Chapter 24

It was about mid afternoon and everyone was lounging around due to the massive thunderstorn outside. I had been reallly antsy today, it'd been hell, weeks since I've had a smoke and its killing me. I haven't thought about it in awhile but I saw Zayn out on the balcony having one earlier. 

I asked him for a drag but of course he said no before throwing the bud on the ground walking back inside. I sighed sitting on the chair all of us in the boys room watching some old comedy Louis picked out. It was about nap time it seemed, everyone slowly drifting off into little lazy dazes.

Once I was sure everyone was asleep I walked over to Zayns stuff searching for a pack. I knew it was in here somewhere. I rummaged through his nightstand and suitcase until I found it in the back of his jeans he wore earlier. 

I quickly pulled one out placing the pack back in and zipping the suitcase closed. I grabbed the lighter off the dresser and quietly made my way outside onto the balcony. It was windy and the rain was coming down fast, thank god for awnings.

I cupped my hand aroun the end as I tried to get the damn thing to light, this stupid wind making it impossible.

Once I got it I didn't hesitate to take a long drag the feeling of the smoke going into my lungs relieving me greatly. I sat out there looking down on the city, although there was a terrible storm that didn't stop people from going about their day.

The boys were pretty upset because their show got cancelled since it was supposed to be outside and it was well, thundering. 

"Abigail, what are you doing out here?" I heard someone laugh as the door closed. I turned around sighing with relief that it was only Gemma. "You smoke?"

"Yeah, kinda a nasty habit." I shrugged taking another drag. 

"Yeah, it's okay my mum used to smoke, she quit because of my asmtha." Gemma smiled crossing her arms and looking out into the storm. I just nodded continiuing my smoke trying to make it last. "So..."

"Everyone still sleeping?" I asked turning around to face her. She nodded as we both peered through the balcony window.

"Those boys are so lazy." Gemma laughed shaking her head. "Good luck when it comes to tour bus time." 

"What?" I laughed looking at her oddly.

"You know when you start using a tour bus instead of hotels. After L.A. they start." Gemma told me looking at me with amused eyes.

"Shit, right." I groaned leaning on the railing. We stayed outside a little longer just talking about a few girl things, it was nice to talk to a girl.

"What are you guys doing out here?" Harry asked peeking his head out the door. 

I quickly through the cigarette on the ground stepping on it as his eyes flickered from Gemma to me. "Oh I saw Abigail out here and decided to join her."

"Why does it smell like smoke?" He scrunched up his nose in dusgust.

"Oh Ab-"

"Must be the people next door." I shouted over Gemma giving her a stern look. She just nodded along but Harry wasn't buying it. 

"Move your foot." He demanded looking down at where my foot was placed awkwardly over the cigarette. I slowly moved it trying to move the cigarette with me but failed miserably. "Dammit Abby." He huffed turning around and quickly walking inside.

"Great, im dead." I whined following after him. I ran up to him grabbing his shoulder swinging him around to me. "Please Harry, don't tell Niall. I just needed one. It had been so long."

"That's the point! It had been so long because you're supposed to be quitting." He spat turning out of my grip.

"Harry you don't fucking get it!" I shouted a little too loudly. "You really do not know what it's like to be addicted to something! It's not as easy as 'just stopping', You're so fucking ignorant!" I felt my bottom lip quiver but I was trying not to cry.

"What's going on?" A vert groggy Liam asked as he sat up on the couch stretching.

"Abigail was smoking." Harry answered before I could say anything.

"Where did she get them?!" He looked concerned and a bit angry.

"I, I took them from Zayns pack." I told Liam looking away from them.

"You what?" Zayn looked over at me angrier than ever. "Those are mine and that means you would've had to go through all my stuff to get to them!" 

"Sh, you're going to wake up Niall!" I whisper yelled.

"Maybe we should." Liam spat reaching over and shaking Niall.

"Stop that you wanker." I growled at him as he continued. "Stop it!"

"What's goin on?" Niall yawned looking around confused. 

"Nothing." I mumbled crossing my arms. This was going to go downhill.

