what you said!”

Liam was almost trembling.

Wait, what? Amy had...

Oh shit.

“So what, you think that I’d just tell her the truth?! I couldn’t even tell you, so why the fuck would I tell her?!” I yelled back. The fact that Liam could actually believe such a ridiculous thing frustrated me beyond belief. He was about to retort back but he stopped before the words came out. His eyes softened and he took a step back towards me.

“Wait...” He murmured. He took another step closer. “So if you were lying... then that means...”

The idiot’s finally starting to get it...

I took a step back and jumped up so that I was sitting on the edge of the kitchen counter. I sighed and ran a hand through my hair as I looked back at him:

“It means that I love you, you idiot.” I breathed.

-          Liam’s POV –

Day 60:

“It means that I love you, you idiot.” Niall breathed.

My eyes grew wider than they’d ever been.

...is he serious..?

He flashed me my favourite smile.

I opened my mouth but the words wouldn’t come out. When I’d heard him say on the phone that he didn’t love me it’d felt like I’d been kicked in the stomach, but now it felt as if I’d just been hit by a truck.

“You... I mean... what..?” I choked. He bit his lip and stared back at me.

“But I thought...” I murmured; cutting myself off. I took a step forward and realised that we were already less than a metre apart.

When did that happen..?

 He was still staring back at me; waiting.

I don’t believe it...

“You...” I started but he cut me off.

“Liam?” He said. I took another step towards him.

“...yeah?” I murmured back. He smirked back at me with the crooked smile that I love and shifted his legs open to invite me forward.  I stumbled closer and closed the gap between us; planting my hands down on the counter on either side of him as I nervously gaped back at him. He matted a hand into my hair and brought our foreheads together and smiled even wider.

“Shut up and kiss me.” He smirked.

It felt like my heart was trying to crawl out of my throat.

I tilted my head to the side and started leaning closer; my gaze locked with his as my lips nervously drew closer to his. I closed my eyes and tried to close the gap but my body didn’t seem to want to do it. I could feel his breath on my lips and his hand tightened on my hair to encourage me on. His nose nuzzled mine and I held my breath.

He’s not pulling away...

“I’m waiting.” He whispered.

Fuck it.

I leant forward and forced my lips onto his.

The weird thing about it though was that I still wasn’t expecting him to kiss me back, so when he did, I had to pull back straight away out of almost fright. Niall didn’t find it weird though. He just giggled back at me and slid his hand down to the back of my neck and leant forward and crashed his lips back onto mine. This time I smiled and kissed back. 

This kiss wasn’t anything like our one that night at the club. It was dry and hesitant and of all things quiet.

There was no blaring music to drown everything out, nor the sound of rain or drunken laughter/whispering. Only the sounds of my lips slowly nudging Niall’s apart and his slowly nudging back. It seemed so much more intimate to kiss alone like this. I loved it. I started to gain confidence and take the lead; my hands slowly finding their way to Niall’s waist and pulling him close, and the moment I did Niall smiled wide against my lips and wrapped his arms around my neck as he let me in. 

It got more like our kiss at the club from there. Because once our tongues met Niall was sliding forward to push his body up against mine and I was starting to grip bruises into his hips and oh god I was getting worried because I couldn’t see how I could ever pull away from this. Now I had my tongue practically down Niall’s throat and he was actually encouraging me on; his arms tightening around my neck with every minute and his throat letting low groans slip whenever I sank my teeth into his bottom lip and his body now writhing against mine for more contact. At some point we’d gotten used to each other and our tongues had started to roll in sync, and soon we weren’t even two minutes in and were already gasping for air against each other’s lips. We didn’t pull back though.

Instead Niall started to push forward into my mouth, and once he was in I felt one of his hands slide down from my neck and start massaging my chest through my shirt. I groaned and slid a hand up under Niall’s shirt to go to do the same thing but then suddenly he used his hand on my chest to push me back.

Shit, did I go too far..?

My eyes locked onto Niall’s as I waited for him to catch his breath:

“Ah... I gotta... gotta slow down...” Niall mumbled. His lips slammed back onto mine and his hand slid to start groping my bicep instead. This time he choked his words out against my lips. “Stop before... Stop before I can’t get a handle on myself.” He growled. Our lips reconnected and he wrapped his arms tightly around my neck once more.

