Chapter 3

Chapter 3:

 - Liam's POV -

Day 2: 

Ugh. I didn't sleep a wink.

I was up all night thinking about Him. I can't even think his name anymore without blushing.

Why is this happening?

Why now?

Why me?

I sighed.

...I still haven't even begun to think about what I'm gonna do now. I guess I'll just have to try and figure out if this is more than physical...

Oh god. What if it is? Does that make m-

You know who casually walked through my room and into the bathroom in his boxers. What the actual fuck. I tried to say something:

"O...Oi! What are you doing?" I managed to get out. He turned around and stared back at me looking kind of shocked, I guess he thought I was asleep.

"O...Oh! Morning Liam!" He said. I couldn't help but look him up and down. He was shirtless for Christ sake, and to add to that, he was wearing those ass tight Calvin Klein briefs. You know, the ones that are black and sit on your hip bones. My stare went from his bare shoulders down to his chest and ab muscles, then to the V his hip bones made as they went into his und-

"You alright, Liam?" Niall interrupted.

Oh crap, how long was I staring, did he notice?

"Ye-Yeah..." I stuttered out.

Get it together Liam.

"The hot water's out in my shower, so I was just gonna use yours..." Niall said awkwardly.

Crap, he must have noticed. Damn it! Quick, say something!

"Go right ahead, I'll meet you downstairs." I said as I got up and walked out the door.

 Great job Liam; fleeing the scene and managing to look anything but casual. Well done.

As soon as I shut the door behind me I almost fell apart. My heart was pounding out of my chest. I collapsed under the pressure against my door. I slid down to the floor and sat there leaning against it with my head in my hands.

This is not good. I can't even be around him without giving myself a heart attack. And to top it off, it took all I had to stop myself from pouncing on him then and there.

I licked my lips.

Oh that'd be glorious... to push him up against a wall and smash my lips onto his, to trail my lips down his neck as he gasped and wove his hands into my hair, to tug at the belt of his jeans to try and- Holy crap, snap out of it you idiot.

Well, I'm definitely attracted to him. There's no fucking doubt about that. But is that it or do I actually like him..? I've got to find out but... how? I can't even think his name without bein-"Liam?"

My thoughts were interrupted once again.

This is gonna happen a lot now, isn't it?

I looked up to see Harry staring down at me. He looked concerned. "You alright?" He asked; bending down to my level.

"Yeah... Just tired..." I sighed. Harry helped me up and put his arm around my shoulder.

"Let's go get some breakfast then." He smirked. I nodded wearily and we walked downstairs and into the kitchen. No one else was up yet. Harry got out a frying pan, a spatula, a tub of butter, and a jug of pancake mix from the cupboard. "You look like you could use a pick me up." He smirked before he started to dig around in the fridge. I smiled weakly and leant my elbows on the breakfast bar bench top. I buried my head in my hands again and continued trying to figure out what the hell was going on inside of me. I had to figure out if my feelings for him were purely physical or if I wanted more.

I must have zoned out for at least ten minutes because when I was brought back to reality breakfast was ready. Harry set down a plate of steaming hot pancakes in front of me and the smell alone had me drooling a little. He'd made some special strawberry looking sauce and had drizzled it all over the pancakes; soaking them with sugary goodness. They were also covered in fresh strawberries, icing sugar, whipped cream, melted chocolate, and ice cream.

"Jesus Christ Harry." I said in awe. "These look brilliant."

"Thanks Liam." Harry grinned, he had the world's biggest smile on his face. You could tell that he loved a good compliment.

"What looks brilliant?" I heard Louis chime in as he entered the kitchen; sitting down on the bar stool next to mine. "Morning lads." He added with a smile. Until a second ago I didn't think Harry's smile could have gotten any bigger but Louis had proved me wrong. Harry's face lit up like a Christmas tree. Like always, I mused.

"Morning Lou." Harry grinned as he turned around and started making plates for everyone. I went back to my thoughts and was interrupted again, this time by Louis:

"You alright mate?" He asked, putting his hand on my shoulder.

Damn, why is everyone noticing?

I sighed. I might as well talk to someone about it; and who better than Louis? He was always the person to cheer me up when I had a broken heart. Wait, my heart's not broken, it's confused. I don't even know if Niall likes me back yet so how can it be heart bro- Ahhh, shit.

I glanced up to check that Harry wasn't listening.

"...have you ever... you know... been attracted to a mate that you really shouldn't?" I asked slowly. Louis didn't react yet. "...and like... how do you know if you just find them hot or if you actually like... you know... want all of them?"

"Wow, this is rare." Louis teased. "Liam asking me for love advice? This must be serious!"

My face didn't change. Louis realised I was in distress and his expression changed. He stared at the bench top for a while and smiled wearily.

"Yeah... I have..." He murmured. He took me by surprise. I wasn't expecting first hand help on this. Louis' face slowly twisted from normal cheery Louis to a very troubled Louis. I bit my lip. He smiled weakly and glanced up at Harry for a second then looked back to me. "...So what's the problem?"

"I can't... I can't figure it out." I mumbled; re-burying my head in my hands. "I have no idea how I'm supposed to figure it out when I can't even say their name aloud, let alone have a conversation with them..."

Okay just saying that out loud sounds stupid. Anyone who hears that would instantly assume you like the person you're talking about.

...but this is someone too important and risky to start liking so that must be the reason for my reaction.

Not that I 'like' them. I can't like Hi-

"-You wanna know what I did?" Louis murmured. That troubled Louis expression was now gone and had been replaced with his normal cheerful one again.

"Wh-What?" I mumbled. Louis grinned wide back at me:

"I kissed them." He smirked. My eyes went wide.

"What the he-!" I started yelling but was cut off by Louis throwing his hand over my mouth. "Mmmphf!"

Harry turned around startled. Louis waved him off and he shrugged and went back to the pancakes.

"Not so loud!" Louis hissed. He was suddenly really on edge. When he thought I wasn't going to yell out anymore he slowly removed his hand.

"...but how did you..?" I asked quietly. That very troubled Louis look was back.

"I pretended I was drunk..." Louis trailed off; his voice catching at the end.

Oh, that must have been...

I gave him a worried look and he smiled back at me.

"It's alright now." He assured me. "I've dealt with it."

"Oh..." I mumbled. I tried to get a read on his expression but only found sadness and... longing? I guess it mustn't have gone well. "...what happened?" I asked hesitantly. Louis paused for a long time before answering:

"I did figure it out... but they were like really shocked and I couldn't stand seeing that look on their face, so I pretended not to remember the next day." Louis murmured; back to very troubled Louis again. I was speechless. I felt horrible.

When did this happen and how hadn't I noticed..?

"Lou, I-" I started but he just smiled back at me.

"I've dealt with it, Liam." He assured again. I didn't believe him.

"So who's the lucky one?" He asked me; back to cheery Louis again. My face went bright red. He smiled and an evil look came over his face. "Oh my god, it's someone I know isn't it?!"

"Shhh!" I hissed. I glanced up to see if Harry had noticed but as usual, he hadn't. "I can't say..." I trailed off. I was blushing like an idiot. Louis continued to smirk back at me until Harry set a plate of pancakes down in front of him. Louis licked his lips and started digging into his breakfast. I went back to my thoughts.

Kiss him, huh? That could be interesting...