"I don't understand." Gemma laughed standing beside me. 

"Abigail isn't supposed to be smoking anymore, or doing anything she used to do." Harry crossed his arms as Liam spoke sternly glaring at me.

"Guess I shouldn't be breathing anymore, or sleeping, or eating. I used to do that a lot before to." I snapped back sucking my teeth. 

"Abigail I didn't mean it like that." He spat out through gritted teeth.

"Wait what happened?" Niall chuckled confused about what was going on.

"Abigail was out on the balcony smoking." Liam turned around to tell the blonde haired boy whose face dropped. 

"Abby?" He looked up at me his voice coated in disappointment.

"You know what, fuck you all! Especially you two!" I shouted at Harry and Liam. "Just mind your own fucking buisness every once in a while and we won't have problems. You're not my fucking parents. I... I hate you." I screamed my voice cracking as I made my way into the girls hotel room locking myself in the bathroom. 

I sat in there for I don't even know how long crying and shaking having a proper panic attack. Sitting in the quiet room had me thinking of everything, my Uncle would be back next week, and he would be angry. He would come look for me no doubt, find me and kill me or spare me as long as I made another amount of cash he proposed. 

My hands started to shake, I needed drugs so bad it wasn't even funny at this point. Gosh, my head is killing me.

"Abby." Someone knocked on the door jiggling the handle. 

"Fuck off." I called back before there was a long heavy sigh.

"It's me, Louis, open up." He pleaded knocking lightly. I sat on the counter a bit longer. It was just Louis and Louis was always on my side. Plus, if I stayed in here by myself any longer I would probably go mental with my thoughts. 

I got up opening the door to see Louis leaning against the frame a shy smile on his face. "Hey babe." I just turned around going back to my seat on the counter. "You alright?" I just shrugged not feeling like talking to anyone.

"Listen what they did was uncalled for, but Abigail, you have to understand we do everything we do because we want to help you. I agree with you, they don't get what it's like to get over an addiction, I don't either but we are all trying our best to understand." Louis spoke calmly wrapping me in a hug.

"I'm trying Louis." I whispered my voice cracking. 

"I know, I see that but the lads aren't as bright." He laughed lightly at the end. "We all love you, and we know you're under a lot of pressure with everything. Hell, I'm scared for you. But we care so much about you, especially Niall and he's absolutely wrecked right now. He thought he was helping you so much and you did that and he's not handling it well."

"He's disappointed in me." I sighed my eyes stinging. "You all are."

"Yeah, we are a bit to be honest. But we still love you and we want you to come out there and talk to us." Louis pulled back smiling at me. I nodded giving him a little smile as he wiped under my eyes. 

"I love you Louis." I smiled hopping off the counter.

"Love you too Abby." He grinned throwing an arm around my shoulder.

"I'm trying to help her." We heard Niall groan as we rounded the corner. "I want her to be okay, I'm trying! I'm trying!"

"Ahem." Louis cleared his throat making everyone turn around. "Abigail has agreed to come out of hiding and talk to us." Louis joked squeezing my side making me smile. 

"I uh, I'm sorry." I said quietly shifting my weight from foot to foot. "I don't hate you guys, I was just angry. Zayn I'm sorry I took one of your cigarettes. I saw you smoking and I missed it... and I needed it."

"It's fine." They all said in unison. "We were just worried."

"I know, I just got so frustrated and it doesn't help when you all yell at me." I laughed half heartidly. 

"Still confused." Gemma laughed from her spot on the couch. We all just shook our heads too lazy to explain until she gave up asking, Harry promising to explain another time. 

"How about we let Niall and Abigail spend sometime together yeah?" Louis suggested pushing me over to Niall. "Watch a movie order pizza, something. We'll be next door! Toodles!" And just like that they had shuffled out of the room leaving Niall and I in an eery quiet.

"Hangover 3 is on demand." He spoke up grabbing my attention. 

"I've never seen the first two." I admitted laughing. 

"Well looks like we've got a movie marathon to take part in." He winked at me as he jumped onto the couch, I was looking forward to this to be honest.

This is such a shitty chapter im so sorry omg.