“Oh god Liam you’re making this bloody difficult.” Niall gasped. I was kind of confused but I figured I should just be enjoying every moment of this that I could regardless. I started to push forward into his mouth again and he grabbed my hair and practically forced me to go deeper. He couldn’t get enough of me.

Then he pulled back.

“Ah... Liam you gotta help me say no here.” Niall gasped. He still had an arm around my neck; keeping our foreheads together. I didn’t understand.

“Why on Earth would I help you stop kissing me?” I mumbled. I fisted my hands around his shirt at the small of his back and leant forward to kiss the corner of his mouth. I let my lips linger as I tried to catch my breath and Niall smiled nervously back at me.

“...’m not talkin’ ‘bout kissing here Liam.” He breathed. I still didn’t get it. “Just... just let me breathe for a second.”

I flashed him a smile and wrapped my arms around his waist and went to pull him closer to hug him but-

“Ah, Liam w-wai-“

“Ah.”

I gave Niall an incredulous look. He blushed and nervously bit his lip.

He was-

And just from-

“S-Sorry... i-it’s been a while...” He mumbled. I’d never even dreamt of something so ridiculously perfect as the way that that made me feel. I lost it.

I smashed my lips back onto Niall’s but this time I didn’t bother to wait for a reaction. I just veered off from his mouth and along his jaw line and then gradually found my way down the side of his neck; my lips and tongue sucking and gliding over every inch of skin that they could reach.

“Ah, Liam what are you-”

I sank my teeth into the side of his neck and slid my hand down over his ass and gave it a squeeze.

“Ah...”

My other hand started slowly massaging his thigh and edging its way up and Niall clenched a fist around my hair.

“I can stop if you want... or we could go up to my room and ...and kiss some more...” I mumbled. Niall groaned the second the words left my mouth and yanked me away from his neck to force his lips back onto mine.

“...in your bed..?” He growled into my mouth. I gripped his ass tighter. “...with the door locked..?”

“Unhh, whatever you want.” I groaned. Niall wrapped his legs around my waist and clawed a hand down over my chest to end up tugging at the waistline of my jeans, and honestly I’d have agreed to marriage at that moment if he’d asked. He dragged his lips away from my mouth and pressed them to my ear instead:

“I want you to fucking wreck me.” He gasped. “Repeatedly.”

Things kind of blurred out from there.

I clamped my hands around Niall’s thighs and lifted him from the counter, out of the kitchen, up the stairs, and towards my bedroom; Niall tonguing the life out of me and grinding against me the entire way. The moment we got close enough he blindly threw a hand out in front of us and slammed my door wide open.

I stumbled into my room with Niall wrapped around me and lowered his feet to the ground; lacing my fingers with his and slamming him up against the door the moment he caught his balance. Our lips collided and Niall smiled wide and squeezed my hands tight, and I smiled and squeezed back.

“Clothes... lose the clothes...” Niall gasped. I started trailing my lips down his neck again and he let go of our hands and fumbled to lock my door shut, and while he was struggling with that I fisted my hands around his collar and ripped his shirt apart. “Fuck, Liam.”

Niall wove his hands into my hair and kissed me again, and I was just starting to smile at the feeling when his hands slid to my shoulders and he started walking me back towards my bed. The backs of my legs hit the mattress and then Niall and I were falling down into the sheets; Niall straight away shifting to straddle my waist and fumble to get my jeans undone.

“Shirt.” Niall growled. I sat up slightly and pulled it over my head, and by the time it’d landed somewhere off to the left on the floor, Niall had already gotten my jeans undone and was yanking them off, along with my boxers. His lips connected with my chest and he began kissing me all over. First along my collarbones, then my pecks, then occasionally veering off and over my biceps, then down lower over my abs; running his tongue over the ridges and nipping at the skin as his hands slid down my sides and pinned me in place.

I’m just going to pause this to mention that I’m about to die of embarrassment and the fact that Niall’s currently pulling my legs apart and wedging himself between them really isn’t helping. I didn’t even really realise where he was going with this until he started trailing his lips up the inside of my thigh and began getting dangerously high up.

