Chapter 30

Niall's P.O.V.

"This tour change is so goddamn stressful." Zayn groaned as we sat on the plane.

"I know first they tell us we're going to New York then they change it to Cali and now it's back to New York. I'm sick of this terrible planning." Liam was high strung as it was but adding all this extra pressure has turned him into a mess for the most part. We were all exhausted and as soon as we landed in Cali they put us back on a plane to New York.

"I know we're all strung out but let's just keep it down. Abigail is still sleeping." I hushed them. She slept the entire way to Cali and now she's fallen back to sleep on this flight. I'm a little concerned cause all she drank was coffee and has yet to eat anything substantial. 

"I don't wanna add even more negativity to this atmosphere but what are we going to do about that whole situation?" Louis asked and the air seemed to stiffen in the tiny plane. 

"I don't know. I mean what are the chances of him actually finding her. She's in the states and he seems way too cheap to spend the money it would take to even come to the same place to find her. I don't think we need to worry about it too much but we should definitely keep an eye out." I told the boys and they all agreed probably too tired to come up with a better thought.

Just wait.

Abigail's P.O.V.

"I'm not hungry." I groaned as Niall yet again offered me food. We were sitting in some room inside one of those huge buildings, a skyscraper or whatever, waiting for a few members of their management team to arrive. 

"Abby, you have to eat. You haven't eaten in nearly two days. It'll make you feel better." He pleaded with me as I rolled my eyes. 

"There's only one thing that's going to make me feel better and you're sure as hell not going to get me that." I smirked which made him furrow his brows. His lips turned into that disapproving snarl but as soon as he was about to say something a few people walked in. 

"Hello boys." One of the ladies smiled as they sat down at the table in front of us. "So happy to have you here in New york with us today. Hope your flight was okay."

"Which one?" Zayn snarled under his breath. The woman looked up with an angry expression but ignored the comment. 

"We're very sorry about that of course but we seemed to have made a mistake with scheduling so you will be on the east coast for a bit. The main reason we have you here today though is to discuss promoting. You'll have a few interviews a couple signings and you'll be going on good morning america tomorrow morning. As of today, you'll be given time to rest and get ready for tomorrow. You'll be performing on good morning america then you'll do a brief interview and then you'll do a Q&A followed by a CD signing." She talked very fast and although I know the boys heard what she said their faces sure weren't showing it. 

After a few more things the people left and the boys and I were shuffled out into the busy streets of new York. When we got the hotel it was about late afternoon and all the boys were antsy with exhaustion. "Can I hang out with Gemma and Lou? You guys are all grumpy." I asked Niall and he nodded so I headed over to where Gemma and Lou were sitting in the lobby as we waited to go to our rooms. 

"Hey babe. How are ya?" Lou asked as I sat down beside her. She slung her arm around me and pulled me into a side hug. 

"I've been better." I groaned getting another shiver. Nothing worse than withdrawals and I mean nothing. 

"You should really eat. Me and Gem were gonna head to the dining hall, wanna come along?" Lou offered and I nodded following them as we searched for our dining hall. When we finally found it I scooped up some macaroni and cheese with some bread and followed the girls to a little booth in the back. 

"So..." Gemma mumbled picking at her food. I never really apologized to her about everything. I guess now is a better time than any.

"Hey Gemma, I'm really sorry about the other night. I was so wrong to drag you into it, I should've just done it later on after we were done. I didn't mean to make you feel bad or get you in trouble with Niall. I'm really sorry about it all." I sincerely apologized and she was so willing to accept it. 

"It's alright. I know it's hard. Just next time, do it when you're with someone else." She smiled and I nodded.

"Don't worry. I don't think there's gonna be another time."

We all sat there and chatted about how long Lou had been doing make up and how Gemma is doing in Uni and how much trouble Lux gets into nowadays back home with Lou's husband. 

"It's hard being here and not there because when I'm there I'm pretty much the only adult so right now I've basically left to three year olds at home the way my husband acts." Lou laughed showing us a few pictures he's sent her. 

"You know Abby, if there's ever any like girl stuff you need to talk about we're here. I know the boys aren't exactly experts. Like if you ever need pads or tampons or anything we've got you." Gemma smirked nudging me. I smiled feeling all warm inside because I never really had "girl friends" before. 

