Jungkook's Thoughts

JUNGKOOK POV

I'm back in Seoul with all the members. I'm thinking about her all the time. I'm replaying the scene in my head at the airport every 5 mins. Why her? Couldn't it just be a girl from Seoul that's really thin and pretty? No. I fell in love with a cute, funny, and nice person that lived in Spain. 

"Stop being sad, what's wrong with you? You've been like this for a week now..." Tae said worried. "Stop being sad huh? Easy for you to say I got the girl you wanted. I loved Sas, but we couldn't be together" I said tearing up. "Kookie, if you really want her, you need too do something about it. Don't just stay there and do nothing, you'll loose her." He said shouting at me. He was right, but it was too late. She probably hated me now. I sent her a message yesterday, she hasn't answered yet. What should I do? I'm so confused. Apparently my dancing is getting worse because of stress. It's because of her. 

Midnight

I started to cry listening to my song Butterfly. The song I sang the first time I saw her beautiful face. I was crying everynight. I let her go, she was gone, I was probably gone from her life. I didn't want her to be gone but at the same time I did. I wanted to forget her so that I would be in less pain. The process of forgeting her, was the hard thing. How can you forget the one? The girl that makes you feel happy every minute when you spend time with her, how can you forget? My head was turning, I was screaming on my pillow, frustrated. She was never gonna love me again, and I wasn't able to forget her. 

What do I do?

I hate you.

I love you.

done! next chapter soon! stay tuned.