“Ah, Ni- you... you don’t have t-“

Niall wrapped his hand around me and licked a stripe right up the side from base to tip, just like that. I moaned and tilted my head back and bored it into the pillows at the feeling, and just knowing that Niall was the one working me over had me arching my back and grabbing at the sheets.

“Grab my hair if you want to.” He smirked.

Ah, shi-

Then he took me into his mouth and I lost my grip on reality completely.

“Ahhhh...” I moaned. Niall wrapped his tongue around me and started to move me in and out and I clenched my eyes tight shut. I hadn’t felt so good in what felt like years. He took me in deeper and started to suck and I cried out and let my eyes roll into the back of my head. My hand fumbled along the sheets until it found his hair and weaved its way in to encourage him on. I felt him smile around me before he sped up.

“Ni- Oh god, don’t stop.” I gritted. What’s even more embarrassing is that I’m not even two minutes in and my stomach’s already starting to tighten up. I’ve never been with someone in my life that had the power to make me become this undone this soon. Niall began to moan and take me right down his throat and I was a lost cause. I let go of his hair to grab at the sheets again and arched my back to try and hold myself together.

“I-I’m gonna...” I choked. Niall didn’t pull back. He just kept going and going and going until I was a writhing mess and seeing stars as wave after wave of pleasure coursed through me. Eventually my body relaxed and I collapsed back into the sheets, and once I managed to lift my eyes open I regretted it instantly. Niall was smirking back at me and wiping the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand. I turned scarlet.

You’re absolutely perfect.

I slowly sat up and grabbed Niall’s waist; pulling him forward until he was sitting on my lap, then flipped us over and pinned him into the pillows in my place.

“You’re really gonna regret that.” I mumbled.

-          Niall’s POV –

Day 60:

“You’re really gonna regret that.” Liam mumbled. I think a million shivers ran up and down my spine at once. He wasn’t even teasing. He was genuinely planning to wreck me now.

I loved it.

Our lips met and Liam slid his arms around me; one sliding up under my waist to pull our bodies together, and the other up behind my head to stop me from pulling away. Straight away I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back.

Apart from waking up on the floor this morning, today had been the best day of my life. Liam and I had finally kissed. Like, properly. Not a quick snog from Dark Liam, not an accidental kiss on his birthday, but a real kiss.

With love.

And not just one, but thousands of them. Liam was showering me with them. I made a personal note in my mind to thank Harry later on for giving me the motivation to chase after Liam. I fought back a smile. Maybe Harry had just been repaying the favour for Louis.

Anyway, back to the best day of my life.

By now Liam had sunken lower and was leaving love bite after love bite down the side of my neck, and I was struggling to find my breath. Every place his lips touched felt like it’d been set on fire and my entire body was aching for more. To make matters worse I was getting this feeling that Liam was the type who loved to drag stuff like this out and enjoyed the teasing and the touching more than the actual sex.

Oh god sex with Liam had me trembling just thinking about it, and I hadn’t even experienced it. Yet.

Oh god.

I wove my fingers into Liam’s hair to encourage him on and he smiled against my chest then sunk lower; running his tongue over one of my nipples then biting down hard and tugging it away from me. I cried out and clenched my eyes shut. He smiled even wider and continued on, but now his hand had found my other one and he was toying with that one as well as he sucked on the first. I was in heaven.

Liam started grinding into me as he worked and I arched my back and tugged on his hair to beg for more. What I’d apparently said that night at the club was true. Liam did belong between my thighs. Almost as if Liam had read my thoughts he smiled against my skin again and sank lower. His fingers hooked themselves into the waistline of my trackies and he began pulling them down painfully slow, taking my boxers with them.

Once they were gone I found myself blushing like an idiot, because now we were both naked and Liam was planning on doing very, very pleasurable things to me and I was still on fire. Then I wondered what Liam saw when he gazed down at me from his point of view and I blushed even darker. Once again Liam seemed to read my thoughts. Our lips reconnected and in between kisses he found the time to gasp out sweet words into my mouth.