"Thanks guys. Yeah it is weird living with boys. I don't even think they know what a tampon looks like. It's been so long I barely do." I giggled but Gemma and Lou didn't. 

"What do you mean?" Gemma asked looking a little concerned. 

"I haven't had to use one in a while. I'm not pregnant I just have really irregular periods." I told them but they still didn't let down their serious demeanors. 

"Are you on birth control?" Lou asked and I shook my head. "Really? i would've thought..."

"My Uncle said it was a waste of money, he always just got be plan B if they you know..." I looked at their faces and they shifted into a horrified expression. 

"Have you ever been tested for STD's or anything?" Lou had her mom voice on. It was comforting yet a bit intimidating. 

"No... they usually use a condom." But then again they didn't a lot of the times...

"Okay, well let's go." Lou stood up and collected her things as me and Gemma stayed sitting. "Up. We're going to get you tested. I'm taking you to a bloody gynecologist. Have you ever been?" She questioned and I stood up following her out.

"What is that?" I asked as we got into a taxi. Lou looked at me with pity filled eyes. 

"Oh my love. You have so much to learn about how to take care of your body the right way. It's a well... vagina doctor to put it into simple terms. Don't worry." She put her arm around me as we sat in the taxi. We were stuck in traffic for what seemed like hours before we got to the doctors.

"Hi, how may I help you?" The lady behind the window asked.

"Yeah hi, we don't have an appointment but we were wondering if we could be squeezed in. It's kind of urgent." Lou told them lady as she scanned the computer screen. 

"Uh if you're willing to wait a little while I have a slot open in about 20 minutes. Is this a check up?" The lady asked and me and Gemma went to sit down as Lou gave her all the information. 

"Don't be nervous." Gemma smiled placing her hand on my shaky knee. 

Niall's P.O.V.

All the boys had been asleep for the last few hours but I was still up and Zayn was just about waking up. "Hey mate. You still up?" Zayn asked as he sat up in bed, his hair all disheveled. I nodded and he sighed getting out of the bed. "Come outside with me for a smoke."

I stood up from the chair as he lit a cigarette on the balcony over looking the city. I denied his offer of one as we stood there in silence. 

"Hey, did you and Abby ever go on another date or anything?" Zayn asked looking over at me. "I know you like her a lot."

"No, I don't think we will. It's too much on top of everything else. I love her just not in that way. She's got a lot going on the last thing she needs is another man in her life to mess things up." I told Zayn and he looked out into the city. 

I guess so. Maybe at another time. Just, not now." He nodded his head at me and I agreed with him, I guess.

I loved Abigail and I cared about her more than I cared about myself even from only knowing her a couple months. She was my main focus from the minute I woke up to the minute I fell asleep. I want nothing more than for her to be okay and happy from now on. I need her to be. 

A girl so beautiful should not have to deal with half the things she's had to. I want to make sure she's okay and that she knows she's cared for and loved. 

"I love her a lot. I really do. I care about her more than anyone I've ever known. I feel so... so obligated to help her and it hurts me so fucking much to see her in the state she's in. I just want her to know everything is going to be okay in the end. I love her so much... so much."

Abigail P.O.V.

"Okay so you're going to pee on this and then I'm going to run a few tests and check your results with the lab to see if you've contracted anything." The doctor told me as she handed me a little stick.

"Is this a pregnancy test?" I looked at her confused and saw Lou biting her nails. The doctor nodded and I left the room to go to the bathroom. I sat there for like 15 minutes trying to pee before I was actually able too. It was tricky to  pee on the stick considering my hands were a shakey mess because of my withdrawal. 

I got back to the room and did the rest of the tests and then Lou and I sat there for a while waiting. A really long time actually. She left a couple times to see how Gemma was doing in the waiting room and kept reassuring me that this was just a precaution. 

"You know I'm here for you and care for you very much. I just want to make sure you're happy and healthy and that you're taking care of the beautiful body you were given." She gave me a warm smile that made me feel... light and happy inside. 

"Thank you, that means a lot." I never really heard words like that too much. I never had many people care about me or how I was doing especially how my health was. 

"Hey Abigail." Dr.Martin smiled coming back into the room about 3 hours later. She came in and sat on the little stool in front of me holding a folder. "Sorry for the long wait." 

"No problem." I smiled as she opened the folder and peered down at the papers. 