“You’re adorable, Ni...” He mumbled. He’d wedged himself back between my thighs and was lifting my legs up and pinning them into my chest. “Absolutely incredible.”

He started groping my ass with both hands and smashed our lips together once more, and I of course had to blush even harder and choke out embarrassing gasps into his mouth.

“So cute...” He added. “You know that, right? What you looking like this does to me.”

“That doesn’t make any se-mmph..!”

Liam had slipped two of his fingers into my mouth and was adding a third. It took me a moment to realise what he wanted, but then I closed my eyes and licked them all over to try and help him out. I was starting to get really nervous now. I knew what happened next. Liam’s mind reading seemed to kick in again.

“I’ll make you feel it Ni... good and deep...” He mumbled. More blushing. He really was out to get me. He took his fingers out and I struggled to catch my breath.

“My first time and you’re not showing any mercy, I see...” I smirked. Liam froze above me with his lips on my neck and his hand halfway up the underside of my thigh. He pulled back to look me in the eye and I bit my lip.

“Ni, you...” He mumbled. “You haven’t done this before?”

I raised an eyebrow at him.

“What, you have?” I mused. I finally got him to blush.

“Well no but... you know... the roles aren’t that different for me...” He mumbled. I giggled up at him.

Oh god I needed to stop doing that.

Suddenly Liam’s lips were on mine again and he was kissing them apart. I smiled and once again slid my arms around his neck to kiss him back. Our tongues met and as Liam fought to overpower me I felt him start to nudge a finger in and I gasped and lost. I clenched my eyes shut and tugged hard on his hair, and he did nothing but shower me with kisses yet again as he started to loosen me up. At least that’s what I’d figured he was doing. But then he wrapped his hand around me and started to jerk me off and I got other ideas. After a while he added another finger and my arms slowly fell from around his neck and I collapsed back into the pillows. Liam’s lips broke away from mine and started trailing down my neck again, and the moment I moaned from that he slid in a third finger and I felt my body suddenly jerk into him for more. Liam smiled against my skin and began curling his fingers into that spot with every thrust. I blushed bright red and buried my face into the crook of his neck.

Dreaming was one thing but this was so much more personal than I’d expected. I was literally just lying there letting Liam do whatever he wanted to me. My body had gone so weak from his touch that I was useless at doing anything else.

Liam pulled his hand away from me and wove it into my hair to hug me against his chest as he sped his fingers up.

“Ahh... Liam it’s... I can’t take it...” I gasped. Liam pressed his lips to my ear and didn’t even complain when I dragged my nails down his back to beg for more. I was so close it almost hurt at this point. My body started rutting against Liam’s for more contact and suddenly Liam’s fingers were being forced in deeper and-

“Ah! Lia-aahhhh..!”

My back arched off the bed and I dug my head into the pillows as the heat surged through me.

“Fuck Liam, fu- Ahhh!”

The feeling was something close to euphoric, and I clung to Liam for dear life as I rode it out. My eyes rolled into the back of my head and all I could see was endless white flashes until the pleasure finally faded out absolutely ages later. My body had gone limp around his and I felt him pull back and lay me back down into the pillows and start running his tongue all over my stomach to clean me up. When I finally forced my eyes open again Liam was wiping his mouth with the back of his hand just like I’d done and smirking up at me from in between my thighs. I couldn’t help but wonder if anyone’s first time getting off like that had ever been that good.

I smiled breathlessly up at Liam and wove a hand into his hair, then yanked him forward and crashed our lips together once more. He rolled off of me and onto the bed beside me, but kept our lips connected and refused to give me a chance to catch my breath. After a while I’d caught it again but his lips had taken it right back. I gasped into his mouth and pushed a hand to his chest to pull back for a bit. Our eyes met and I felt I should say something but I didn’t know what. Liam rolled onto his back and smiled like an idiot up at the ceiling. I bit my lip when I noticed he was up again.

“I never thought I’d hear you say my name like that.” He breathed after a while. I kind of just zoned out for a bit as I laid there watching his chest rise and fall; watching those huge muscles of his expand and contract. It felt weird to just watch. I needed to feel them for myself.