"Okay so good news is you're clean. You have contracted nothing, you're clean." She told me and I saw Lou lighten up a bit and clasp her hands together. "And then I have some good or bad news. Uh, the pregnancy test does indicate that you are pregnant. Now we can take another one just too make sure but if not I'll refer you to a doctor that can talk to you more about how far along you are."

"Bloody hell." Lou gasped looking at me and then when she saw my worried expression she tried to cover it up but it was hard. 

"I'm uh, I don't...oh my, i don't know." I sputtered out looking at Dr.Martin. She nodded and pulled out a card handing it to me. 

"Well you can think about it a little bit more and you should make an appointment with this doctor to talk about how far along you are. Obviously not very, you're very fit still. So please let me know if you have any questions and if I can help you with anything. My office times are very flexible. Thank you for coming in today." She shook my hand and Lou's before leaving the room.

"Abigail I know you must be freaking out but I think you should just keep it. A baby is a blessing, I love Lux with everything in me and without her I wouldn't be me." Lou came over and stood in front of me grabbing my hands.

I had been scared of a lot of things in my life. I've had a lot of things to be scared of but this is by far the most scared I've ever felt. 

"I don't know what to do." I looked up at her my eyes beginning to cloud with tears. 

"Listen to me, you're going to figure it out and I'm going to help you as much as I can. It's all going to be okay. But before we do anything we need to find a doctors office that's open. Before we tell Niall I want to know everything." Lou told me and I changed back into my clothes before following her out of the room.

When Lou told Gemma her face went into a huge smile. "That's so exciting! Babies are so adorable." Gemma smiled hugging me. "But I mean I'm sure you're freaking out. I kind of forgot you're only 16..." I just gave her a weak smile cause yeah I am only 16 and I can't even take care of myself let alone a baby. 

We ended up just going to the hospital for a sonogram and found out that I'm just about a month and a half along. "It happened sometime after my uncle first left then." I told them as we rode back to the hotel. Lou just kept telling me it was going to be okay and everything will work out for the best. I wanted to believe her but that's not exactly how my life goes.

When we got to the hotel I started to feel very nervous. I was blocking out telling Niall but now we're here and it's going to happen and he's going to be mad. "Fuck." I breathed out stopping in the middle of our hallway. "I can't go in there." 

"It's fine. C'mon Abby." Lou pulled me up and threw her arm around me as I felt nauseous. Partly from the withdrawals, partly from the nervousness. 

When we got in the room the boys were all sitting down playing playstation all yelling over each other and screaming at the screen. 

"Hey guys." Louis smiled looking over at us. 

"I want to tell Niall later on my own." I whispered to Lou as we walked closer to them. She nodded and squeezed my shoulder before going into the kitchen area. 

I sat by them and watched them finish their basketball game which apparently they placed bets on because Liam acquired quite a bit of money tonight.

"Hey, how was today?" Niall asked walking over to me on the bed.

"It was good." I smiled looking up at him. "Can we go outside and talk?" He nodded and we walked out onto the balcony, the cold air harsh against my skin. 

"What's up?" He sat down on one of the chairs and I followed sitting across from him. I rung my hands together as they began to sweat. "Hey abby, everything okay?" He reached over and grabbed my hands as I had started to rub harder. 

"I, uh, today Lou took my to the gynecologist I think it's called." I told Niall and his face got kind of red so he obviously knew what it was. "And she gave me a few tests. And one of them was a pregnancy test and uh well it came back positive." I watched his face go from calm to his eyeballs practically jumping out of his head. "And I-"

"Are you keeping it?" Was the first thing he asked although it took hi a while to even get it out.

"I haven't really thought about it but I think...yes. I know I'm really young and stupid and irresponsible but I think this baby will, well, help me. I want to be a better mother than my mother was and if I got rid of this baby I wouldn't be. I want to make sure this baby has everything I didn't have and never has to do the things I had to do. I want to be a great mother better than mine. I want to finally be something good." 

"I've never been prouder of you."

So this one was quite long! I'm sorry for the wait! I just started my second semester of college so I've been quite busy but I'm back now and I'm looking forward to your thoughts on this... plot twist. So please comment, vote and message me! I love to see what you guys think it really motivates me to write better and longer chapters! So comment and vote for the next chapter!