I rolled to face him again and reached out; grabbing his bicep and forcing him to roll to face me too. I slid closer and Liam’s hand rested itself on my hip and started massaging it, and when I nuzzled my nose against his his lips parted and we were kissing once more. It was more sweet and lazy than before though. Because I had my head in Liam’s pillow and he basically did too, apart from the fact that he had to lean over me slightly to kiss me back.

I loved kissing Liam like this. I wanted to just lay here like this all day; warm bodies leaning against each other, hands slowly and gently feeling each other up, mouths blending into one as we kissed over and over and over again until I was smiling like an idiot because of it. But then Liam smiled against my lips and pulled away, then slid back so that he was leaning half upright against the headboard, and reached out for me. I smiled and slung my leg over Liam’s waist and sat on top of him; his hands finding my waist straight away and hugging me close to his chest as our lips reconnected. I slowly matted my hands into his hair and let him take the lead, leaving me free to notice other things.

Like that Liam seemed to love to have either his hands or arms around me at all times, and that no matter how much he touched me I still needed him even closer, and that god damn I was literally laying on top of him completely naked and waiting for him to take this further but he wasn’t taking the hint.   

I sighed and ran my hands down over his chest to start groping his muscles once again and speed things up, and Liam groaned into my mouth at the feeling of it. I smiled. He was so fit it was ridiculous.

“I need to start working out more to catch up to you.” I smirked. Liam frowned and bit down on my bottom lip before nuzzling his nose against mine; keeping our foreheads together as he caught his breath.

“Don’t you dare, I love your body exactly how it is.” He growled.

I frowned back and he sighed against my lips.

If you love my body so much then why aren’t you doing anything else to it?

I felt one of his hands cup my cheek as he started nudging my mouth open again.

“You fit in my arms perfectly...” He gasped. “Don’t go and screw that up.”

Ah, maybe...

“Liam...” I mumbled. Liam slid his hand down and gave my ass a squeeze but brought it back up again.

“Mmm?” He murmured.

Gah, I should just ask.

“...did you want me to be on top?” I mumbled. Liam sank his teeth into my bottom lip a bit too hard probably out of shock and I groaned and matted my hands back into his hair and tried to kiss him deeper. But he was still kind of stunned.

“Wha-What are y-yo-“

“You’re not taking the lead so... did you want me to do the work..?” I mumbled. Liam gripped my hips tighter and I took that as a sign to go on. “I-It’s my first time and all but I guess if that’s what you want then I can try t-“

Liam flipped us over and pinned me face first into the pillows; his hands clenched tightly around my hips and pinning me in place as his lips rediscovered my neck. He started groping me again and I found myself blushing like an idiot when he lifted my waist and nudged my legs apart. He tugged on my earlobe with his teeth and nuzzled his face into my hair.

“Ni, if that’s what you want then...” He gritted. I felt him press right into me and I closed my eyes and buried my face into the pillow. “I don’t wanna- ...you gotta tell me what you want.”

I shifted to all fours and reached a hand back to grab Liam’s hair and force him to kiss me. I was so damn nervous all of a sudden and I didn’t really understand why. I pushed it aside though, because Liam’s lips were hot and comforting and now tasted like a mixture of the two of us.

“I want you, Liam.” I breathed. “Make me yours.”

What? It’s Liam after all, he probably loves me being cheesy... maybe.

Liam smiled wide against my lips and I smiled back just as hard. He slid his hands up my sides to hold me tight and I felt him line himself up behind me, and the moment I closed my eyes and held my breath he started to push his way in. He tightened his grip and it wasn’t until then that I actually wondered if we should be using protection but oh god I didn’t reall-

“Ahhh..!” I choked. Liam froze above me and I felt his fingers loosen so that they weren’t digging into my ribs anymore. That obviously wasn’t the problem though.

“Wh-What is it? Is it too much?” Liam panicked.

Are you serious right now? Are you trying to fish for compliments or something? Of course it’s too much this is my first time and you’re hung like a fucking horse and-

“It didn’t hurt when I dreamt it...” I gasped.

Oh god I didn’t mean to say that, oh god, oh god, oh go-

Liam let go of my sides.

“Ni- you...” He started but he cut himself off. Suddenly he was gripping my waist and pushing himself all the way in. I lost my breath. He started kissing up along my spine and didn’t stop until he’d reached my jaw, but once he was there he nuzzled his face into my hair and pressed his lips to my ear. “You dreamt of us..?” He whispered. 

Liam slid his arms around me; one wrapping itself around my stomach and pulling our bodies flushed together and the other sliding up over my chest to rest his hand over my heart. He started running his fingers over my collarbone and kissing all down the side of my neck and along my shoulder. I groaned and let my head fall down to face the sheets. That wasn’t a good idea. Now I could see Liam’s legs right behind mine and a very obvious lack of something that was currently some place I was trying not to think about.

By now Liam had worked his way back up to my neck and was pressing his lips to my ear like before. This time I could feel him smiling probably as wide as he could.

“You shouldn’t say things that make me this happy when I’m already struggling to keep it together.” He urged. He started kissing along my jaw but gave up and ran his tongue along the ridge instead, then veered off down my neck and started on yet another love bite.  I moaned and Liam tightened his arms around me. “...I’ll kiss you ‘til the pain goes away.” He growled.

As sweet and as stupidly hot as Liam was being right now though, I didn’t want him to kiss me. Not just kiss me at least. I wanted him to make me feel good, so that I could finally have him as close and as intimately as I’d been yearning for for the past few weeks.  I nervously unclenched a fist from Liam’s sheets and fumbled it along my stomach to find his own, then slowly wove my fingers into his and squeezed his hand tight.

“Li... Liam make... make me feel good...” I gasped. I was finally starting to adjust to Liam and it was freaking me out more than anything that I couldn’t feel him as much now as I had before. I felt him smile into my neck then bite down; grazing his teeth up along my skin until he reached my ear again.

“I’ll worship you to pieces...” Liam whispered. Suddenly he was guiding my hand lower and dragging it up the inside of my thigh; his fingers running over my skin in between my own and making me instantly forget about what we should be doing right now. He guided my hand further up and in between my legs and wrapped it around me, then wrapped his own around my hand and started to slide our hands up and down in sync. I moaned and dropped my head back down again. I didn’t open my eyes this time.

Liam slowly found our hands a steady rhythm, and just when I was starting to moan from that he began trailing his lips down over my shoulder blade and towards my side; veering off along my ribs once he got low enough and then sucking one of my nipples into his mouth. I gasped and Liam tightened his hand around mine and sped up. My arm that was currently holding me up started to go weak. The feeling of Liam being beneath me, above me, behind me, inside me and just literally all around me at the same time was overwhelming. I felt Liam smile against my chest and that made it even worse.

“Are you always this sensitive... or is this just for me...?” He mumbled. I flushed bright red and clenched my eyes as tightly shut as they could go.

“Sh-Shut up...” I groaned. Liam smiled even wider, then began to roll his hips and move himself around a bit to make me even more overwhelmed. I tilted my head back all the way and a moan slipped from the back of my throat. Liam gradually started to move more and eventually I needed both hands to keep myself from falling over, but when I took mine away so did Liam and his hands both slid to grip my hips. His lips slowly trailed their way back to my neck and soon they’d disappeared completely; leaving me to focus on nothing but the feeling of him grinding himself in and out of me as I knelt there with my eyes shut. My body felt like it was about to explode. When I thought I could manage it I started rolling my hips with Liam’s and clenched both fists tightly around the sheets.

“Oh god Liam...” I gasped. Liam sped up and slid a hand up my back to grab my shoulder and started rocking me back and forth in time with him. I lost my strength, and the moment Liam noticed he grabbed me by my hips and literally picked me up and carried me forward until I was kneeling in front of the headboard with my face and chest pinned up against the wall. “Ahhh...”

Suddenly Liam was whispering in my ear and now sliding all the way in with every thrust; his body flushed right up against mine. He kept nudging against I’m guessing my sensitive spot and I was feeling so damn good with him this close behind me that I could barely hold myself together.

“Ni-I can’t...” He choked. “Can’t hold...”

Liam’s fingers were bruising into my hips and I actually got what he meant just from that. I bit down hard on my bottom lip for a moment before deciding to just go for it.

“It’s okay... you don’t... you don’t have to hold back...” I panted. “Go... Go as hard as you want.”

Liam didn’t change though. He just bored his head into my neck and slid his hands up to grip my waist instead as he kept moving.

“But it’s your firs..t ti-ahh...” Liam moaned. He tightened his grip. “I’m supposed... supposed to take care of you...”

Ugh, where was Dark Liam when I needed him?

“Take care of me by shagging me senseless.” I growled.

That was all it took.

Liam grabbed my arms and pinned them to the wall above my head and started slamming into me; jerking my body up and down onto his with every hit. I gasped and let my head fall back. I could feel the bed moving beneath us with every movement and that made me more embarrassed than anything else. Liam bored his forehead into my shoulder and sped up, and I realised that I had to just kneel there and take it. I blushed even harder.

“Oh god Liam, that’s it..!” I moaned. “M-More..!”

Liam bit down on my shoulder and went harder; groaning into my skin with every slam and driving me even closer to my finish. My legs started to go weak and Liam let go of my arms to grab my hips and keep us flushed together as he started bottoming out with every thrust. He’d found my sweet spot again and was mercilessly ramming into it. I cried out and clenched my fists as tight as they could go and buried my face back into the wall. I’d never felt something so mind-blowingly good in my entire life. I started choking Liam’s name out with every hit and as he turned me into a shaking mess I tried and failed to move my body with his. I was so damn close I couldn’t breathe.

“Li...ah... Li-Liam...” I stuttered. “Any mo..re and I’ll...”

Liam slid his arms around me and held me close as he went all out, and I didn’t even have time to yell his name again before the pleasure was ripping through me and rendering me motionless as I hit my high and rode it out; Liam’s body still jerking into mine making me feel even more incredible and dragging the feeling out as long as he could. I vaguely heard him choke my name and then he was tightening his grip and squeezing me tight as he hit his high as well.

I didn’t come back down and he didn’t let me go for what felt like hours. And when he did let go, we collapsed back into the pillows and each other and gasped for dear life.

-          Liam’s POV -

Day 60:

Niall and I both collapsed into the sheets and I stared mindlessly up at the ceiling as we gasped for air. My body was now completely drained and I could still feel the pleasure draining out of me as I sucked in the oxygen around me.

Holy fuck...

“That...” I breathed; pausing mid sentence to catch my breath again. Niall rolled to face me and snuggled up against my chest; slinging his arms around my neck and nuzzling his nose into my cheek. I wrapped an arm around his waist and held him close. We kind of just laid there for a while and panted and gasped as we struggled to get ourselves under control again.

“-was amazing.” Niall continued for me; still panting just as hard as I was. My heart throbbed inside my chest at the fact that I could make him feel that good. Niall hugged me tighter and nuzzled his face into the crook of my neck. He let out a long sigh and I think I blushed all over. The room fell silent for a bit but eventually he was the one to break it:

“I can’t believe...” Niall breathed. The room fell silent again.

“...believe what..?” I gasped. Niall pulled out of my neck to pull that favourite crooked smile of mine back at me and my heart almost gave out.

“I can’t believe that Liam Payne just shagged my brains out.” He mused. I couldn’t help myself. Obviously he hadn’t been going to say that but-

I smashed my lips onto his and ended up giggling like an idiot against his mouth. He smiled and giggled back.

You’re my kind of perfect.

“Way to kill the moment...” I chuckled. He giggled even more and slid a hand to cup my cheek, then leant forward and touched our lips together again. When neither of us pulled back we ended up staring at each other for a bit.

“...I love you so damn much.” I whispered. I lazily reached a hand up to his and took it in mine; interlacing our fingers and bringing our hands to my lips to kiss. Niall smiled wide and kissed them too.

“Right back at you...” Niall murmured. He squeezed our hands tight and kissed them again. “...so damn much.”

I blushed and bit my lip for a moment, then closed my eyes and leant in and kissed him again; our lips slowly and softly melting together as our hands squeezed each others’ tighter. Eventually he pulled back and sighed before nuzzling his nose against mine.

“I can’t believe this finally happened.” He breathed. I smiled and nuzzled back. 

“...we’re just getting started.” I murmured.